Love Grows In The Dark Eli Lowe (love story novels in english TXT) 📖

Yes, I was going to the same park. Though I did not want to, my heart never listened to me and took me to the exact same place every time, to see my mate from far, as long as I could.

It was a very beautiful place, just in-between nature. Roads were dividing the large meadows ever so perfectly while the threes were standing in an ideal alignment surrounding the whole area, separating the park from the denser part of the woods which was just behind the place. And the lake was the best attraction of this park, cause it seemed endless, defining the horizon marvellously.

As soon as I reached, I did not have to look for long as my eyes had already found Kazan, who was sitting on the same bench ever so quietly, keeping his eyes on the horizon and waiting for the sun to set, like always. Though I could see only his broad back from the place I was standing, I knew what expression was his face holding.

Nothing.

Yes, as always his face says nothing at all, but his eyes do. His eyes say all those things what his face or his words fails to convey. Those seductive blue of his eyes was just like an ocean. Deep and I was afraid to drown.

Seeing Kazan this way, my heart broke once again but I was helpless.

Yes, since that night though I stopped meeting him, I never stayed back from going to the alley only to stay far and hidden always, and I did make sure to manipulate my smell with Kaith's so that mate could never know of my presence.

And you know what?

Kazan too never stopped going to the alley even for once until now, even when he also realised very well after a few days that I was not going to meet him ever again. But as if he had never left his hope.

I always saw him going into the dark alley with all his excitement but when he comes out of there after waiting for long, his face never fails to show how much lonely his heart became.

I saw him at other places with other people too, as he never stands back from helping even the strangers whenever his help was needed. And you know what? During this time I also got to know another thing about him which completely changed my way of thinking about Kazan.

Cause I found out that the mysterious stranger who had helped me and Jenny once was none other than my mate.

Yes, He was Kazan. I saw him the same way once again, saving another girl from becoming a prey of one nasty drunkard. And I got to know in an instant that it was him, always.

Like this, so many things had changed in the past days which had indeed made me believe that I was wrong about him indeed.

He was just like a shell. Hard and cold from the outside but his heart was soft, pure and warm.

And I knew that his very same heart was still beating for his mate. For me.

I saw him still sitting on the bench with no rush to go along with the busy world... with no intention to move from there.

As if he was waiting for someone ever so eagerly.

No, as if he was reluctant to believe that his mate had left him behind, breaking off all the promises.

And I knew that I was the reason.

I did this to him.

I made him ever so lonely even when he opened his heart to me.

I was indeed the cruellest mate ever and I do not deserve him at all.

The way he kept looking at the setting sun only to welcome the night with a new hope that his mate might come tonight at last, which never happened since that night, broke me completely once again.

I could not even know that I was crying until I felt the warm unstoppable tears came down to my cheeks, like a traitor.

I always knew that there was one last thing which I was left to do, one day or another. So, without thinking much I decided to let the day be today only.

I moved my legs to the public telephone booth which was just within a few steps from where I was standing until now. And I dialled the number.

Kazan's number.

I could still see him from the booth while the call started to ring, and so was his phone.

“Hello!” His voice came from the other end of the call as soon as I saw him picking it up.

His one single word crumbled my heart completely, as I was dying to run to my mate once again, but I just could not afford to do that.

Not now.

At least when I was about to end everything between us...when I was about to let him free.

He should never suffer for someone like me.

But it seemed that I could not even form a single word. My heart kept denying my decision while my wolf had stopped talking to me ever since.

Still, I needed to do this for him, so that he could be free once and for all, from me and my unfortunate life. And for that, I had to talk to him, no matter how much I had to endure the ruthless pain.

“Mate!” That much I could say at this instant, but I saw Kazan jump up from the bench with the sudden hope, which I was about to kill mercilessly in no time.

“I knew you will call me. I believed that you could never leave me.

We promised each other and you will definitely keep your promise. Right?

Mate?” His voice appeared a bit heavy and so was my heart.

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