Heartbreak? Love? Or Neither? by Alexandra Rader (book reader for pc TXT) 📖

TABLE OF CONTENTS

A Confession

A Huge Mistake

Ain't No Stoppin'

Already Fluttered Away

Always and Forever (December 12-13, 2012)

Always Belong to Him

Are You Happy?

 

Baby

Baby Boy (April 7, 2012)

Betrayals and Lies

Black

Blinded

Broken Down

Broken Hearted

 

Can't Help But Smile

Confused

Consuming (June 4, 2013)

Crush

 

Dear GOD,

Decieve

Deeper Into My Heart

Depression

Despair

Do You Care? (February 8, 2012)

Do You Ever...

Don't Leave Me Alone (April 19, 2012)

Don't Leave Me Tonight

Don't Take Me For Granted

Don't You Dare Leave Me Behind

Drown

 

Each and Every Day

Emptiness

End

Entrapped (February 7, 2012)

Everyone Deserves This (December 3, 2012)

 

Fall In Your Arms

Fallen

Falling Apart

Falling Even More

Falling to Pieces

Final Goodbye

Forever

Forgotten

"Fuck You!"

Fucked Up Life

 

Gone

Goodbye

Growing Apart

 

He'll Never Know

Held to the Ground

Help Me

High School

HIM

His Smile

How and Why

 

I Can't Take This Anymore

I Don't Know (April 18, 2011)

I Don't Understand

(I Hope)

I Just Want to Rest (May 20, 2013)

I Love the Way You...

I Love You

I Love You

I Loved...

I Need to Know You Care

I Need You (April 19, 2011)

I Promise You

I Thank GOD

I Will Love You Like No Other

I Wish (April 20, 2011)

IF...

If Only...

I'll Do Anything to Keep You By My Side

I'm Begging You

I'm Going to Let You

I'm Hanging On By Just A Thread

I'm Here to Stay

I'm So Very Sorry

Inside

It Must Be Love (July 16, 2013)

It's the Way You Love Me

I've Finally Had Enough

 

Left Alone

Let Me Fly

Life Is Nothing But A Game

Lifetime Ride (August 27, 2013)

Long Gone (October 29, 2014)

Lost

Love

Love At First Sight

Love Me For Me

Love Me Forever and Always

 

Mary Jane (September 6, 2013)

Masked (November 25, 2012)

Maybe Someday (February 13, 2012)

Me and Him

Mother Moon

My Everything (September 27, 2014)

My Fucked Up Life

My Heart is True

My Love

My Promise to You (November 2, 2013)

My Scream

My Stand

 

Needing You

Never Asked For Much

Never Been So True

Never Gonna Be Enough (November 20, 2013)

Never Let Me Go (October 3, 2013)

New Daughter

Nightmare (July 23, 2013)

Nighttime Passion

No Games

No Night For A Kind Lover ;) (November 13, 2013)

No One Wants to Be Alone

Not Okay

Not the One

 

One Chance

Only You

Opened My Eyes

Our Broken Friendship

Our Destiny

Our Time is Up

Overwhelmed (August 16, 2013)

 

Pain

Perfect

Please Don't Leave Me

Please Talk to Me

Promise

 

Rage

Real

Ripped Me Apart

Roses

 

Scared

Shame

She Can't Get Enough

Silent Goodbye

Slowly Break and Die

So Tired of This Fight (September 21, 2014)

Sorrow

Split In Two

Stay

Stolen (June 4, 2013)

Stripping Away My Life

 

Take Me As I Am

Tell Him How I Feel

The Pain

The Painful Truth

To Blame

Together Forever

Tore Down My Defenses

True Love's Last Kiss

Two

 

Until I Drop

Use Me (February 17, 2012)

 

Valentine's Day

Vanishes

 

Walking Away (June 4, 2013)

Warped (February 23, 2012)

We'll Always Be Together

What Does Love Mean?

What I Lack

What You Mean to Me (February 11, 2013)

Where Do I Belong?

Who I Am!

Why?

Why Can't You See?

Why You?

Will You... (July 20, 2013)

Wishing

Wishing On A Shooting Star

With Love in His Eyes

Withing Your Chest

 

You

You

You Promise

You That I Seek

You Walked Away

You Won't Talk

You'll Always Be There (December 24, 2014)

Your Touch

You're All the Same

You're My...

You're On My Mind (April 18, 2011)

You're The... (October 3, 2014)

You're the Love of My Life (September 27, 2014)

You're the Only One 

 

A CONFESSION

I have a confession to make:

The words you spoke cut deep into my heart

I know I can't change your feelings

Now I don't know where to start

 

Though words of logic you speak

I can't change the way I feel

And I will respect your decision

But don't worry;

I'll heal

 

I look forward to seeing you

Though I'm too scared to say why

You make my heart beat faster

And then I'm all shy

 

I should have known at first sight

That you were too good for me

Your heart is the purest I've seen

And you hold every girl's key

 

You've got a great personality

And good looks didn't forget to stop by

I know this all sounds cheesy

But I've spoken not a single lie

 

A HUGE MISTAKE

Shoulders slumped

Head bowed

She hardly makes it through the day

Regretting every minute

Wishing she had of listened

Now she's lost something...

Something that can never be returned or found

She's hurt beyond repair now

Coldness seeps into her being

Her thoughts are heavy and clouded

Her life holds no meaning

She has no one to understand her...

No one to talk to...

Where could she begin?

Wait

There's a flicker of hope...

A thought of someone she can speak to

But there's a risk...

A risk of someone hating her...

A risk she'll have to take

Fear penetrates her mind...

Filling every pore of her body

Taking a deep breath

She makes her decision

She walks up to her Mom

Taking another deep breath

She spills everything

She's crying now

Sobbing uncontrollably

Her mother holds her

Patient, knowing, caring, always there

There's no hatred in her Mother's embrace;

She should have known better

What she did was wrong

But her Mother understands

Her Mother has been there, done that

She knows she must work hard now...

Work hard if she wants her Mother's trust again

But her Mother's still there...

Still there, and always will be

She made a huge mistake

But she'll pull through

She'll be okay again

Thanks to her Mother...

And her Mother only

 

AIN'T NO STOPPIN'

Every single tear

Every little drop

I see you smile

And my heart stops

 

Give me a chance

You won't regret

Try me on for size

I'll let you take a bet

 

So go ahead

And cut me open

This will never end

There ain't no stoppin'

ALREADY FLUTTERED AWAY

Wrapped in each other's arms

Not knowing what the other is thinking

Thoughts swirling

Worlds collidin

Auras merging

They stare deep into each others eyes

Searching for the light of the other's soul

There's a flicker in her eyes

But it's quickly gone and covered

He sighs and bites his lip

Thinking that maybe someday she will trust him

And open up completely

She sees the look on his face

And quickly tries to recapture the moment

But it's already fluttered away

ALWAYS AND FOREVER (DECEMBER 12-13, 2012)

Always and forever

I'll stand by your side

I promise I'll never let you go or leave you behind

 

My love for you will be stronger each day

I'll take your hand and ease your pains away

 

You can spend each day knowing you have my heart

I hope you know you made my life restart

 

My happiness with you can't be described

You take away the tears my eyes have ever cried

 

Always and forever

You'll hve my love

The angles have blessed us from above

 

Even if we have our fights

I know it's you I love at the end of the night

 

My life isn't exactly a fairytale

But you came along and put my pain up for sale

 

You lift me up and understand the best you can

And I know it's your side at which I stand

 

You came along like a candle in my dark

With just one smile

You completely stole my heart

 

Every time I look

And see you standing there

I finally realize just how much you care

 

Every minute we are apart

I go insane

My heart starts to race when I hear your name

 

Always and Forever

You'll have me for your own

I promise

You'll never be alone

 

You hold me close and chase my tears away

You drive me crazy

Each and every day

 

When you hold me tight

You take away all my fears

When you're gone

I'm wishing you were near

 

So, always and forever I'll stand by your side

I promise I'll never let you go or leave you behind

ALWAYS BELONGED TO HIM

My heart beats winthin his chest

My blood flows within his veins

My lips smile upon his face

My voice sings within his throat

My eyes cry within his soul

My arms long for his embrace

My body leaps for him to notice

My life has always belonged to him

ARE YOU HAPPY?