Are crazy life by Evita (tharntype novel english txt) 📖

Welcome to echo park, east of hollywood and near downtown. We have a lake thats been here since the 2o's some of the homeboys kick-it there. Everthing I need to live is here there is no reason to leave. When i was 4 years old my family moved here from Mexico I thought moving here would be differnt but its exactly the same.Everone speaks spanish and as much violence as there was in Mexico. This is the place where are stories happen echo park. We have as much murders as we do births. We know what goes around comes around thats life in the echo ay.
My name is Margarita but they call me smiles because they say i have the must beautiful smile in all of echo park. When Me and Alandra were 12 we joined the gang are names were taken they gave me smiles and her dimples because well she had dimples. We were now both 15 years old arguing on who was juan favorite out of the two of us. "listen to your stupid ass he loves me" i yelled from across the street to were dimples lived. "No slut you know he loves me and carlos more" she yelled back. "o you know that my kids are juan's pride and joy" i screamed across apartmant from mines holding my son jesus and rubbing my stomach which was 7 months along. Alandra Aka dimples shout her window and fliped me off. I went back in to my kitchen to think about my life now.
I was only 15 teen years old and about to have my second child. I looked at jesus his black short hair was fresh and had a shaved star in it. I dressed him as a little cholo in dickies and jordens with a big white tee. My son was way cuter and had more swag then dimples son carlos. I was going to have a little girl I was naming her bianca. "mami' open this" jesus held a pudding cup to my face breaking my thoughts. I opened it and he ate. This was not how i pictured my life at 15 years old.
It was about 8 o'clock at night when i heard knocking at my apartmant door. When i opened it was juan I opened the door wide. We sat on the couch waching jesus play with his toy cars. "what you doing here?" i asked. "I cant check on my woman and my kid" he said in his cholo voice. I pointed out the fact i was pregnant "kids" he shook his head yes. I got up and took jesus a bath. Finally i got him in his pajamas and in bed "night mami, love you" he yelled "te amo" i said love you in spanish.
When i sat back on the couch, juan kissed me. We started making out When it hit 11 he said he had buissness to deal with and gave me 100 dollers for food and cloths for jesus and the new baby. i cleaned the kitchen then the livingroom. After cleaning i took a shower as i felt used just as a makeout buddie. I hit the bed and i was knocked out.
The next day was here ,i got jesus ready in khahki pants, a green flannel shirt and a pair of black jordens. " jesus want to come with mami shopping?" i asked him loudly he shook his head yes fastly. We went to echo park blvd the baby store was having a sale. I got a pink stroller and about 20 outfits for my baby. Jesus was so happy that i got him a pair of new jordens and 3 shirts. God did i love my kids with one not even here yet. After the long day of shopping we ate at the local taco shop little mexico. Jesus thought it was an amazing saturday until we bumped in to the witch herself dimples.
Juan left early cause dimples was calling him the bad news was that he was still seeing her. So it was just jesus and me i played with him He had the cutest giggle. "Hola papa" i sayed to him meaning baby "You will treat a girl right huh?" i asked him my son could be a gangster if he wanted but there was no way in hell he would ever treat a woman with disrespect. Through out the day i change him took him baths and feed him mother hood was pretty good i mean i loved Jesus but i do miss school and hanging out with my friends.

Flashback over

I joined The echo park gang with smiles when i was 12. It was my idea to i felt it would make us stronger if we had a crew to back us up. To join we got are asses kicked for a minute , we felt like we had did something in are lives. I met Juan when we had just joined the gang he belonged to the locos. I fell in love with him , gave him everthing including my virgianty. From that i had got carlos my son.
My so called bestfriend Margarita Aka smiles and i grew up together. I taught her almost everthing there was to know. We were close almost sisters that all change two summers ago when i had just had my son carlos, my grandmother sent for both me and carlos to go and spend the summer with her in Mexico. There i left margarita and juan unsupervised without me present they both i guess got board and had sex. By the time i had got back smiles was 3 months pregnant.
The two of them tryed to keep it a secert and for the most part i was clueless of the fact smiles was having juan's son. But when little jesus was born he looked just like juan he could not deny the fact it was his kid. My heart was broken but for some reason i kept going back to juan i knew i was stupied but love is love. Juan had light carmel skin short black hair with a star shaved in it and tattoes down both his arms. He dressed in khakies everyday along with nike cortezes He had a six pack that was great. All in all he kinda looked like a mexican taylor lautner.
I had snow white skin and long straight black hair i always put it up like a 5o's pin-up girl. I never wore a full shirt they were always half or not even that sometimes it was bustier. along with jeans and nikes i was never much of the girly girl. Carlos did not look to much like Juan as jesus did. Carlos had curly hair that i kept short but didnt shave he had light skin like me unlike his half brother and dad who were both light carmel he was 3 yrs old i dressed him like a 3 yr old in dickies and cartoon shirts. Smiles claimed carlos was a white boys son but we all new my frist was juan to the fact i bled every where after we had done it. Juan never picked one of us instead he kinda picked both. I found out that he was still messing around with her about 4 months ago when it came out she was pregnant again. I didnt really care cause he still came to my house at least 3 times a week.
Snaping out of my thoughts i decided to take carlos to the lake to have a pinic with my little boy. As we walked down echo park blvd we bumped into the slut. She had a yellow dress that hoverd over her knees and white heels. Her stomach was huge , She held about 6 bags and little jesus's hand. We rolled are eyes at each other " move it slut!" i yelled people looked at us." dont be mad cause you cant controll your man" she yeld carlos started crying. "He still with me so i dont know what you talken about" i said rolling my eyes. " really cause we were making out last night!" she yeld in her very thick accent. "o shut up" and with that i walked away.

Echo park was home I had never lived any where else of my 18 years of life. I had seen my homies come and go. Most of them either died or in prison i had started in the game when i was 13 years old. I sold drugs for a living and was part of the locas. My brother had got me to join the locos 5 years ago. The week after he recruited me he was killed in a deal gone bad, I prayed ever night it wouldnt ever happen to me.

Flashback
Three years ago i met this girl name dimples I had to say she was hot. Dimples past by where i solid everyday, looking at me like i was some type