Heartbreak? Love? Or Neither? by Alexandra Rader (i wanna iguana read aloud .TXT) 📖

All I've ever wanted is to see his face
Recognize him
Cherish the sight of him
To whisper his name softly in surprise
To be filled with fear and sadness and happiness beyond belief
I just want to know that he's still out there
Living is life to the fullest
Yet I still hope that a part of him misses me
As much as I miss him
I want this would in my heart to heal
But I want him to be happy
I want to feel relief again
Yet I don't want to forget his face
Or any moment I had spent with him
I want to be able to look at another guy again
But somehow I know it will never be the same

Oh, mother moon, only a crescent
Yet still lighting the right path in the sky
Dawn peeks over the horizon
And it's time for a sad goodbye

A little girl watches from her window
And a single tear rolls down her cheek
For the moon was her only companion
That forever she had seeked

Miles away, a horse calls out
To the moon that was also his friend
The moon reappears, shining and twinkling
To prove that she has no end

Grandparents take a granddaughter as one of their own
The internal was, which has already begun

Hating the way they've hurt their daughter
Yet not willing to take the new bond and slaughter

Turmoil builds inside of their hearts
Wanting to tell, yet not knowing where to start

Keeping everything locked up inside
Yet their tortured expression, they can't hide

Looking at their new daughter with love in their eyes
But she already knows all of the lies

Saying they're fine, when they're totally not
Hating the way they're already caught

The tears come at every corner
Flowing swiftly and with ease
Her heart is turning into stone
Like a lonely, winter breeze

Her family is getting worried
For the way she's shutting down
No more smiles, no more laughter
It's like her happiness is bound

I'm hanging on by just a thread
I don't know how long I'll last
Before I break
My whole life's at stake
I fell in love with you
I thought you were so true
But now I see I'm just a fool
I'm hanging on by just a thread

Isn't it funny how nobody knows
Or even cares
Until you're long gone?
A whisper in the wind
It seems like only memories are
Cherished and loved
I wish I were a memory
And that you were the only key
To loving me
And caring
For all of eternity


I'm hanging on by just a thread
I don't know how long I'll last
Before I break
My whole life's at stake
I fell in love with you
I thought you were so true
But now I see I'm just a fool
I'm hanging on by just a thread

Stress and anxiety are all that I know
It's all too much
For just a teenage girl
Nobody understands
Nobody cares
I've gotten to a point
That I find no meaning
At all to my entire being
I'm frightened and alone
Got no place to call home
Feeling as small as can be
I barely get a glance
Let alone a second chance

I'm hanging on by just a thread
I don't know how long I'll last
Before I break
My whole life's at stake
I fell in love with you
I thought you were so true
But now I see I'm just a fool
I'm hanging on by just a thread

I've got problems with my parents
Who don't even care
My feelings and thoughts
I can't even share
Depression sneaks up on me
Like an old, forgotten friend
I've got no choice
But to let it in
School's another issue
Got people holding grudges
I can't walk down the halls
Without getting ridiculed
Only got a few true friends
All the others have to pretend

I'm hanging on by just a thread
I don't know how long I'll last
Before I break
My whole life's at stake
I fell in love with you
I thought you were so true
But now I see I'm just a fool
I'm hanging on by just a thread

My thoughts are hard to think
My heart is feeling heavy
I get sick to my stomach
With a nice fever to go along
Almost everyday
My head is always hurting
I'm exhausted all the time
I've got no one to talk to
No one to lean on
Life holds no more meaning
Not a single little spark
I've got no end in sight
Other than a lonely life
I sit here like a loner
Cause torture fills my eyes
Nobody understands
Cause they don't want to know the reason why

I'm hanging on by just a thread
I don't know how long I'll last
Before I break
My whole life's at stake
I fell in love with you
I thought you were so true
But now I see I'm just a fool
I'm hanging on by just a thread

I'm crying all the time
When I don't even know why
I'm looking for explanations
But coming up empty handed
Running into dead ends
I'm walking aimlessly about
Not knowing where to go
I'm trying to go unnoticed
Trying to hang real low
I just want some understanding
And a little support, too

I'm hanging on by just a thread
I don't know how long I'll last
Before I break
My whole life's at stake
I fell in love with you
I thought you were so true
But now I see I'm just a fool
I'm hanging on by just a thread

I'm beginning to give up
Got nothing left to give
Everyone ignores me
And gives me dirty looks
Nobody cares what happens to me
I don't know where I want to be
I'm heading downhill
I haven't a clue where I'm gonna land
I'm treading on thin ice
I don't know if I'm even gonna make it
I have a heavy heart
But it's filled with so much love
I'm afraid
But not of loving
I'm afraid of not being loved
No one seems to understand this
They don't think of me as a person
But as a pest, an abomination
They don't understand
So they shouldn't be making judgments
Unless they have walked through my shoes

I'm hanging on by just a thread
I don't know how long I'll last
Before I break
My whole life's at stake
I fell in love with you
I thought you were so true
But now I see I'm just a fool
I'm hanging on by just a thread

I'm so very lonely
But I hate to admit it
I feel like a huge mistake
And that I can't do anything right
I just don't know what to do
Or who to turn to
I wish that people would understand me
But they don't
And I don't know if they ever will
Writing is all that I have
But people don't bother to read it
Then you walked into my life
And shed me some life
I'm confused
And I don't understand
Why you would have chosen me
To share with
But now that you're gone
I understand so much more
Now that you're gone
I've been set free
You didn't want me
For me
Did you?
You just wanted what you wanted
But now that you're gone
I can finally relax
I can finally stop fighting
Everyone around me
I'm so very sorry for the way
I treated everyone I love
Because of you
I thought it was you who I wanted
Needed
But now I see that I was wrong
Now that you're gone
I can finally think
And smile
And laugh
And talk freely with the ones that I love
And all that I needed
Was you to be gone
Now that you're gone
I can actually be happy
You were the one
Who was keeping me from life
You stole my heart
So now I'm gonna steal it back
Because you don't deserve
What my heart holds in