Shades of Love by hima (books you have to read TXT) 📖

barely above a whisper.

My hopes were crashed as soon as they hiked up… I fell on to the floor. “You didn’t save me… You took away my only chance to be happy… You killed my entire reason of being…” I sobbed.

“Nikki…” “Leave me alone….” I screamed and screamed until I felt alone in the room. “Ethan…Why did you do this to me…?”I cried. Images of him flashed which made me cry more in pain. I cried and cried until my heartfelt empty and there were no more tears left.

“Nikki…It wasn’t their fault. I asked them to do this…” Ethan whispered into my ears holding me in his hands.
“But I don’t want to live without you…”I complained.

“Please…Nikki this is not the way I wanted to see you…” I cut him off.
“I wanted to see you all the time…”I whispered to him.

“Do you remember my favorite line in the drama we played?” he asked. I tried to remember it. “Every person is sent to the earth to do something…” I cut him off again.

“I was sent to love you…” I said.

“If you die then how will you love me?” He grinned.

“I could love you even in heaven or hell…”I said.

“Nikki… Did I ever ask you anything to do?” I nodded no… “Well, will you do something for me?” he asked. I leaned on to his shoulders. “Try to be the Nikki that I always loved…” he said. I stared at him.

“But there is no Nikki without you…” I said as tears slipped through my eyes. He gave me a kiss on the forehead and let go off me, I tangled my hands around his waist to stop him, and He eased off my hands with a gorgeous smile playing on his lips…

He walked back to the white sky. I extended my hands to catch but couldn’t. “I will always be there with you until you don’t need me…”the gentle breeze whispered into my ears.

“I’ll always need you…” I cried into the white sky.

“Nikki…” Rachel’s voice dragged me to my present. “Drink this…” she said handing me the glass that I always thought as protein drink.

I faced away from her. “I don’t want to live…”I shouted at her. “If you don’t drink this you are going to kill more people in your madness…” Eva snapped.
I stared at her as if I had seen a ghost, of course she is ghost from past…I humored. Ethan thought Nikki was mad, she was crying, smiling at a time.

“I’m telling you the truth… if you don’t drink this there will be more Ben’s…” She snapped. Ben…? Why did the name sound so familiar…I heard Ethan telling her to shut up… Images of a boy wearing shorts running flashed in my mind…

“I killed a person…?” My eyes went wide as I realized what I did and slowly anger crept into me. “I killed a person…?” I chanted.

“No…Nikki. He is safe.” Ethan assured.

“We healed him but took away his memory of meeting you and the incident…” Eric supplied.

“What did I do to him?” I cried. “He is really safe…”Eric assured. “Oh! Shut up Nikki. It’s not very vampiric to cry…”Eva gritted her teeth. “Sister…one more word from your mouth, I’ll strangle you…”Ethan shrieked.

“Kids…” Carl gestured all of them to go out. “I know this is hard on you…” Jane started. “You can’t even imagine…” I said wiping away tears. She nodded her head. “You might be surprised to know that I do know what you are going through…” I frowned.

“I lived long ago… I had a beautiful family and a caring husband. He loved me so much and me him. We had adorable kids and we had wealth. I had everything that a woman would want to. One day we were returning from a business trip. Thugs looted us on the way; they killed my husband and my children in front of my very own eyes….” She waited for a long time probably remembering those days…

“Carl found me and…” She broke off. I could swear that I saw two tear drops around her cheeks. “I found it so hard to live…I blamed Carl for letting me live when my family died but he was so patient towards me. The important thing is I began to love him… and I still have the fond memories of my Ex- husband…” she said.

“I’m sorry… but I don’t think I could ever come to love someone else…” I mumbled.

“I’m not asking you to forget him because I didn’t…He is still a major part of me…” “You just need to find your happiness somewhere else that’s what Ethan would like you to do…”she said. I nodded.


“Aren’t you coming to school today?” Rach asked. Nikki ignored her, she didn’t feel like going anywhere or doing anything, she wanted to lie down and find a way to reach Ethan. If she could find a way to be put to sleep and never wake up…she thought.

“No interest…” She mumbled weakly. Rach stayed a while looking at Nikki and decided that she better be left alone. Weeks passed this way… Nikki was always lost in Ethan’s thoughts, she was always in her bed and when awake she would try to sleep. Her thoughts were always filled with Ethan.


“Nikki…Get up now….”Jane’s voice had intensity to it that made Nikki shiver. She promptly stood from her bed.

“You are going to school today…”She said and shoved a new pair of clothes into her hands. Nikki stood bewildered. “Are you going to do it yourself or should I help?”She asked in a serious tone. Nikki knew she would just do that if she hadn’t listened to her.

She did as she was asked to do and went to school. She ignored all the stares and friendly gestures from people. She went through the whole day mechanically, all her thoughts elsewhere.

Nikki couldn’t stand it anymore she ran into the forest behind her school; she ran and ran until exhausted. She fell on the ground curling into a ball and she cried out loud, she let herself cry out and fell asleep finding once again below the white sky. She struggled to stand up as soon as she recognized where she was, she glanced every side to see if her Ethan was there. He was nowhere to be seen, she ran in every direction until she was blocked by white walls.

Ethan’s voice echoed from the white skies…She searched for him frantically. Her despair grew even more by the passing of time.

“Ethan…Where’s Nikki…?”Jane asked as soon as she saw them coming alone. “Wasn’t she back home?” Rach asked easing herself on the couch.

“She went with you to school…”Jane reminded her. “She ran off from school during the last hour…”Ethan called and hurried to check her room. It was empty; his anxiety grew more as he searched every nook and cranny at house.

“Rachel…Are you sure she left school?” Ethan called still searching the entire place. “Positive…”Rachel replied.

“She is gone…”Ethan’s face registered shock. Everyone in the Reed’s house gathered in the hall as they heard the raised voices.

“Felix…Can you trace her out…?” Jane asked. Felix nodded and pressed his hands to his temples. He concentrated on Nikki’s scent…It was faint but still he could trace using the lingering trail she left behind in the forest.

He ran in the direction as the scent called him, Ethan ran after him followed by Eric. They used their vampire speed to reach the place where Nikki was. Nikki was crying in her sleep curled up in a ball. Ethan felt a sort of calmness spread over him… He picked her up gently from the ground where she was lying. She was still crying for Ethan in her dreams.

“It’s okay…”Ethan whispered to her as she whimpered. She snuggled close in his arms and enveloped her hands around his neck; her touch shook his entire frame. She laid her hand on his chest listening to his faint beat of heart. Her vanilla scent filled his nostrils, Ethan groaned as an unknown feeling crept through him. He peeped down at her, she was still disturbed in her sleep and her heart shaped face had the signs of sleeplessness and worry. Her tangled hair fell over her face. She leaned close to his neck and kissed him gently whispering something incoherently. That gentle touch of her lips electrified his whole body and jerked his entire being.

Ethan brought her home and walked her up stairs. His brothers never missed a minute detail of what happened back in the forest, they decided to tease their little brother about his new found love. “Ethan…Give her to me. I’ll take her to her room…”Eric said extending his hands towards sleeping Nikki.

Ethan growled at him and threw vicious glares at his extended hands which surprised the entire family very much. Ethan took her to her room and gently placed her on her bed. She curled up still catching his hands to her heart dearly.

Ethan shifted himself on the bed to be close to her, he moved her hair away from her face. He leaned forward to kiss her on the blushed cheeks of hers when he heard her whispering, “Please don’t go…”

Everything came back to him as if he was slapped away from the stupor; he pulled his hand away from her gently and ran away from her room cursing him for even thinking about her like that.

“Ethan…” Jane’s voice was soothing his tensed nerves. “Mom…I’m horrible. She is Ethan’s girlfriend and I’m…” He lost words as the full extent of what he did dawned on his mind.
Jane sat him on the couch and let him talk… “Ethan…It’s not wrong to love someone…”

“Mom…She is Ethan’s girlfriend…” Jane cut him off.
“Yes…She was Ethan’s girlfriend…”She emphasized ‘was’.
“But…”
“Don’t you think she needed another chance in her life…?” She asked eying him.

“I think you should give her that chance…”
“Besides…Once a vampire finds his mate there is no way you can turn back…”Felix said grinning.
“I didn’t choose her…”Ethan replied meekly.

“We have seen that…”Eric grinned.
“You are in love…brother. There is no denying it…” Felix said.
“Of all the people, why should it be her?” Ethan thought out loud. “Love doesn’t happen when you want it to or with whom you wanted to…” “It just happens...” Carl finished for Eric.


Ethan was having hard time in being away from Nikki, he was always so near to her yet far away from her. She did everything mechanically always lost in the world of Ethan. Nikki was never aware of that night’s incidents but for Ethan that night changed his life forever.

“We should do something about them…” Rachel said as she eyed Ethan stealing glances at Nikki who stared into the space.

“I have an idea…” Rachel clicked her fingers and in one quick stride she was in the living room where the rest of the family was sitting.

“Mom…I think we should go somewhere nice this weekend maybe it will help to lift her mood up…” Rachel said excited.

“I think we are also in dire need of hunting…” Felix said. Everyone nodded. “This weekend camping on the mountains…” Carl said winking at his children.

“Prepare for the camp…”Carl said. Everyone