When She's Broken. by Chalen D. (13 inch ebook reader txt) 📖

said, shoving a ring on to my left hand.
"It's a promise, ring. my class ring will have to work for now."
i smiled and kissed him.
"i don't want you to go." i said.
he smiled, and kissed my forehead.
"we'll be together soon."
"bye," i called as he walked away.
he came back kissed me deeply and left.
"see you at home." Kenna said.
"Yeah." i said wondering if she saw.
"i love you, you can talk to me about anything." she said.
"you are the best twin ever." i said, hugging her.
when i did get home they where gone.
there was a knock on the door and i opened it to a cop.
"can i help you?"
"Scarlett Black?"
"yeah."
"there's been a car accident with your mom. there was a girl and a boy in the car. there's no survivors, i'm sorry."
did i just here him right. i felt like i was the one who died.
i slammed the door.
i went into my mom's room, grabbed her blanket, then went to Kenna's grabbed her stuffed bear, then went to Ayden's. i crawled into his bed and cried.
when my dad found me i was in my room on the bathroom floor.
"come on sweety."
he picked me up and put me in bed.
the next morning i went down stairs.
"why aren't you ready?"
"i'm not going."
"you have to go to school."
"i just lost my mom, my brother, and my other half. please don't make me go."
i used brother instead of love of my life.
"alright you can stay home."
after he left i dug through Ayden's closet.
i found a box of black hair dye.
i ripped the box open and went into his bathroom. i dyed my hair from brown to black.
i sat on the toilet and cried at what i'd just done.
i washed out my hair, and looked in the mirror.
i looked.... pretty.
it made me feel better.
i took off Ayden's ring and put it on a necklace and wore it like that.
"whoa." dad said when he saw me.
"sorry."
"it's fine. why don't you sleep in my bed tonight?"
"i'm good."
"it'll be like old times."
"okay."
"who did you sleep with?" he asked in the morning.
"what?"
"i know your not a virgin."
"dad your making things up." i said.
i went to the bathroom, to take a shower.
that's when i noticed my underwear was on inside out.
"who did you sleep with?" he asked, opening my door."
i covered myself.
"did you rape me?" i asked.
"you looked so like your mom."
"so you rapped me." i said.
"don't look at it like that."
he grabbed me and put me on a shelf.
"stop."
"no you stop." he said, grabbing my throat.
he picked me up, and i grabbed at his hands.
"you know i'd never take you for a slut. i mean i knew your sister was."
he tossed me onto the floor.
"don't talk about her like that."
"whatever."
he took out some rope. he grabbed my arm and put me on the bed. tying me there.
"your just going to leave me here?"
"you make that sound mean."
"how can you get turned on be a little girl?"
"oh there's nothing little about you."
he kept me tied up for two day's only letting my go to the bath room.
"are you hungry?"
i nodded.
"you have to earn your food."
"that's sick."
"yeah, but we both win, you get food, and i get you."
after he was finished with me i got to eat.
"why are you doing this?"
"i'm just trying to keep you safe."
he put me on the counter.
"you understand don't you?"
"no."
he grabbed my through.
"yes." i gasped pulling at his hand.
"good. now get on your knees."
"please."
he grabbed me and threw me to the floor.
"your going to listen to me, but since your going to be a bad girl, i'll have to punish you."
he grabbed a knife.
he picked me up, and put me on the counter.
"pick your dress up."
i picked up my dress.
he cut away my underwear.
"please." i panicked.
"relax. i'm not going to cut you."
"does it hurt?" he asked, as he pounded into me.
"yes." i said.
he went harder. he threw me to the floor.
i gasped for air and held onto my throat.
the door was knocked on and he went to answer it.
"officer." he said surprised.
"help!"
"excuse me sir."
the cop came into the room.
he saw the knife, my underwear and me on the floor.
"Sir, i'm going to have to arrest you."
"why?" my dad said.
"James."
"come with me miss."
"i can't walk."
"why?"
"cause i'm sore, let's leave it at that."
"cause he rapped you?"
"cause he rapped me."
"i'm just going to pick you up."
he picked me up and put me in the front seat.
we went to the hospital, where i stayed for an hour.
"we called your older brother and he-"
"Scar!" lee said, taking my hand.
"everything's going to be fine. your going to come and stay with me."
" i need to go home and get stuff."
"i know come on."
"what me to help you?"
"no, i got it."
i grabbed the bags he brought and went into the house.
i shoved Ayden's clothes into a bag. i found a journal and opened it.
it was his days here, on the last pages he glued pictures of us on the pages.
i swallowed and put the book in. i packed up my mom's and Kenna's clothes, and our pictures.
i put the bags in the back seat of the truck.
"can i use those?" i asked, pointing to boxes.
"sure."
i packed their blankets. something black caught my eye. i looked over and saw Ayden's Leather Jacket.
i put it on and cried.
lee knocked on the door.
"who lived in here."
"just a boy."
"that you liked?"
"that i loved." i sobbed.
he hugged me.
"nice jacket."
"it was his. Ayden."
"are you ready to go?"
"yeah."
i went to his house, and put everything away.
"didn't you pack your clothes?"
"i'm going to wear Ayden's."
"i like what you did to your hair."
"thanks."
i pulled the jacket up.
it smelled like him. i leaned on the door and cried.
How could they all be gone? what happened? everything was okay, now everything wasn't.
we pulled up to a building.
"where are we?"
"i work here, it's for kids that need help."
we got out.
"Hey Lee!" a kid with black hair said.
The kid turned his blue eyes on me.
"Hey i'm Eli."
i shook his hand.
"Scarlett, his little sister."
"if it wasn't for Lee, i'd be dead, come on, i'll show you around."
i looked at Lee.
"go for it."
i followed Eli.
"i really Like your Jacket."
"thanks."
"Were'd you get it?"
"oh it's not mine."
"oh, well there's different groups of support here. there's a group if you want to kill yourself, if you cut yourself, and if you need to talk to someone. I've been in every room, so now i help out for kids that don't want to talk to the Adults."
"i need help." i blurted.
"what kind of help?" he asked, smile warm.
"uh, never mind."
i walked away.
"hey, if you need help let me help you."
"I don't want anyone to know."
"okay, i'll help you behind closed doors."
"okay."
"what's the worst you've done."
i gave him a wrist.
he lifted up the sleeve.
"pretty deep, we'll be working together."
"can you look at it as a friendship please?"
"yeah, absolutely."
"uh, you know what, i change my mind, i'm fine."
"if i can help save you, i'm not going to stop."
"i'm scared."
"that's normal."
"that doesn't sound like what a friend would say."
"sorry, i'm not used to friends here."
"Scarlett let's go."
i turned relieved.
i turned back to Eli when he took my wrist.
"i'm not gonna give up on you."
"thank you."
"yep."
he smiled, and went down the hall.
he wore a black long sleeved shirt and black jeans.
"ready?" Lee asked, putting an arm around me.
i jumped away from him, like his hands where dipped in poison.
i looked around, and Saw Eli shake his head and turn the corner.
"sorry." i whispered.
"i's my fault, come on."
the next day i started a new school.
i got lunch and sat down at a table that no one was at.
i stared at my food. i pushed it away discussed.
i picked up my bag and left the court yard.
i shoved my hands deep inside of Ayden's jacket.
i hurried along walking by tables filled with kids.
"Scarlett!"
i looked up at my name.
Eli waved.
i looked back down and picked up my pace.
i heard running feet and i wished he'd go away.
"hey."
"hi." i said, picking up my pace.
"you okay?"
"yep."
"no your not."
i stopped.
"why don't we meet."
"i'm fine." i said stomping off.
"Let me help you."
"No." i said, firmly.
"Scarlett."
i pushed the bathroom door open.
i looked at my wrist.
i opened my bag and grabbed the blade i keep in there.
i dragged it across my skin, and watched the blood rise.
i stopped the bleeding and went to class.
"dinner's almost done." Lee said.
"no thanks i ate a big lunch, i'm gonna go to bed."
the next morning, i grabbed my blade.
"there's another way, give me the blade." Eli said, pushing open my door.
i backed away.
"you gotta trust me Scarlett, i only want to help you." he held out his hand.
"liar." i said, dragging the blade across my skin.
i dropped the blade.
Eli grabbed my wrist and held it over my head.
he led me to the bathroom, and stopped the bleeding.
"your staring to cut too deep."
"so." i said
i grabbed his wrist and looked at the scars.
i touched them lightly.
"don't you ever want to cut?"
"yes."
"do you."
"no."
"why?"
"i learned to deal with it, a different way."
i dropped his wrist.
"i like it."
"i did too."
"so why don't you go back?"
"cause i'm better than that."
"cause your strong. you need to leave."
"no."
"yes, go, before, i drag you back down."
"Scarlett."
"I'm terrified." i sobbed.
Eli pulled me into his arms.
"i feel so alone."
his arms tightened around me.
"I'm here, for you."
four words. four words that gave me hope and made my heart fly.
"wanna know what happened?"
"you wanna tell me."
i nodded, smiling, and wiped my eyes.
we sat on my bed.
"okay, so, Lee left and my dad threw himself into his work. we used to be really close. My twin sister's name is Makenna. we are always together. my mom and i, we're pretty close. i had a happy family, i had everything i wanted i was happy. Ayden was a foster kid that stayed with us. he had problems that i didn't understand. in the week he stayed with us i fell in love with him, and slept with him. one day after school, he said he was gonna marry me. sorry." i paused to wipe my tears.
"it's okay." he smiled.
i took the ring out of my shirt.
" see? so that day i stayed after school. and when i got home a cop said, there was a car accident. I lost the love of my life, my mom, and my other half. my dad began to beat, choke and rape me. he tied me up for two days without food or water. i felt