A Look Into My Mind by Mia Sparks (reading diary txt) 📖

Another Loves You Too

                                                                                                                           4/3/13
 
 
 
You say you’re with her.
In your heart you know it’s not true.
Why can’t you see that another loves you too?
You see right through her even when she’s standing right in front of you.
Yet you haven’t a clue.

Another Sleepless Night

 
 
At night I lay in bed. Thoughts of you go through my head. I think how it won’t be long. Soon you’ll be gone. You’ll be out of my life, and won’t be there at dawns early light. I’m filled with sorrow. My heart’s desire I can’t follow. If only I could see you one more time, your hand intertwined with mine. Together forever and always. If only that moment could last for days. When I’m with you I feel so right. Without you by my side it always feels like another sleepless night. I wish I could have one last brush of your lips. I would cherish the moment with such bliss. You complete me if only that’s all you would see.

Because Of You

 
 
Every night I think of you and, my heart begins to cry. I slowly die inside. My life feels like a knife. It’s such a terrible sight. I can’t sleep at night. I hate seeing mornings light. My heart is in two, and it’s all because of you.

Coming Together

  3/24/11

Pain is trapped inside. I broke the promise and lied. As my blood ran I thought, constantly of you. You made me shed a tear. Now I finally faced my fear. I’m always in pain and crying. I cover it up by smiling. My heart is broken. I’m lying here. You’re the only one who can put it back together, dear. The pain it feels right to release. Hopefully I won’t become one of the deceased. I keep going deeper. I’m not much of a bleeder. So much for a happy ending. Without you I can’t stand living. You leaving was a stab in the back. You not calling before you left turned the blade. I’m going to go away that’s a fact. I wish you were there for my last day as I fade. I even prayed. I softly took your name in vain. I hate going down memory lane. I see dawns early light, but them everything turns to dark night. I open my eyes and see your face. I ask what is this place, or is this a dream in my mind or the other lifetime? It’s like a Romeo and Juliet story there’s lot of mourning. I used the blade, I must lie in the bed I made. You drank the poison after I left, there you faded beside me and slept. We both took our last breaths. We’re finally together even if we’re in death…<3

Fairy Tale

 
Love has broken me and torn me away.
Oh man how each day I hate it this way.
I wish to break away from this cruse.
But everything I do makes it worse.
In this pitch black night.
Someday I hope to find some light.
I wish my fairy tale come true.
Instead my hero broke my heart in two.

From Above

 
 
Life is rough.
It has ups and downs that are tough.
But you gotta climb.
An always have a steady mind.
Live a happy life.
Yes, sometimes it can feel like a knife.
Flow on the minds memory streams.
But never forget to make dreams.
Reach for the stars.
Always follow your heart.
Dream and desirer.
Always remember god’s plan is something to admire.
Love is beautiful.
So always stay hopeful.
Stay true to love.
An you’ll always be blessed from above.

Gate

 
I’m guarded and strong, but age with time. At times I am broken and torn. I always stand my ground, but keep my arms open wide. I have got my share of cracks and scars. Sometimes people don’t understand why I’m there. I keep things safe and hidden. I keep my secrets buried deep within this cold darkness behind these iron bars.

Knight In Shining Armor

 
 
You’re always making me laugh.
You’re my other half.
Your shy but, always make me smile.
Finding love yeah it’s been awhile.
Even though sometimes you’re gone.
I know we belong.
You’re the one who makes me wish on shooting stars.
You’re the only guy that makes me doodle these hearts.
I hope you know this is true.
I love you.
I think of you all night.
When I see you, you make my day bright.

Life

 
I wait by the sea at night.
Waiting for the sun’s light.
So its glory can embrace me.
So I can see.
The beauty of love.
It’s like white on a dove.
Sorrow is a must.
But it’s better than lust.
You can’t change the past.
But memories are such a blast.
Keep in touch with friends.
An make letters to send.
Let the moon and stars carry your dreams.
Follow your heart on moonlit streams.
Fly on a magic carpet ride.
Maybe the grass is greener on the other side.