The Tenant of Wildfell Hall Anne BrontĂ« (librera reader .txt) đ
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With some coaxing and persuasion, I got him to leave the table. When the baby was brought I tried to amuse him with that; but poor little Arthur was cutting his teeth, and his father could not bear his complaints: sentence of immediate banishment was passed upon him on the first indication of fretfulness; and because, in the course of the evening, I went to share his exile for a little while, I was reproached, on my return, for preferring my child to my husband. I found the latter reclining on the sofa just as I had left him.
âWell!â exclaimed the injured man, in a tone of pseudo-resignation. âI thought I wouldnât send for you; I thought Iâd just see how long it would please you to leave me alone.â
âI have not been very long, have I, Arthur? I have not been an hour, Iâm sure.â
âOh, of course, an hour is nothing to you, so pleasantly employed; but to meâ ââ
âIt has not been pleasantly employed,â interrupted I. âI have been nursing our poor little baby, who is very far from well, and I could not leave him till I got him to sleep.â
âOh, to be sure, youâre overflowing with kindness and pity for everything but me.â
âAnd why should I pity you? What is the matter with you?â
âWell! that passes everything! After all the wear and tear that Iâve had, when I come home sick and weary, longing for comfort, and expecting to find attention and kindness, at least from my wife, she calmly asks what is the matter with me!â
âThere is nothing the matter with you,â returned I, âexcept what you have wilfully brought upon yourself, against my earnest exhortation and entreaty.â
âNow, Helen,â said he emphatically, half rising from his recumbent posture, âif you bother me with another word, Iâll ring the bell and order six bottles of wine, and, by heaven, Iâll drink them dry before I stir from this place!â
I said no more, but sat down before the table and drew a book towards me.
âDo let me have quietness at least!â continued he, âif you deny me every other comfort;â and sinking back into his former position, with an impatient expiration between a sigh and a groan, he languidly closed his eyes, as if to sleep.
What the book was that lay open on the table before me, I cannot tell, for I never looked at it. With an elbow on each side of it, and my hands clasped before my eyes, I delivered myself up to silent weeping. But Arthur was not asleep: at the first slight sob, he raised his head and looked round, impatiently exclaiming, âWhat are you crying for, Helen? What the deuce is the matter now?â
âIâm crying for you, Arthur,â I replied, speedily drying my tears; and starting up, I threw myself on my knees before him, and clasping his nerveless hand between my own, continued: âDonât you know that you are a part of myself? And do you think you can injure and degrade yourself, and I not feel it?â
âDegrade myself, Helen?â
âYes, degrade! What have you been doing all this time?â
âYouâd better not ask,â said he, with a faint smile.
âAnd you had better not tell; but you cannot deny that you have degraded yourself miserably. You have shamefully wronged yourself, body and soul, and me too; and I canât endure it quietly, and I wonât!â
âWell, donât squeeze my hand so frantically, and donât agitate me so, for heavenâs sake! Oh, Hattersley! you were right: this woman will be the death of me, with her keen feelings and her interesting force of character. There, there, do spare me a little.â
âArthur, you must repent!â cried I, in a frenzy of desperation, throwing my arms around him and burying my face in his bosom. âYou shall say you are sorry for what you have done!â
âWell, well, I am.â
âYou are not! youâll do it again.â
âI shall never live to do it again if you treat me so savagely,â replied he, pushing me from him. âYouâve nearly squeezed the breath out of my body.â He pressed his hand to his heart, and looked really agitated and ill.
âNow get me a glass of wine,â said he, âto remedy what youâve done, you she tiger! Iâm almost ready to faint.â
I flew to get the required remedy. It seemed to revive him considerably.
âWhat a shame it is,â said I, as I took the empty glass from his hand, âfor a strong young man like you to reduce yourself to such a state!â
âIf you knew all, my girl, youâd say rather, âWhat a wonder it is you can bear it so well as you do!â Iâve lived more in these four months, Helen, than you have in the whole course of your existence, or will to the end of your days, if they numbered a hundred years; so I must expect to pay for it in some shape.â
âYou will have to pay a higher price than you anticipate, if you donât take care: there will be the total loss of your own health, and of my affection too, if that is of any value to you.â
âWhat! youâre at that game of threatening me with the loss of your affection again, are you? I think it couldnât have been very genuine stuff to begin with, if itâs so easily demolished. If you donât mind, my pretty tyrant, youâll make me regret my choice in good earnest, and envy my friend Hattersley his meek little wife: sheâs quite a pattern to her sex, Helen. He had her with him in London all the season, and she was no trouble at all. He might amuse himself just as he pleased, in regular bachelor style, and she never complained of neglect; he might come home at any hour of the night or morning, or not come home at all; be sullen, sober, or
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