What Musings We Do Have: Of Winter and Love and Empty Days by Twilight Eve Golden (short story to read .TXT) 📖

Frost

We breath in the snow
In the ice and the mist
We wonder at time
At the things that we've wished.
I look in her window
Silent as night
I watch as she sleeps
In the warm firelight.
We sneak away now
Leaving steps in the frost
Contemplating our future
And what we have lost.
I glance backwards again
At her peaceful face
And then glance away;
I must leave this place.
We pace away now
Though backwards we peer
Through the fog and the frost
As we dissapear.
I am but a spirit
Of winter and cold
And as I always I'll fade
Away as this story's told.
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Wistfully

What goes love, what goes?
Where we cannot know, cannot know?
And in these once hallowed places
We blink and stare timidly, at one another
Wishing, for all the world, that it was
No dream, no dream at all.
But in the morning, when we awake
Side by side, we know, we know
That indeed, the night before was but
An illusion of what could not
Be, and we again blink, and look
Timidly, asking one another, tearfully
In the depths of the Winter of our
Lives, so short and bitter-sweet
What goes love, what goes?

Queen of Hearts

I'll hand you the world on a platter
My friend, someone's head on a silver dish
If only, my love, my bestest friend
You would make me the wish.
My hand is your hand, by blood is yours
My heart I have given to thee
If only, if only, you'd give me the gift
Of a spot of your love to me.
I'll do anything for you, any at all
To kill, or be killed, on request
If only, my dearest, my master
You'd hold me and let my heart rest.
Your dreams are my dreams, your pain is mine
My loyalty yours, I declare
If only, my owner, my lover, my heart
You'd let your weary heart care.
I'll hand you my soul on a platter
Lover, my heart on a silver dish
If only, if only, if only you'd love me
If only, if only, I wish.
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Hope

Hands reach down for us
Through our shield of misery
We're pulled into light.
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Mercy and Revenge

I'd like to think that, wouldn't I?
That you would be so kind
To take pity on me
But it's only in my mind-
That you would give me the time of day
Pay any attention to me
Be careful, my secret love
Soon enough you'll see-
That I, in my old despondance
Have a lovely sort of plan
And the sides are being picked
Lines drawn in the sand-
Where we sit in sorrows old
Soon what's not will be
And I will see if you deserve
The mercy you've not shown me.
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Insecurities

Hey there, I say
Wandering away, away
From the echos in my ears
Of my oldest, old of fears.
Whatcha doin', wonders I
I'm fascinated, I can't lie
About your life, and what you've done
Heroic deeds and battles won.
Could we talk, I wish to know
If there's somewhere I could go
Where I'd be worth enough for you
So perfect, to love me too.
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Future in Retrospect

The skies are grey and frozen
Clouds cover the sky
And I can't help but wonder
Musingly, why-
There's nothing here for me now
While the world is ice
Emptied for a hundred years
By humanities sin and vice-
-es which remain unseen
For years or centuries
Yet now in the dead of winter
Now the earth it sees-
The things we've done
It seeks to correct
All the misdeeds of our race
To late, in retrospect-
That's really all there's to it
No more to unveil
As the snow blankets it at all
And light begins to fail-
Because now it's winter time
For the planet ours
When sping comes we'll be ready
To reach, once more, for the stars.
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Phantoms

There is no more sky here
No light leaks through, really
Only a sort of grey.
And as the flakes of white fall
There's very little mercy
In the freezing night.
I suppose I'll live through it
Maybe. I hope so, I guess
Though there's nothing left for me.
Sometimes I glimpse the other side
Of the heavy clouds, and I wish
That it was for me.
But it's not, so I wander onwards
In the heavy mist and fog
Leaving no trace of my passing.
I am but a ghost.
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Once

In my day, there was light
In my day, there was love
But it is my day no longer.
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Abstract Thought

I'm good at melancholy words, I guess
They are my medium, after all
It's kind of sad, if you think a bit
But I try not to, sometimes
Though it really doesn't work that way
Sadly, but That's the World
That's the World
The World.
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Its Demons

That's in its nature
Jealousy, despair, darkness
But there's also a touch of something...
More, something more than this
The demons of its soul will stay
They were set there long ago
By forces to powerfull to resist, then
And they will fight it, and it must
Fight back, for against them
Lies the only hope of salvation
The return of the bright things
Like love, and hope, and light
Through the smoke and sand.
When the curtain closes
It will turn around, solemnly
To answer all requests, all duties
Never once asking for self
Never once a request of it's own
Sometimes, it will wonder
Occasionally, if it's worth it
And then the creature will shake its head
No, it has to be, it must be
It will go on fighting
Struggling against its demons
Wishing for an angel to guide it
In the end, that's all it was,
It thought, just pity, just mercy
No more, no matter how much
More there should have been.
Sighing, it steps once more into darkness
Because no matter what it is
What it becomes
It will remain a creature of change
A thing of the twilit time
Where everything is fleeting
Even matters of the heart.
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For all the Midnight Stars

For all the stars in the heavens
There is nothing worth this
This grace you have bestowed
Upon me, me so unworthy
But you seem to think I am
And I, so honoured, smile
And stare into the starry sky
Like a million sparkling gemstones
In the blanket of the night
A connection unparalleled exists
Though it is not put in words
And each time I breath in
Breath in the air and frost
And the mist and rain
On these evenings we sit outside
Under a canopy of leaves
By a warm fire, under the stars
I think of all that we've been
Though together, to one another
And I sigh, as content as I ever am
And we quietly fall asleep together.
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Daybreak

In the bright morning sun
Light that shone down
From the heavens and skies
There was a feeling of rightness
In the air all around
The two people who stood
In the midst of a room
Where promises had been made
When forever was gone
And along and along
Way off, so they had
More than forever, more than
Eternity together.
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These Nights of Ours

Sh, sh, sh, my dear one
sh, sh, sh
I'm here, I'm here, I'll always be here
For you, forever, now.
Hush, hush, hush, my bright one
Hush, hush, hush
Sleep soundly, soundly, I'm by your side
Forever, tonight, for now.
I lay here, half asleep
Reassured by your soft breathing
As I think these thoughts.
Because you are here, I am strong
Because I have you, I am brave
Because of you, I can do anything in the world.
It's dark tonight, with the moon shining bright
Stars high in the sky
I breath softly, holding you tight
You murmur, quiet; I sigh.
The night is cool; autumn's end
Comes quickly, not quite yet
Still, the scent of snow hovers
Almost, almost, almost.
It's warm, here in our bed
From us, the chill flees, though you sleep on
And I hold you just a little tighter
To protect you from the world.
It's funny, what I think of
When I lie awake sometimes, though
I am content, the luckiest
Person in all the whole wide world tonight
And every night, whether we speak, or sleep, together
It's just that these little nights of ours
Make me love you all the more.
Sh, sh, sh, my dear one
Sh, sh, sh
I'm here, I'm here, I'll always be here
For you, forever, now.
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A Sweet Dream

As I fall into slumber, I hear you
Breathing, quietly, next to me
You sleep already, and I join you
In a Dream, that we both dream,
Where the world is at our fingertips.
You greet me, delighted, with a 'Hey,'
And I laugh, and smile
This is a dream, I know, and though
In life the end comes, in the frozen world
That our dreams are ever filled
With the ways of spring
And endless summer days with hope
And love predominating.
We dance in the sunlight, and to my surprise
And yet no surprise at all
I see a child, who would have been ours
Walk up to you and I
'Mama, Papa! Come look and see!'
She says, and we cannot help but follow
For a moment the dream fades, and we exchange
Glances, knowing, regret
Then, we awake in the dream once more
And our world we forget.
We are led to a clearing, moments away
And yet here, the moon is bright
Our child points up, we follow the look
And see a blanket of stars covering the night.
We look down again, and this time
A lake is in our view
In it are all of the stars in the sky.
We laugh, and we play, for the rest of the day
Or the night, whatever it is
Then we remember, that we must return
To face the world again.
We exchange smiles, bittersweet
And look sadly at our child
Who will never be, who waves her unknowing goodbye.
We awake, and look at the moon
As it shines, outside of our door
And I run outside to see for myself
That now, the Dream is real.
I gape, and I stare, both of us do
And our child runs into our sight
And we smile, and we cry, and we thank God for this
This everlasting night.
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Might Have Been

I look back, upon our time together
And sigh, and sigh, and cry, and cry
Just for a moment, and wish, and wish
That it might have been.
I know, I know, t'was but a dream
A dream, a dream, a sweet, sweet dream
But I look back, and wish, and wish
And wish.
There is a moment, in between
Waking, and my time of dream
And in the moment, sometimes it seems
That it was more, than what ought have been.
Then I awake, and I recall
That that was all, that was all
That it was, no more, and no less.
What can I say, what can I say
I wish, sometimes, it was
But I know, I live this life
And I'd keep it, because
Unless I can have the best of both
I know, how these turn out
And that the price is simply
Much too high.
And so, I look, back and back
To time that never was
And sometimes, I wonder
At what might have