learn to trust again by chelsea johnson (reading list .txt) 📖

they all laughed but Danny he didn’t like it when i used his full name i don’t no why “don’t call me that and i need you to do two rotors for me jolene” he said sweetly at the end i growled at him i hated my name so much “NOT WHEN YOU CALL ME THAT” i spat at him the others looked so shocked especially as they didn’t no why i hated it so much but Danny soon realise why i hated it sooooo much- when i was being abused by Joe and dad (Danny didn’t no about dad iv never told anyone) they used to call me my full name and call me their little princess- i started crying Danny jumped out of his seat and ran over to me “SSSSHHHHHIIIITTTT i completely forgot jojo im sorry please forgive me” he said softly i nodded my head “i PROMISE i wont ever call you that again” he said letting go of me and whipping my face,

Just as he had finished wiping my face keegan came back with a hot chocolate for me it had a big marshmallow on it i giggled and looked up at him and smiled he lifted me up and then sat me on his lap i hugged him “thank you i really do need this” i said and smiled at him “its ok sweetheart anytime” he said and then i drank it and then fell asleep on keegan but before i was zonked out i heard them talking about me

“why did she flip out when you said her full name” i heard Brady ask “because when she was at home our uncle Joe used to abuse her and call her Jolene or princess so don’t whatever the circumstance call her that or you’ll meet with my fist i don’t care that you guys are like family NO ONE AND I MEAN NO ONE IS GOING TO TOUCH HER AGAIN OR CALL HER THAT WITH HAVING TO DEAL WITH ME GOT IT” he said quietly but anger showing in his voice i heard gasps and year and i promise i wont and omg’s i felt keegan stroking my hair it felt nice “why would anyone do that to her look she is so tiny and cute” i heard keegan say i heard loads of people agree then i heard someone growl i opened my eyes and rubbed them i looked up and saw everyone smiling
“sorry keeg’s i didn’t mean to fall asleep on you” i said once i finished yawing only to be followed by another yawn i heard them all laugh “its ok” i blushed “what are you lot talking about” i asked all of their face went into shock as if they thought I’d caught them “we were talking about when you used to live at home and what hap..” Bryan started to say and then he got elbowed by Brady then my face fell “jojo it was just about how small and tiny you look in keegan clothes” Brady said “your lying to me what were you really talking about” i said i felt my heart beat faster and so did keegan he also felt me tense up he put his arms around me to calm me down but it wasn’t working i looked over to Danny he looked so guilty “y-y-you told them d-d-didn’t you” i asked him i felt tears come to my eyes he went to stand up so i jumped and was about to run when keegan caught me and stopped me “we don’t think any different of you hunny please don’t cry” he said trying to comfort me “jojo I’m sorry they erm i thought they had the right to know now they can protect you more and keep you safe I’m, I’m sorry” he said he went to walk to me but i fell to the floor and cried i heard him tell them but i couldn’t grasp the fact that it wasn’t a dream.

i felt someone pick me up and carry me to my bed i looked up and saw keegan i smiled and then grabbed his hand he looked at me and smiled and then i fell asleep i woke up at 3 in the morning screaming i opened my eyes to find Danny holding me and all the boys in my bedroom sitting on the floor “im-im sorry i-i didn’t mean to wake you up” i said he laughed “jojo its fine, go to sleep, your safe i promise you” Danny said all the boys were about to go so i sat up and grabbed josh’s keegan’s hands “will someone stay with me” i said when all the boys turned to look at me “who wants to do it tonight” Danny asked “well i think she wants josh or keegan” Sam said smiling i blushed and then let go of their hands “ill stay guys she didn’t mean to wake you lot up go on i don’t mind” Danny said “naa its ok mate ill stay you need your sleep and plus she grabbed my hand and not yours” keegan said i laughed at them then they all looked at me “what you laughing about” josh asked “you lot fighting to see how is gunna stay with me” i giggled then they laughed and keegan said goodnight to them lot and then went to lay on the floor i grabbed his hand and pulled him to the bed he didn’t hesitate and laid down under the covers with me i put my head on his chest and fell to sleep while he was stroking my hair this was the first night i didn’t have a night mare.

i woke up and saw Danny smiling at me and keegan laid down together i blushed and then got up and walked to the bathroom and had a hot shower when it started to get cold i got out and went into my walk in wardrobe and got out a pink v-neck top and black revs and my pink and black high-tops and then i walked out and straightened my hair and put a headband in and my earring and matching necklace that Danny got me for my 10th birthday and said it was because i was now double digits i smiled and then walked out and saw that keegan had gone so i put on some make up not a lot though it was just eyeliner and mascara and some lip gloss then i walked down stairs and into the kitchen

i got myself an apple and a bit of toast and then i walked strait into Brady he looked mad i touched his arm and he move back “don’t touch me” he growled and walked of i was standing their shocked and decided i was going to talk to him “Brady wait” i shouted he stopped and turned around “what” he growled “what’s wrong” i asked him he went to walk away “if you do i will scream don’t test me, now tell me what’s wrong” i said “nothing i just didn’t get a lot of sleep thanks” he said i flinched and then i felt like crying “im sorry i said i didn’t mean to wake you up i just had a bad dream” i said quietly but i didn’t realise that all the boys were downstairs now “what’s going on” Danny asked “nothing” Brady said smiling at him “jojo” he asked me “i said i was sorry its not my fault i really didn’t mean to” i said letting a sob escape my throat “what are you going on about hunny” it was keegan that spoke this time “i didn’t mean to i really didn’t im sorry i woke you up” i whispered then Danny finally got what i was going on about “what the hell did you say to her” Danny whispered to Brady “nothing” he said quickly Danny walked up to me at first i flinched thinking he was going to hurt me “jojo its me what did he say to you the truth” i hugged Danny and then i spoke quietly into his hoddie “ he was in the kitchen and i touched his arm and he moved back and told me not to touch him then walked of so i walked up to him and asked him what his problem was and he said that it was nothing and it was just because he didn’t sleep very well and then said thanks” i took a deep breath waiting to be shouted at for making a big deal out of nothing but it never came i was being dragged out of the house by keegan when we was outside on our own he hugged me

“I’m so sorry sweetheart he should have never said anything it wasn’t your fault” he said then he let go of me and looked me in the eyes and kissed my head i smiled and hugged him and then sat in the back of his car and waited for the others when the came out everyone was mad i could see it in their faces though they tried to hide it they all got in the car and we drove to school i was nervous i looked at keegan and he smiled in the mirror and i blushed iv always loved him but i never wanted to admit it then i looked around when we pulled up at school and didn’t see Brady anywhere “where is Brady” i said grabbing hold of josh and Danny they turned and looked at each other then to me “don’t worry jojo he isn’t going to be around you anymore” josh said smiling i saw Bryan stair at me i looked at him he walked over to me and pulled me away from the group “hey ...” Danny started to say but he had already pulled me away, josh saw my frightened face and told the rest of them

“do you want to know where he really is” he said with a lot of anger i nodded “well put it this way he saw you and lover boy this morning in your bed and then got mad so he has now been kicked out” he said “why was he mad and keegan doesn’t like me like that he likes someone else” i said “because he fancies the fuck out of you don’t ask me why all i see is a tramp” he said glaring at me i slapped him round the face and walked to first lesson, the day went so slow i met up with the boys at lunch but Bryan was their i didn’t think he would come to lunch and just stared at me i growled and all the boys looked at me i noticed he still had a hand print on his face i smiled

“babe was the matter” keegan said “I TOLD YOU DIDNT I” Bryan said jumping up from the table and walking off i stood up and chased after him all the boys followed i bumped into Alex and fell on the floor everyone in the hall laughed except Alex and the boys, Alex helped me up and i smiled at him “I’m sorry” i said blushing and looking down “hey its ok and don’t hide that pretty face” he said pulling up my face i smiled and he kissed me on the cheek i smiled and then josh was shouting at Alex to go and me to get away from him i turned round to see some the boys giving Alex the evils and the hurt in others eyes Alex grabbed my had and pulled me away from them but they started to chase us i giggled and Alex was laughing to he pulled me into him and hugged