No Regard by Carolyn Barber (e book reader free txt) 📖

to myself. I looked for the ugliest thing I could find. There was nothing, everything was stunning in one way or another. "Damn your good taste Adam!" I thought to myself. I narrowed my choices down to a simple little black dress. I had found some black opaque tights that had small white skull and cross bone symbols on them, and heavy black boots with a thick two inch heel that laced up the front and strapped at the top with a silver toned buckle. Everything fit perfectly ofcourse. Though there was enough make-up on the vanity to open a beauty store, I applied only mascara, and a natural toned lip balm. Keeping it simple, trying not give him the wrong impression. 

All the stress and tension of the situation drained me. I was trembling, knowing I needed to feed. The thirst for the hunt was starting to get to me. I felt trapped, like a caged animal. With each passing minute the need intensified. I refused to ring the bell. An hour had passed. I began to violently shake, the need for blood was overwhelming. "Don't you do it, don't you ring that God damned bell!" I told myself. The room was dark except for the fire that was flickering, casting shadows that looked like demons on the wall. I was feeling like I was losing my grip with reality and began to hallucinate. The walls began to close in on me, shadows trying to devour me. Terrified I hid myself in the darkest corner I could find, shaking to the point of near convulsions. I couldn't take it, I needed blood, still I refused to ring his little brass bell. I began to scream  out, "I hate you! I fucking hate you! You hear me Adam, I fucking hate you!"

 

Chapter 21: Nitro-Infusion Overdose

Adam could hear her screams of hatred towards him. He went into the walk-in cooler and grabbed two of the precious red vials, and warmed to the perfect temperature. The fortunate thing about being wealthy is you can pretty much buy what ever your heart desires. In Adam's case, he had enough "O" Positive blood and genuine Nitro infused blood vials to last months when kept at the correct temperature. 

He entered her room and heard her crying in the corner, as he approached her, his heart sank. She was in such agonizing despair. She had a terrifying look on her face, one of fear, anger and sorrow all at once. Her deep blue eyes had turned to black, she had bared her fangs at him. Wanting to attack, but not having the energy to do so. As he knelt down beside her, she saw the red vials in his hand, she looked into his eyes, pleading with him. "Silvia, do you love me?" he asked her with a slight smile on his face. She hid her face with her hands, and screamed in agony. "Silvia, just tell me you love me, and the blood is yours" he pleaded with her. She shook her head no vigorously, "I can't Adam! Please don't make me! I don't love you, I'll never love you!" He lifted his hand beneath her chin and looked into her eyes, "Sil, I told you, you'll love me in time. Even if it's a lie right now, just say the words, I just want to hear you say you love me" he said softly. 

I had to have the blood, I wouldn't survive without it, he gave me no choice, I had to play his game. Suddenly it was all clear to me as I bottomed out in the pit of my insanity, I knew what I needed to do, "fight fire with fire". I calmed myself, and formed the words in my mind, looking at the vials of blood, I reluctantly muttered, "I love you." Adam shifted my head so our faces met, "Not good enough, Look me in the eyes and tell me you love me." How I hated him, "I'll play your game you sick fuck!" I thought to myself. I thought of Ty, and how much I loved him, with the image of Ty's copper eyes in my mind, I was able to sound convincing, "I love you". Adam smiled, "That's my good girl" he said as he popped the cork of a vial and held it to my mouth, I tilted my head back as he poured it's thick, warm, sweet, sticky substance down my welcoming throat. Immediately I stopped shaking and the shadows stopped taunting me. My eyes returned to their deep blue tint, my fangs retracted, I felt better than normal, in fact I felt thoughly energized. I looked at Adam grateful for the blood he supplied me, yet angry at his tactics. "Thank you Adam" I said with sincerity in my voice. "My pleasure love" he replied. "I'm sorry I made you say it, someday you'll tell me you love me and actually mean it" he said sadly.

I looked away wondering how such a small amount of blood could be so effective. "Adam, what's in that vial?" I asked curiously. He held up the other vial looking at it in the light of the fire, " It's "O" Positive infused with Nitro, do you know about Nitro?" he inquired. I shook my head no. "I think I had a shot of it at Hell's Pit though, I drank something that had some interesting effects on me" I admitted. He held the vial up, turning it up and down watching the thick dark crimson substance glide back and forth. "Would you like a booster shot?" he asked me. I wasn't sure what to expect, since one brought me back from the pits of despair, what would another one do? "What will it do to me?" I asked him. He popped the cork, "just make you feel really good, you don't have to if you don't want to though, it's up to you" he said nonchalantly as he handed it to me. I took it and looked at him wondering if he was up to something. The scent was intoxicating and made my mouth water, ignoring my better judgment, I slammed it down my throat. Immediately, the room began to spin out of control, "My God Adam, what did you do to me?" I started to panic, I tried to get up, as I stood I felt myself going down but Adam caught me. He swooped me into his arms and sat in the love seat in front of the fireplace, cradling me. "It's okay, Sil, don't fight it, the more you fight it the stronger it's hold is, just relax honey" he said trying to calm down my panic. I felt so far away and could barely hear his voice, I tried to focus on it though, and as I did I felt I was slowly making my way back to my own body. "That's my girl, relax, just breath, nice and slow, that's my girl, nice deep breaths, come on love, I'm here, just follow my voice baby." I felt myself drifting back into my body, I  kept listening to his voice, so gentle, comforting and loving. I slowly opened my eyes, I lifted my hand to the back of his neck and pulled him to me, wanting his mouth on mine. We kissed with a deep loving passion, he felt so good I didn't want the kiss to end. I loved the way he felt in my mouth. Slowly we parted lips, I looked into his brilliant, polished copper eyes and whispered, "I love you".

 

Chapter 22: Conspiring and Consolation

Ty and Red were tossing ideas back and forth. Red had a friend who knew a vamp that manufactured synthetic Nitro. Apparently the guy was notorious for producing some bad batches. "Okay man, let's look at some of the obvious. Dude-vamp has been hanging out with us undead for like two years right? Well tell me why the only place anyone has ever seen him is at Hell's Pit? Most everyone knows who he is, but like no one knows anything about him other than he is rich and arrogant and has a scratch to itch via Nitro. There's got to be something there is all I'm sayin' man" Red expressed, making a good point. Ty nodded in agreement, "That's definitely something to think about, maybe he's hiding something about himself and doesn't want anyone getting too close, except for my woman ofcourse, that son of a bitch!" Ty responded, starting to get a little rattled.

Red desperate to come up with something jumped in, "Look maybe I can have my buddy get some of that shitty shit, we can poison him with it somehow. Then he would be weak enough for you to kick his dude-vamp ass to oblivion!" Ty shook his head, " That's too risky, If I kill him not knowing where Silvia is, I might not ever get her back. What if he has her chained up? I don't know, I don't know what the hell he is doing to her? The thoughts that run through my mind are unimaginable. Do you think he's taking care of her Red? Do you think he would hurt her?" Red answered immediately, " No way man, I don't think he would hurt her, he doesn't want her to hate him, ya know man?" Ty appreciated his response, "Thanks Red" he said quietly. Red walked over to Ty who was standing in his usual thinking spot, in front of the fireplace, and patted Ty on the back "No prob man" Red replied. Red came up with another idea, "What if we were able to poison him before he vapes back to his dwelling, he would be vulnerable, then maybe your woman could finish him somehow? I don't know Silvia, but I can't imagine that you would be with anyone that wasn't a fighter or a thinker. Besides most women are plotters and schemers, she's probably got a better plan than anything our two neanderthal brains could come up with. Hey,what's that saying?, oh yeah, "Hell hath no fury like a woman's scorn" for real, right man?" Ty chuckled, "Red you have no idea how right you are. She's the strongest woman I have ever known, strong in mind, body and spirit, all I can say is you don't want to piss her off. Ol' Boy has no idea what he's gotten himself into, he has himself a tiger by the