Protecter's Love by Kayla Trautman (fb2 epub reader txt) 📖

shower. He turned the water on and then the shower head.

"This will teach you not to fight me." He shoved me in the shower and I screamed. The cold water hit me and everything went haywire. I tried to get out but Taliesin was right there. He grabbed my arms and pushed me under the water and held me there.

I cried, "It's cold! Stop this! You're a cold-hearted bastard and you're cruel! Stop!" He ignored me and gabbed the shampoo. He pulled me to the side out of the water and poured some on my head. I held still now so I wouldn't get it in my eyes.

"It's about time that you settled down." He said as he removed his hand from my arm to help lather my hair. I frowned and closed my eyes, "Only so that it doesn't get my eyes."

After he had my hair lathered, he pulled me back into the cold water, making me gasp. I tilted my head back kept my eyes closed tight.

"Alright. Now for the best part." He said and pulled me out of the water. I wiped the water away from my eyes and opened them. He had stepped inside with me.

"Don't touch me." I demanded. He rolled his eyes, "I'm just gonna wash you." "No. I can do it myself. Get out." I backed up away from him as he lathered his hands up with the soap.

He smiled and grabbed my arm, "No way. You made me force you this far so I'm gonna finish it." I turned away from him and leaned against the wall. I was shivering. My teeth were chattering now.

His hands touched my shoulders and ran along my arms to my hands. He came back down my inner arms and across my chest. His fingers touched the top curves of my breasts.

Then he covered my breasts completely. I tried to back away from his hands but in doing so I backed up against him. He chuckled and held me there. "Stop it. This isn't fair. I'm going to yell for help if you keep assaulting me." I breathed.

"No. I don't think I will. If you look at yourself, you're not really putting up a fight, now are you?" He said but his hands moved from my breasts and down to my stomach.

He was right. I wasn't putting up much of a fight now. It didn't help that he was making me feel so weak when he touched me like this.

When he was done touching me all over and washing me, he pushed me violently into the water. I screamed, "Damn that's cold!" I had just warmed up from his touch.

He growled, "Hold still so I can rinse you off. I wanna get you out and on that bed as soon as possible." I shook my head and pushed him away from me, "No you won't! Stop it!"

"Yes you will! This is how you will forgive me!" He yelled back at me. He grabbed my arms and held me still in the water. I spit the water that was in my mouth out and more spilled in.

That's when he pulled me out. I crossed my arms around me, hugging myself as I shook with cold, "I'm so cold. Why did you have to do that?" "To get you to listen." He dabbed me down with a towel, including my face, dried my hair, and then wrapped it around me. He then did the same with himself.

I backed away from him and sat on the toilet, "I am not sleeping with you anymore. So don't touch me." He dried his hair and then dropped the towel to the floor. He took my towel and inclined his head toward the bedroom, "Move."

I folded my arms across my chest, "No. Who are you to tell me to do anything? I don't owe you anything. If anything, you owe me for hurting . . . for not telling me that you wanted to end the affair before going with that Sandra."

Why was it hurting me? It didn't. There's nothing going on between us. It's over. There never was an us. I screamed as he whipped the towel at me and it hit my leg.

I grabbed my leg and frowned up at him, "You abusive bastard! You can't do this!" "I said move. Now. Move." He whipped me again. I screeched and stood, "God damn you, Taliesin!" I ran around him and into the bedroom. I stopped in the middle of the room and turned to face the bathroom door.

Taliesin came out without the towel. I stepped forward and slapped him across his face. His head moved but he didn't take his eyes off of me. I went to hit him again but he grabbed my wrist.

He backed me up until I felt the bed hit my knees. I tried to twist so that I could get away from him but fell on him instead. Now he was laying on the bed and I was on top of him. He wrapped his arms around me before I could get up, "If you wanted to be on top then just say so. But for now . . ."

He turned me around on my back and climbed on top of me. I started hitting his chest, "Stop it, Taliesin! Get off of me!" He grabbed my wrists and pressed them into the bed above my head. He leaned down and frowned, "Stop it! Stop fighting me!"

"You're not the man I know and I don't like you! You're a cold-hearted, abusive bastard that thinks with his dick!" I insulted. "Then why are you so upset about what I did?!" He asked.

I panted and relaxed to the bed. All this time I've been fighting and telling myself that there was nothing between us. But there was. At least, on my side. I loved him.

I took a deep breath and sighed. I turned my head to look at the door for the exit. He let go of my hands and moved to lay his arms on the bed beside me, lifting his chest off of me, "I didn't mean to hurt you at the party. I'm not used to the human's ways. I usually stay loyal to the person I'm with. But I didn't want to hurt her or start a scene so I just went along with it.

"I shouldn't have. I'm sorry. I won't do it again. I only want you. Now why are you so afraid to admit that you have feelings for me?"

I looked at him and brought my arms to wrap around his neck, "Why are you so different now?" "I was supposed to have amnesia, remember? You didn't know me and I didn't want to scare you." He answered.

I sighed and reached up to kiss him lightly. I layed back down and brought him down to lean down on me, hugging him, "I care for you. But I don't have any stronger feelings for you. I'm sorry if that disappoints you but it's just that."

I wasn't about to tell him now that I loved him. I couldn't. He sighed and pulled back to look down at me, "What kind of game are you playing, Elena? I know you feel something for me. Just as I feel something for you. I love you."

I shook my head and sighed, "Taliesin, no, don't. I-I can't tell you that I love you. Because I don't. I won't ever love anyone."

It went silent. I could see the pain run over his face as he looked at me. I sighed, "Please don't take it personally. It has nothing to do with you . . . if this is of any help, if I were to ever love anyone, it would be you."

Taliesin rolled off of me and stood, "I can't do this with you. Have sex, I mean. Not yet. Not until I get you past whatever it is that's holding you back and admit that you're in love with me. You love me. I know you do. You just don't wanna admit it.

"Or maybe you already know you do and just don't wanna admit it to me. Any-who, I'll get you past the wall blocking your heart. But I can't have sex with you knowing that you haven't admitted it yet."

I sat up and wrapped my arms around me. I was still cold. And I grew colder knowing that I wouldn't ever have the warmth of him surrounding her; the feel of his touch; the orgasms he always brought from me . . . ever again. I was feeling lonely already; again; still. When had I ever stopped feeling lonely?

"I know. I'm gonna miss that too." He said regretfully and when I looked up at him I saw him looking at me with sadness in his eyes.

"You wouldn't wanna tell me what's holding you back, would you?" He asked with little to no hope in his eyes. It was a sarcastic question. He knew what my answer would be. I shook my head, "No. Sorry."

He nodded and reached for my hand, "Come on. I'll show you around." I took his hand and stood, "Alright."


Chapter 17:Going Home

We've been through the entire ship now and it was wonderful. They had a cafeteria with great food that tasted wonderful when I ate it. There was a music room, a gym, a parlor; what they call rooms they just hang out in and entertain with talk, they have many of them; and rooms that have too much technology that humans like myself wouldn't even understand.

"Taliesin. We need to talk. You said the ship would be repaired by tomorrow afternoon. I want to go back home." I told him as we were walking back to my room.

He stopped and turned to me, "Elena. We can't. We have to get you to Rahanni so that you can take your rightful place as queen. I thought that you said that you've accepted that you're a princess?"

I nodded, "I have. But I still have my parents at home and I need to break it to them gently that I won't be there for a while. Then I need to accept the fact that I have to be queen and take care of this damned war y'all got yourselves into. And don't correct me; I don't care about who started this war or whose war it is."

"Elena! People are going to die! People are dying this very second by the hands of Forelanders! They won't wait until you're ready to fight! They won't stop until every Seander is dead! They're going to kill everyone! Children, babies! They won't stop until you're dead, Elena! Can't you get it?!" He yelled at me.

I backed away from him, "Stop it! That's not fair! You can't guilt me into it! I'm sorry that this doesn't fit into your plans! But I'm going home and if you won't take me home then I'll find someone who will!"

He grabbed my shoulders and slammed me against the wall. I could feel the fury coming off of him. But I could also feel the passion coming from him as well. And that passion filled me up from my toes to my head.

He leaned down and kissed me. I sighed and