Love Grows In The Dark Eli Lowe (love story novels in english TXT) 📖

there is no doubt about that, but with that, the immense disgust in my heart for myself had intensified too at the same time.

Yes, I could never forgive myself for what I did today, not even when she makes me pay or decides to forgive me.

I believe, nothing could give me the opportunity ever again to undo the harm that I did to her, without thinking twice.

Only today I got to realise how could someone win ever so greatly even after losing a battle.

Yes, even though my swords cut her innumerable times while I stayed untouched and unharmed, she made me feel defeated today, ever so miserably.

I lost.

And I am ashamed of myself for the first time in my life.

It was like, she got hurt but all her pain came to me, which I could not even endure at all, even if I wanted to.

The pain was intense.

And it was making me helpless, indeed.

I wished only if I could let out my grief to someone else, just like others do to lessen their misery. I wished if someone was there to say to me that it was okay to do mistakes sometimes only if I realise what I did wrong and be ready to accept the punishments for my deeds.

It is almost impossible for anyone not to do any kind of mistakes throughout their entire life, isn't it?

No one is perfect, right?

Me neither.

Because, no matter how much I try to say the things I feel, I just could not express myself to anyone, never ever. And only for that, I was always lonely even when there were so many people around me who did care though. It was not that I had no feeling in my heart at all, rather it was just that I could never find the right person to see deep inside my heart.

Except now.

Yes, I had found the one at last.

The one whom I could say everything without any hesitation, without even worrying about the fact that she would think otherwise. My heart never stops even for a second to blurt out all those things that I have always kept inside myself till now. It was like, I have never talked that much in my entire life, what my heart was dying to speak to her only in just one night. Yes, my mate.

And I needed her badly right now.

I needed her to hug me tight so that I could allow myself to break how much I wanted for once, at least I will be ensured of the fact that she would always be there to make me whole over and over again.

As soon as she came to my mind, my heart started to feel even weaker than ever and all I wanted was to rush to her only to feel her in-between my arms...to get her sweet intoxicating smell all over my body once again.

I just could not wait for the day to end, so that the night could come earlier than ever.

And at last, the time came, for which I was longing ever so desperately. Even though it was just one single night that I could not meet her, it was seeming like an eternity to me.

I had no reason to keep waiting further, so without wasting any more time I rushed to that exact place where we had decided to meet every day.

To the alley.

And when I reached there, her fresh and intoxicating smell was all over the place and I realised in an instant that she was already here. Even earlier than me?

Was she as impatient as I was to meet tonight?

Did she actually wait for me?

I could not think anymore and ran inside only to hold her tight into my chest.

At last...at last, I could let myself crumble down to her warm embrace.

“Mate.” I could not hold myself back to call her out even when she was already into my arms. Even when all the intense tingles made me very aware of the fact that she was here with me right now, still I wanted to call her from the bottom of my heart over and over again. I have never felt this relieved before. My heart could never be fuller than it was right now.

I wanted to say that she was my everything. Without her, I would lose myself completely.

Yes, I wanted to say all those to her, but I could not. Cause just when I was about to open my mouth to convey all those feelings that my heart kept holding back inside, my lips got enclosed by the only lips that I have ever craved for. Those soft lips of my mate captivated me entirely...my mind, my body, my soul...everything.

Oh, I just can not get enough of her sweet tongue that had already started to invade inside my mouth, making me all crazy to wish for more of her kisses. I just could not afford to breathe either, as I was afraid that it could cause us to break the kiss which I did not want to happen at all. I indulged my tongue with her very own rhythm in no time, letting it collide with hers ever so intimately, hungrily.

Yes, I became hungry to have her.

My hands kept traversing on her back without much of my consciousness, attempting to pull her even closer to me so that no one could separate us ever again. I kept kneading her hips, her waist and every other part on her body like they were all mine to grab and caress. Cause, she was mine.

Her tender hands on my neck and body did not stop arousing each and every sensation inside me, making me even hungrier than ever.

I have never felt like this ever before. I never knew that a single kiss could make