Janaes Story by deajia wadley (read ebook pdf TXT) 📖

She was born in this world sick no one knew what she was  she didn't even know she was and no on thought she would turn out the way she did and now its costing her, her life and the people around her just tell her everything she is doing wrong but she wont listen she will be forever doomed in the life that she lives now.She is short with long  pink hair skinny light sight skinned with a  prefect figure and eyes that are sharp and piercing  she is 15 years old . This is Janae’s Story.

Prologe

he walks around her friends house and realizes that their a large amount of boys in the house .she had been invited to the party and had a crush on her friend alexis brother Marcus she wanted so bad for him to like her that she had already made up in her mind she was going to do everything to get him the naive  girl thought this was the way for him to show some profound love for her. Upon her seeing all these boys she was scared she just didn't show it she smiled at them in a flirtatious matter she didn't even know she was showing. She walked in the back room and changed into her pajamas and Marcus ran in to the room and got behind her ,she was confused at first about what was going on around her but she thought if  she stopped him he would no longer show interest in her at all , He told he how bad he wanted her and she thought of it as  he loved her like she loved him when he left the room she couldn't stop smiling at what just happened the rest of the night he would look at her and smile and stare.

When it was almost time for everyone to go to bed Marcus cousin Jordan came into the living room with her and he asked whats wrong she answer truly and said nothing he asked her did she want to go to the back with him so she thought about it and after thinking it through she got up and fallowed him to his room. Once they were in there he instantly started removing his clothing she told him that she couldn't have sex and he didn't ask her why he just stopped and sat down with her and slowly he leaned in and kissed her softly on the lips once she was use to the kiss she started to get rougher she was nervous even though she had kissed a boy before this was the first time she was actually alone with a boy in a room and actually had a chance to have sex.

He lifted her shirt and she was surprised she didn't want to stop him. He was so gentle and caring with the way he treated her she never wanted to be out of  his touch  she melted with ever kiss and touch from him and she never wanted it to end but she knew she had to. When they were done with their make out session she kissed him once more and left his room, but as she got into bed and drifted off to sleep in her bed all she could think about was Marcus  yes she liked him and she liked Jordan but she knew her heart belonged to Marcus. 

When she woke up that morning she did her usual routine and then walked into the kitchen ,Jordan had left early with his mom and some of the rest of the boys where gone to, everyone was their except Marcus so she went to go see where he was When she found him she sat by him on the couch and asked him what was wrong it seemed as if he didn't have an answer for any of her questions she wanted to get up put how he smiled at her made her want to stay. She slowly leaned  in and kissed him on his lips and he greatly accepted her kiss. She trailed her kissed down to his neck and when he moan she sucked harder and flicked her tongue against him when she pulled back he still had his bright smile on his face which only made her want to kiss him more, but she had to get up and get ready for the party when she was done changing everyone was ready to go.

They had pulled up to an unfamiliar place and Alexis mom had told her that they were going to play laser tag. She had never played before but she knew it would be a good exercise and she would have a lot of  fun doing it . After they played about 7 games of  laser tag and played with everything else there possible was in the arcade It was time to eat. She had meet one of  Alexis friend and they were actually getting along very well when they saw where everyone was sitting they had the same thing on there mind  it was to many people in one little space to their left they saw their were two more empty tables away from everyone else but not to far that they couldn't see us they were literarily 5  feet away.

When they sat down 3 boys came over and  sat at the second table One of the boys was Jordan he smiled at me and i lightly smiled back at him after she turned around and talked more to girl she had just meet. They had school in the morning so and her sisters Aaliyah and  Justice mom came and got them they all truly enjoyed their time but when Janae got in the car  her and questioned her about what happened over the weekend  she said that Alexis mother had told her  that i had done something bad and She told her nothing because other than kissing Jordan and Marcus she didn't to anything that Her mother would know about and she wasn't about to tell her mother what happened between them. When she had got home her  had  mom dropped  the conversation. Her sister Aaliyah who she thought was sleep during her mothers conversation pulled her into the bathroom to talk to her she had told her what was going on and why mamma would think she did something bad that Alexis mom would notice. She told the that Alexis mother was saying she was alone with 5 boys when she was over at the separate tables she said that she was trying to be fast .

The one thing that caught her ear  is when she said that Marcus had said she was a HOE. When her sister uttered those words  her heart broke into tiny little pieces they boy she loved had not defended her but signed with all the negative comments being thrown on her he didn't say she was smart, talented, beautiful ,innocent, cheerful, confident, and loving  but instead he called her the worst name that anyone can all a female and it got worse to hear that Alexis had said it to. Her friend and her love had hurt her to her core and  with all the emotions going through her she did not know what to say? what to do? how to feel ?  she was sad, mad, angry, confused, hurt, manipulated, and used. In heart she had thought Marcus felt the same way about her but clearly he had other things in mind and to think about it he was never really nice to her unless the were alone together she had came to the conclusion that the one had fallen in love with was a harsh and curl man who should never be trust. After her sister told he with pity and sorrow in her eyes, she knew how she felt about Marcus, she didn't want her sister to be hurt  over a boy that was no good anyway but she had to let her have her moment and cry it out but in her head she knew it would blow over that all her older sister had to do is cry it out and then move on from the situation. 

Janae had locked her self into the room and cried her self to sleep but keep waking up to the dream of Marcus screaming out her name  so instead of  torturing her self she listen to her favorite song Thinking out loud by Ed Sheeran when he listen to the slow love song and just thought about who her love story would never the on that he describes to her in his song she cried and cried to his song on replay before she finally feel out due to her tiredness. When she checked her clock it was her time to wake up and get read for school she got in the shower and did her morning routine.She looks in the mirror and she cant even recognize her own face she  feels dirty and used the one she loved for years had betrayed her trust. With every glimpse of her self she seemed to drift of into her mind she looked broken like the world around her had stomped on her heart and tore her into oblivion. She turned away from the mirror with tears in her eyes  and continued to get ready for the day ahead.

She walked into to school with all black cloths and makeup all of her friends were stunned by her new look she had always been colorful and bright. They walked up to her and asked her what had happened she just  blankly stared of into space and tried not to think about what happened.She  had liked Marcus since she was 10 when they were little she always played marriage with him the would stand over the door entrance with fake flower in their hand and say their vows to each other in her head she knew it was just a game she just thought since they had such a good connection throughout the years but how could his feeling change so fast one minute he was saying how much he wanted her then the next he would call he a hoe. It was never her goal to be promiscuous she just wanted love all she ever needed was the love that no one would give her she wanted to be wanted by someone else she wanted to be held and have someone claim to the whole world their love for one another she thought Marcus would be the line to provide her with that unconditional love  that she had been yearning for her whole life  but at last she was wrong the one she had given her heart to shattered her very soul. she was quiet the whole day she  wold smile here and there so the teachers wouldn't think anything was wrong with her her plan was successful.

When she went home she still had the same throbbing pain in her chest  she went in her moms medicine cabinet  and grabbed the pain killers she took out 2 then 3 then 6  she stopped when she had 10 pills in her hand she went into the kitchen and  got a glass of orange juice  and took all the pills at once she slid down the counter and counted  to 100 to distract her from the pain that was soon to cook when she was at 60 her heart stopped hurting and the pain moved to her stomach in a matter of seconds she had foam coming from her mouth and a large spread pain all over her body but soon she knew all her pain would go away Marcus would no longer be able to hurt her he had