peace and faith by geogie b (howl and other poems .TXT) 📖

peace and faith
It was Saturday the twelfth of may, and my mum was on her way to a bull riding show. she loved bulls but after that day she never found them amusing again after that day i never felt happiness again.
 
chapter 1
2 days after mum died things have not been the same for 1 my dad hardly speek's to me. Before she died he used to tell me all the time how much i looked like her I guess that is why he does not dare to look maybe he is scared of what will happen if he sees her in me .2 weeks has passed and still no change he does not tuck me in or say good night he doesn't even sleep I'm getting so worried of what will happen. Nearly a month has passed and he has only started sleeping again but every night is like hell he has the worst night mares about mum and i cant do anything if i try he just tells me to go to bed and not to bother coming next time. I'm getting to the point where i think he needs help from a profetinal i cant sleep he cant sleep i cant tell him about my worries he cant either. I rang up my doctor to see if he could help but he was to busy and could not help me with this problem he told me to stay with dad in case of any stupid thing that he mite want to do. After I got of the phone i told dad what i was going to do and what he needed to do to help. It was hard trying to get dad back on his feet but not impossible. We had to go through a lot of things and a lot of tears but i was not going to give up, yare mum was the glue that held us together but as much as i loved her I will not watch my farther be brocken for the rest of his life because of the missing peace of our family.
 
 
 
 
Chapter 2
 
"No !!!! Dad what are you doing why are you not at work " I yelled stressfully. " its my day of " he whispered looking down, I followed his gaze down to the old photo album he had been looking through. I took the book out of his hands and went to put it in the loft , when i got back he was crying great I thought to myself . " look dad i know that its hard for you but you have to try to forget about it " I whispered . " how do i forget about her she's my wife ... Well was my wife " he sobbed . " dad " I said calmly ," I need you to do something for me ". " what is it " he asked, " Its just .... I think you should try to find someone else". "what" he said sounding confused. " you know ... Find another women", "oh" he said in a sad voice . " Is there something wrong with that". " look Abby i don't think im ready to date yet " he said with a small smile on his face , " what ... Not ready dad its been a year and a half at least try for me". "why do you what us to forget about your mother she is still
Going to be there in my mind doesn't matter who I date I will never find someone like you mother". I thought about that for a minute but answered " you don't know that there is no one out there for you we just have to find some one who is fearless and is a great hugger" i said laughing at the end part. " Your right there has to be someone a bit like you mother we just have to keep looking for her.". I was happy to hear my farther agree with me he only thought he was right for the past few month's I was kind of happy to see him slowly forming into his old self maby it will be a new biggining for all off us.
 
 
 
 
 
 
Chapter 3
 
The next day dad and me looked up onto one of those dating websites dad kept going on about how he should be doing this alone and how i new these websites of corse dad did not know the magic of Google. When we was on there was lots of women available but of course non of them were as brave hearted as mum , we didn't stop trying and we didn't stop failing. 2 week's past and we still hadn't got anywhere until Friday morning 15th of may on match .com ,A lady called Lucy was up for a match it said in her description that she was fearless a great hugger and 100 percent kind... just like mum , bingo i thought to my self but i was also thinking about what to do next show dad lucy or get to learn more about hear so that i could tell dad even more, of corse i did the right thing . That night I stared typing messages to Lucy and i didn't even know who she was just a stranger but in a way it was like talkin to mum i wanted so badly to type in all my problem's and tell her how much i missed her but kept reminding myself that it was Lucy i was talking to not mum and that i should not creep her out i was pretending to be dad after all , how stupid he would look if Lucy was just one of his mates trying to play a cruel trick on him so i played it cool and acted like dad would if he was speeking to mum on that first date.

Publication Date: 09-25-2010

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