No Regard by Carolyn Barber (e book reader free txt) 📖

my hands gently on each side of his face, and kissed his lips. I felt the tenderness in his lips, I felt his love for me through his kiss and as our lips parted I said," I need to be alone, I hope you understand." He ran his fingers through my hair, pulling it back from my face. "Of course, will you be alright Sil?" he asked. I gave him the best smile I could muster under the circumstances, "I'll be fine Adam, I just have a lot to digest, ya know?"I replied. "Okay Sil, good-night, I love you" he said. "I know you do Adam, good-night" I said with a sad heart. Adam grabbed the empty vials off the end table, walked across the room and stopped before opening the door. He turned to me and said, "You're safe now Sil, you know I would never hurt you, I will always love you and only you" he opened the door and left.

I stood there thinking how much truth was in what he had just said to me. I knew without any doubt that he loved me, would never hurt me, and if need be would even kill for me. I had never felt so safe and loved, except by my father. I curled up on the loveseat, mesmerized by the fire. I knew Adam had told me the truth, Ty had deceived me. I had question his love for me so many times, and Adam just confirmed my suspicions, Ty clearly did not love me. I was nothing but a possession to him. A mere object. Though my heart was hurting, I wasn't as upset as I thought I would be. I now had clarity. I knew where I stood with Ty and Adam. It was crystal clear. I would come to love Adam, I knew this in my heart. I would seek out my revenge on Ty and destroy him, this I also knew in my heart, and I would do it with no Regard.

I put on a nightgown, climbed into bed and prayed I would either have dreams of hunting Ty down and killing him or dreams of Adam holding me in his arms, loving and protecting me. I would have welcomed either one gladly. I quieted my thoughts, I could hear my dad's words, "Fight fire with fire" as I drifted off to sleep. 

Chapter 29: Flashback of Love and Pain

Adam thought back to the days when Silvia and him were alive and good friends. In high school Adam was the the "jock" that every guy wanted to be and every girl wanted to be with. Though he was very popular and well liked, he never really gave anyone the chance to get close to him, except Silvia. If he wasn't playing sports he would hang out with her. They often went to a favorite fishing spot on the river nearby the high school. It was calm, peaceful and untroubled. They would fill the air around them with laughter and giggles, telling each other their hopes and dreams of the future. It was at this place Adam had fallen in love with her, it was also the place where she had broken his heart. He sadly recalled the day it happened.

They were sitting on the river bank together, he had given up fishing for the day, Silvia persevered. He quietly watched her, thinking about how beautiful she was, she just starred ahead awaiting a nibble. "Stop starring Adam, it's not polite!" she said still looking straight ahead. He stuck his tongue out at her, as he did she started laughing, "I saw that!" she said. Adam laughed, "So what ya gonna do about it?" he said as he tickled her neck with a long blade of dried grass. "This!" she said dropping her pole and pouncing on him, grabbing under one of his legs with one arm and around his neck with the other then clasping her fingers together putting him in a "cradle" wrestling hold, a move he had taught her. Of course he let her play, he very easily could have escaped her grasp, but he liked her cute little attack on him. "Okay Sil, I give up! You got me! Please let me go!" he teased her. "Not until you say it!" she said taunting him. "Say what?" he asked laughing. "Who's your daddy?" she replied, "Say it! Who's your daddy?" she teased. "You are Sil, you're my daddy!" he said laughing his ass off. "Not good enough! It didn't sound like you meant it!" Silvia spouted back pretending to sound serious. "Okay, so it's going to be like that is it?" he said breaking free of her hold. He grabbed  her, flipped her on her back and straddled her, pinning her arms down. "Now who's in charge?" he said with a smile as he looked into her eyes. "Okay Adam, I give up! You're in charge! You're in charge!" she said giggling relentlessly. "That's right little girl, now tell me...who's your daddy?" he said in a serious tone. "No! I won't say it!" she said back to him laughing so hard tears were coming out of her eyes. "Yes you will! Say the words Sil, Tell me, tell me now, who's your daddy?" He held both her wrist together with one hand and started tickling her armpit. She couldn't take it, she began twisting and squirming beneath him unable to escape his tickling assault. Finally giving in, "Okay! Okay! Stop tickling me, You're my daddy, You're my daddy!" she busted out laughing. He stopped tickling her and returned to pinning both her arms, "Not good enough, you didn't sound convincing!" he said mocking her. "Adam, please I said it, what more do you want from me?" she pleaded with him. He leaned down and kissed her, she welcomed it briefly and then stopped. "No Adam! please stop!" she said softly. "Why Sil, don't you love me?" he asked her gently as he looked into her eyes. "I love you as a friend, that's all I can give you right now" she replied sadly. " I love you Silvia, I want us to be more than friends" he admitted. "Adam, I don't feel the same way, I'm sorry. I love you, but not that way, not yet, please try to understand" she pleaded with him. Adam let her go. He got up, brushed himself off and grabbed her pole and began reeling it in. "Adam, please don't be upset" she said watching him being far too quiet. "Silvie, I can't take it, I love you and want to be with you, if you don't want to be with me, than we need to go our separate ways, I can't just be your friend anymore. This is the moment of truth. It's all or nothing!" he said taking a stand hoping she would give in. "Okay Adam, if that's the way you see it, than I guess it's nothing" she said sternly, annoyed that he would push her like this. She stood up, grabbed the pole from his hand looked him in the eyes and said "Good-bye Adam, it's a shame you have no patience, it just cost you a friendship" angry, she turned and walked away from him. Both being too stubborn to give in to each other, they went their separate ways.

The pain from that day had never left him. It was a life lesson for him, one thing he came to learn and learn well was patience. After he had transformed he would come to her while she slept, speaking softly to her so as not to wake her. For two years he watched over her, how much he loved to be near her. He could have taken her with him at anytime, but his love for her was too strong. He would want her to be willing, but he knew she didn't love him enough to give her life to him. If this was the only way he could be near her, then so be it. He would dwell with her in her own happiness, in her own life that she would make for herself and he would be with her in the shadows while she slept until the day her life would expire. Being near her was his heaven while at the same time, his hell.

A peaceful calm came over him. She was here with him now, fate had given him a second chance. He would be patiently awaiting the moment she was willing to be his. He drifted off to sleep, dreaming of holding and loving Silvia, protecting her from all harm.

Chapter 30: The Dissolution of a Friendship

Ty woke up agitated. He was thinking of Adam and how much he hated him. He would go to any lengths to get his Silvia back. He missed her desperately, she was his prize possession and Adam had stolen her from him. He wanted to kill Adam more than anything. He knew Adam was more powerful than he was, finding a way to annihilate him would not be easy, but with Red's help he might stand a chance.

Ty arrived at Hell's Pit and searched around for Red, but Red was no where to be seen. Ty made his way to the bar and ordered his usual "loaded" drink. It wasn't long before Ty found himself surrounded by several female vamps, He ordered rounds of Nitro blood for his private party in the back lounging area and indulged in seductive interludes with three women rubbing against his body. The atmosphere was filled with loud music, beautiful vixens and debauchery. As Ty laid back enjoying his sexual escapade he opened his eyes and saw Red standing at the door watching him. Ty smiled, and waved Red over, Red just shook his head and turned to leave. Ty instantly approached Red saying, "Red, I've got them warmed up for you, come on over bud, I bet you could use a little vamp pussy". Red was disgusted. "You just don't get it man, I'm not like you "bud", I actually give a shit about people, you know what dude, you're on your own, I won't waste my time with a piece of shit like you!" Ty grabbed Red by the throat, "You're nothing but a little circus freak anyways, even the whores don't want you, don't ever look in my direction again, I'm done with you!" Ty let go of his grasp around Red's throat. Red