My Frozen Soul 2 by skysky.bluestar (carter reed .txt) 📖

I slip off my pants then shirt and slip in. The water cool and refreshing. I rub my fattened stomach. Yet another mate to add to the list. Kiba, Fang, Dison, now Tayro. My life is all screwed up and being a alpha doesn’t help. It just screws it up more. Why me. Of all the other wolves to deal with this why me. First being captured, then kiba rescuing me, thinking kiba betrayed me, losing prim, meeting lila the wolf I thought was the other mate of kiba, getting taken again, meeting fang, dison, Dison almost becoming alpha male, dison coming back, fang and lila murdered by dison, and now kiba has returned and killed dison. I may just lose my sanity. I climb out and dry myself off. I get dressed as I run my fingers through my hair. I leave my secret place blowing a kiss to Fang's grave. Walking back there is some rustling in the bushes. I change wolf and snarl in the sounds direction. Jay stepped out of the brush. "Jay!" I calm down. "Cera get down!" she howls and pushes me into the bushes. "Jay what the hell" I growl. "Shhh" I flatten my ears and watch for whatever she so squeaky about. Soon a gray wolf passes by. Its Dison!!!!

No Dison’s dead I-I watched Kiba kill him but... what if... no no Kiba wouldn't. But I just need to worry about dison now. Dison runs into the forest. Me and jay step out of the brush. "Dison is alive!" I try not to yell too loud. Jay brushes the hair from her face. "Kiba must be behind this!" Jay growls.
"But why would Kiba.... No. No he didn't he wouldn't hurt me like that. I... I love him..."
"Cera I understand you love him but you can't trust him..." Jay placed her hand on my shoulder. I sighed and stood up. "I want to prove if he is really with Dison or not." I left Jay and walked back to the cave. Sera and Tulis were sleeping together their pups curled next to them. Angel and Crystal sat talking quietly. I went and sat with them. "Hi mom..." Crystal mumbled. I kissed her forehead. "Hi sweetheart" I smile and change to hume form. Angel murmured something I couldn't quite catch. "What was that angel."
"I miss dad" she said a little louder. I slouch a little. "I do too...."

Later I sit with Kiba. I lay my head on his shoulder his fur was warm. "Hey Kiba..." I start. "Yes love..." he whispered. "Why.... Why did you stay with lila and why did you abuse her." it seemed sudden but I needed answers. He sighed. "I knew she wasn’t carrying my pups that’s the reason I abused her but I stayed with her because her mate abandoned her in that territory to watch the pups alone..." His tone was stone cold no feeling. For me that wasn't much of an answer but I knew he wouldn't tell me more.

5 months later...

My pups will be born soon I have been put on bed rest by Jay. Kiba has gotten to know his other sons and daughter they are very fond of him though I must say. Tulis is close but not much he tends to stay with Sera and his pups. Kiba has just come back with two large bucks. I yawned and changed to wolf form. Tulis came and sat with me. "Hey mom he smiled. "Hello" I yawned again. "Hey umm..." he voice came down to a whisper. "Do you know why Sera is scared of Dad?" I sighed. "Well... Kiba.... abused Sera and her mother..." Tulis bit his lip. "Oh... well love you mom" he smiled and kissed my forehead. "Love you to sweetheart..." i mumble. Tulis went back over with Sera.

The rumble of thunder in the distance startled Angel. I stroked her head until she fell back asleep. I sighed and stared at the clouds rolling in the sky. I changed into wolf form and headed out into the forest. Soon it began to sprinkle then grew harder. It felt wonderful to have my pelt soaked I haven't felt rain in a while. Soon I hear someone talking. I walked towards them. I see fur. I ducked down and creped forward. It was Kiba. I sighed in relief. But before I set out I see another wolf. Gray and white pelt amber eye... Dison!

No Kiba! Why! I clenched my teeth and listened to them.
"So if i let you have Cera you will let me keep alpha" Kiba asked Dison.
"Of course Kiba on my brother’s blood I swear never to betray you!" he smirked. I snarled and stepped out of the brush. "Oh so you decided to join us how wonderful" Dison's lip perked into a smile. "Shut the hell up!" I snap.
"Oh someone is touchy" he laughed. Kiba looked away from me."How could you do, I trusted you!"I suppressed my sorrow only showing pure rage towards him. He didn't reply. "You really think he loved you, he just as power hungry as me my darling..." he growled. "Bastard!"
"Well that's not nice" he pinned me down. "Goodnight..." he knocked me out.

I woke up my head throbbed. "Ugh where am I" I sat up holding me head. I was in the cave. "Oh Cera your awake!" Jay exclaimed. "W-What happened..."
"Dison and Kiba brought you back unconscious yesterday..."
"Damn it where are they" I growled.
"Outside Rouge isn't taking their leadership very well" She lowered her head. My fury pulsed through me I stumbled outside. Dison and Rouge were both in wolf form snarling at each other. "Stop!" I howled. Dison turned. "Oh so your awake" he smirked. "Shut your trap!" I growled changing to wolf form. I walked over to Rouge and helped him back to the den. Jay got him in the den. I turned back to face Dison and Kiba. "What is wrong with you what do you want!"
"I want you..." Dison snickered.
"Then what about you Kiba... Do you even care about me or is it all for the power" I snapped. Kiba looked away from me his blue eyes were blank. "You never cared..." my ears flattened. "Your just like Dison you are just power hungry!" now that must of hit something because, He stood and looked me in the eye. "I may want to be alpha but I am NOT like HIM" he snarled his fur was bristling. I glared at him. He turned away again. Dison laughed. "Oh love does such strange things..." I growled and walked back into the den.

3 weeks later...

I slipped out of the den. Finally time to myself I can escape! I quietly padded into the forest and changed to hume form. "Where are going" I turned around. Tulis. I sighed in relief. "Tulis, im sorry but... Fang is dead a-and`" he cut me off. "Its okay" he smiled and hugged me. "Just come see the pups again please" I could hear the sorrow in his voice. "don't worry I will" I wiped away tears. I let him go and ran into the forest. I first had to stop by Fang. I stopped and rested one hand over his grave. "Goodbye my love" I whispered. I jumped at the sound of Dison's howl. I got up and ran. i could hear Dison snarling. No! No! No! I changed to wolf form and ran faster. Dison's snarls came closer. He was just to fast! He jumped in front of me. "Dammit Cera!" he howled. "Stay back!" I snapped. I slashed at him catching his ear and cheek. Blood poured from the wounds. Dison winced. "I expected more than that Cera" he laughed knocking me over. "No!" someone howled. I looked around seeing Angel and Crystal. "No Stay back!" I yelled. "We won't leave you mother!" Angel snarled changing to wolf form. "Stupid Bastard leave our mother alone" Crystal growled. Dison laughed. "Well isn't this precious". Angel and Crystal changed to wolf form. "Don't worry mother we will protect you" angel growled. "No he is to strong!" I snapped standing up. "Just go back to the den and there will be no fighting" he smirked. Angel snorted and glanced back at me. I sighed. "Just listen to him" I growled starting back to the den. Next time I'll get away and my daughters won't get involved.

2 months later...

I sat with Angel and Crystal. Angel had her head on my lap and Crystal's on my shoulder. Kiba looks skinnier than before but why am I worrying. Dison and Tulis have just come back with a kill of caribou a rare catch but delectable. "Girls" I whisper waking Angel and Crystal up. Tatu, Tuta, and Silver have already started eating along with Sera. "huh" Angel's eyes fluttered open she yawned. "Oh time to eat. They drowsily got to their feet and walked over with me to eat. Quickly devouring a small portion I watched Sera she was breathing heavily. "Are you okay" I asked. Tulis's eyes flared with concern of my question. "Y-ya I'm just tired." she breathed. Jay quickly walked over and placed her hand on Sera's head. "She has a fever" she said. I stood. "What do you need?" I wanted to get out of the cave. "Just umm may be some Cherry Root that you will find by the river. Later me and tulis will take her over to get water" Jay had Sera lay down. I nodded and changed to wolf form. "The Cherry Root is a bright red bulb ussaly found under oak trees is smells like cherrys" she said. I headed towards the river. "Mom" Tulis called and padded out with me. "I coming with you" he said walking up to my side.

We reached the river I sniffed near the roots of the oak trees. A light scent but not much. "Hey mom" Tulis sighed. "Yes dear" I sat up and looked at him. "You know dad is having a hard time with this right?" he looked down at his paw. I sighed containing the spark of hatred and love towards Kiba. "If... he was sorry don't you think he would of actually killed Dison" I growled.

"Well maybe he didn't want to lose you... maybe he thought you would get rid of him afterwords..."
I looked up at the sky. "Maybe you and him could spend more time with him?" Tulis asked.
"Maybe..." my thoughts were swirling around in my head. "Please..."
"I will see about it Tulis alright" I looked back at him. "Just for you..." he smiled. "Now lets find some of that cherry root for Sera" I smiled. He nodded and we got back to looking for the herb.

Later that night...

Sera was sleeping under the close watch of Jay and Tulis. I looked at the back of the cave where Kiba sat. I sighed and walked over to him. "Hey kiba would you like to take a walk with me" I asked. Life actually came back in his deathly stare at nothing. "Sure" he rasped. I nodded changing to wolf form and walking out of the den. Dison growled but watch Kiba follow and just snorted. Kiba changed to wolf form. We walked farther into the forest until we were close to the stream. "So what is this about... I thought you hated me..." he breathed. I looked back at him. "I am furious of course but..." I trailed staring at the stars. "... oddly I just can't hate you" I sighed. We changed to human form and sat in the grass. "Well there is one thing that is true" he whispered.