lost love by elizabeth fritz (namjoon book recommendations .TXT) 📖

Later on, Dan and Emily went away, to I don’t know where.
“I have to go now as well” Justin said.
“Where to?” Michael asked.
“Oh, I’m going out tonight with Angela”
“Angela?” he said.
“His girlfriend,” I told him.
Michael looked surprised. “You have a girlfriend already? How old are you?”
I held my laughter.
“Fourteen” He said. “Yeah we’ve been together since last year.”
“Aren’t you a little too young?”
“Uh, no, now if you excuse me, I have a girl to take out now, and I don’t wanna be late” Justin said and went upstairs, to spray on some deodorant I bet.
“I have given him the speech already once.” I told him.
“Ah, Okay, but you have to admit, he’s just fourteen! Don’t your parents say anything?”
“No, not really,” I told him.
“Oh…” he said, and turned to face me.
“Yeah…” I sighed; looking at him, there wasn’t much I could see.
Later on, I showed him my favourite room, the study, he looked through everything and nodded, “Cool,” was all he said, and we sat down on the sofa, “I owe you this,” He said then, and moved his lips onto mine, kissing me deeper than before.
I have to admit, it didn’t feel half as good when Luke had kissed me. But he didn’t really kiss me, he had just done mouth to mouth, but why didn’t he let Michael do it? I’m sure that they teach you that at the beginning of swimming lessons, just in case…
Anyway, by then he had pulled me closer to his body, and I had moved my hand to the side of his head. And then, after a little while, I became uncomfortable, because then I remembered something.
Luke lived right next door to me, and his room window was right there, so that if he looked through, he would see a making out couple. But hopefully he might be doing something else, out of his room.
I quickly pulled away and looked out of the window, and he was there, standing behind the window, staring at us. I blushed when his eyes met mine. He just stood there with a rather hurt look on his face. Before I could do anything else, Michael had turned his head to where I was looking, and he too, blushed.
“Aw, damn!” Michael muttered.
Luke, seeing that he had interrupted, pulled his curtains over. Michael did as well, just in case.
“That was, uh, awkward…” I said.
“My kiss or that dude watching us from his window?” he wanted to know.
I smiled a little, “Luke” I corrected, “watching us.”
He grinned, “Yeah, but the kissing was excellent.”
“Yeah…” I sighed, “It was” I said now thinking about Luke, even though my boyfriend was right here.
“What are you thinking about, um, Shannon?” he asked, his face just inches away from mine.
“Oh, nothing…” I said, and pecked lightly at his lips, and then stood up. “Now what shall we do?” I asked.
He was grinning very widely, staring right into me.
“How about uh…” I kept thinking about something, because I knew where this was going, “you can stay for dinner; it should be ready in like a minute.” I suggested.
“Not exactly what I had in mind, but okay.” He said.
I shook my head, then took his hand and led him downstairs, where my dad and mom were sitting.
“Michael is joining us for dinner” I announced.
“Okay” My mom said from the kitchen.
My dad looked up at him from his chair and nodded, “How do you do son?” he asked, not even half interested.
“I’m fine, thanks, and you?” he replied politely.
“Good, good.” He said, and returned to the book he was reading.
Michael looked at me and I shrugged.
Then after a few minutes my mom announced that dinner was ready and we all went to the table, and sat down.
Mom smiled at Michael, ‘Well, hello there” she said.
“Hey,” Michael said.
“How’s it going?”
“Fine, everything’s fine”
“Oh, um okay” mom said.
Then there was a long pause, and then my mom spoke again.
“How old are you?” she asked him.
“I’m 18” he said. Yeah, so he’s 2 years older than me! So is Luke!
“Oh!” she said in surprise “You’re two whole years older that Shannon here.” She told him as if he didn’t already know.
“Yes, she’s sixteen I’m eighteen, two years older, I am,” He said.
“Paul’s first girlfriend was three years younger though, Susan.” My dad said.
“Yes, I know John, He was 17 and she was 14, what was her name again?”
“Um, Julia I think it was, sweet girl, but she was just Shannon’s age.” He said.
“Yeah, she used to be my friend, but she moved to Florida.” I said.
Michael looked bored, “Well, anyway…”
“Hmm…” Michael said, nodding.
“Oh, yes, speaking of Paul, he called earlier” Dad said.
“Yeah, what did he say then?” Mom wanted to know.
“He’s coming next Friday.” He told.
“No way! My baby is coming in less than a week after a whole year!” she said excited, the just like I was, I liked my brother Paul.
After that my mom was dying to call everyone she knew about it.
In a while, everyone was done with their food and I started clearing up the plates, and Michael followed.
“You’re brother is coming from?” he asked.
“Oh, from the UK, he goes to the Oxford University.” I told him
“Wow, that’s pretty cool.” He said.
“Yeah, Paul is a good guy.” I said.
He started helping me do the dishes, kind of. I splashed some water on him, laughing. He splashed some back on me, and we kept going on and on, until all the dishes were done. We were kind of soaking, but it was okay.
“Wanna come over to my place?” He asked.
“Oh sure, but let me just change.” I said.
“Alright,” he said, and followed me upstairs. My room was very messy at the moment, all my clothes were lying around and including my underwear’s, I hope he didn’t notice. I picked out a shirt and turned to him. He was looking around my room.
“Sorry it’s a bit messed up, um, I got to change now, so if you don’t mind…” I said.
“Oh, no of course not,” he said and turned around, “I’m not looking, now hurry up.”
I laughed, but quickly changed while his back was faced to me. I’m sure he wasn’t peeking. “Okay, all ready.” I said, and then he turned around.
“Oh, let’s go now.” He said, taking my hand and we left out to his car and he drove me to his house.
“Wow,” I said looking around, “Very beautiful.”
"You mean the house?" He paused, "Or me?"
I blushed, "The house."
"Oh, well.. My moms an artist." he chuckled.
“Where are your parents?” I asked.
“Oh, they’re not at home.” He said.
“Ooh alright then” I said and he led me to his room, which was even messier than mine.
“Ah, I haven’t cleaned this place in days!” he exclaimed.
“Days? More like years!” I joked.
He laughed, “Yeah I know.” Then without warning me, he took off his shirt and revealed his body. I didn’t have anything to say. He grabbed a clean, dry shirt and put it on. “How do I look now?” he asked.
“No comment!” I said, smiling.
He chuckled, “Fine, but you look great anyway.”
“Yeah I know.” I teased.
He shook his head and put his arm around me. “So, what do you wanna do now?” he asked.
“I don’t know,” I said.
“Oh, well…” he said.
“Yeah?” I asked.
“I don’t know…” He replied.
“Oh,” I said.
“Let’s watch a movie,” he suggested.
“Sure,” I said, and we went to the TV room and played a movie.
I don’t really like to watch movies, I prefer to read the books, but there was nothing else to do so.
I’m sure he got bored of it too, because half way through, I saw him looking at me instead of the screen. I was about to tell him how boring it was but I never got the chance to. He was kissing me again I was even starting to get annoyed. Not a lot of people say that, but it didn’t feel the way I always thought it might, I saw no fireworks, but I’m not saying that I didn’t enjoy it, it’s just… yeah, you know what I mean.
So we sat there, glued to each other for like, ten minutes, and then I started to get really bored and tired. “I wanna go home now” I said breaking the kiss.
“Um, okay” he said, and he drove me home. I got out of the car and waited for him to leave. I didn’t go inside, I stayed out, and then I saw that Luke was doing the same thing.
 

 Luke was standing, not noticing me. I walked up to him, “Hi.” I said. He looked at me.
“Oh Hey Shannon” he said.
“Um, I’m sorry about the whole window thing, I forgot, um, yeah.” I tried to explain.
“Oh that’s okay,” he smiled weakly “So, you enjoy it much don’t you?”
I was shocked by his question but whatever, “Well, not with him really, I don’t know…” I said.
“Oh you don’t? You looked like you were having fun then” he shrugged.
“I really don’t know, I’m not even sure if he’s The One for me. I’m just… confused,” I sighed.
“Oh yeah I get the feeling…” He said.
Then I tried to change the subject, “Hey, Luke, Thank you so much for saving my life earlier, I am so grateful to you, I don’t know what else I can do!” I said.
“Any time,” he smiled, and then he hugged me, and I hugged him back.
The sensation came back. I felt complete, as if there was a part of me missing for my whole life, until the times he touches me, then everything changes.
Then we pulled apart, “Well see you later,” I said.
“Yeah, goodnight” he said and we went home.
I entered my house and sat in the Study, thinking heavily.
I don’t know what was wrong with me, I felt odd, and I don’t think I should have ever agreed in going out with Michael, it just seems awkward.
Well, on the bright side, Paul was coming! He’s my favourite brother. Well, its not like I don’t care about Justin… but I always preferred Paul.
So then after a while I went to bed.
I woke up very late, because I was very sleepy. I got ready and stuff and went downstairs, had breakfast. I had no idea of what I was going to do that day. I went back to my room and turned on the computer, to find out that the internet was not working! That was just sad. So I called Emily.
“Hi Em,” I said when she picked up.
“Oh hey Shann what’s up?” she said.
“Absolutely nothing!”
“Oh, don’t have plans for today?”
“No, but Paul is coming on Friday!”
“Oh Paul, cool!”
“Yeah, so what are you doing?”
“Oh, me, I’m just hanging around with Canine”
Canine is her dog.
“Oh, okay, can I come over then?”
“Please do, Shannon, I’m feeling lonely!” She said and then we hung up.
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