Let me love you... Please? by Sequoia Gallatin (paper ebook reader TXT) 📖

Is there ANYONE trustworthy? What do you do if your soul mate leaves you for someone else? Well this is how I felt when Tim Karrono left me. I can't live on. Not like this. I'll never love again.

I'm The Loser Girl who got dumped by her soul mate. My name is Serena Georgia and I'm a high school freshman. I had met this amazing guy named Tim Karrono about five months earlier. We started dating during the summer, but then I got grounded and couldn't see or talk to him for a few months, then I found out that he had a new girlfriend. He is my soul mate, I just know it. How can I live without him? I see his little sister at the park today. I start to think of Vanilla Twilight by Owl City which was our song. God, I hate my life. I hate HIM!
"Yo. Barb!" I call to her, she looks up at me. Her face lights up.
"Serena!" She calls as I walk over to her. "How are you?"
"How am I?" I stare at her. Did she really just ask me that? "Oh I'm just dandy!" I say, sarcastically. Right then I hear someone yell from behind me,
"Hey barb! Hurry up! I'm in a hurry!" I spin around to see Tim sitting in his car, looking down at his phone. He glances up and sees me. I spin around and walk away.
"Holy shit!" I hear him yell as he slams the door behind him. "Serena!"
I continue walking.
"Wait!" He yells and I hear him running behind me. I cross my arms. I feel his hand on my arm and spin around.
"What do you want, Tim?" I growl.
"I didn't know you were ungrounded." He says, smiling at me. "It's sure nice to see you again."
I raise my eyebrows at him. "Is it really?" I laugh.
"What?" He says, looking confused.
"You say it's nice to see me, but i don't think it really is. I don't think you like me." I say.
"Serena. What the hell are you talking about?"
"You know what I'm talking about! You don't like me. You left me for some one else. You never really did love me, did you?" I look away, tears forming in my eyes.
"Wow." He murmurs, his face paling. "I didn't realize that's what you think is going on. I love you so much. I can't explain it to you." But right then I see another car pull up and a girl is sitting at the wheel with sunglasses covering her eyes.
"Yo baby!" She yells, chewing gum. "You ready to go? Michael's party is just about to start. We don't want to be late, do we?"
Tim sighs then looks at me for another minute. "I'm so sorry I hurt you, Serena. I never intended to. Please believe me when I say that I love you. I always think about you and remember you and just because I have someone else in my life too doesn't mean I've pushed YOU out of it. Please don't push me away."
I look away as he leans in and kisses the top of my head. I cant keep my tears in and watch as he walks toward the girls car.
"Is that-" I hear her start to say. He nods. She gives me a little smile and wave. She seems nice and everything but I don't care.


"I don't think I shall ever talk to him again." I tell my best friend, Mia Charr, later that night. I'm on the phone with her. Unfortunately she lives in a different town but it's only like an hour away.
"Oh, Serena. We both know how much you are hurting, but it will hurt you more if you push him out of your life." She says. Then I hear her sigh. "Okay, listen I'm coming down tomorrow and everything. We will walk around and go shopping and just try to get your mind off of him. Okay? I have to go. Dinners ready. Remember, I love you and so do so many other people. I'll see you tomorrow. Okay? Bye I love you."
"I love you too. Bye." I say, shutting my phone. Then I roll over on my bed and sigh. Why is love so difficult? I know that we are meant to be together. Why is the world working against me then? I groan then get up and turn on my computer. I check my Facebook then log off. Grr nobody interesting is on. Actually pretty much none of my friends are on. Except one. The one I don't want to talk to.

Tim Karrono: Hey :)
Serena Georgia: Hello
Tim Karrono: Listen, about earlier. I wanted to talk more but I had to go to a party
Serena Georgia: Ha! Never heard that one b4. Did u just decide to start makin up excuses or something?
Tim Karrono: I've never lied to u b4.
Serena Georgia: No but u have never told the whole truth either. Like wen u promised u wuld never leave me. I'm guessin that was just a joke or something to u?
Tim Karrono: U've Never been a joke to me! NEVER!
Serena Georgia: Wateva
Tim Karrono: Please believe me. I wasn't jokin wen I said I still love u. I will always love u
Serena Georgia: Wateva…

He stops messaging me for a few minutes. I sigh then take a drink of my water that sits right next to my computer on my desktop. I get up and lay down on my bed with my computer in front of me.

Tim Karrono: Do u still love me?

I don't reply for a few minutes. Did he really just ask me that question?

Serena Georgia: I hear ur thinking bout getting engaged
Tim Karrono: Yeah, I was thinkin bout it.
Serena Georgia: Hmmm… Ya kno that's a pretty big commitment. R u sure ur ready for that?
Tim Karrono: Yes

I don't know what to say now. I can feel my heart sink.

Tim Karrono: Hey listen, I gtg. See ya l8er. Ok?

I sigh. Then type in one word:

Serena Georgia: Goodbye

Then I log out before he can write anymore. So he IS thinking about getting engaged? I lay on my bed and cry myself to sleep.


"Hey, you okay?" I look up to see Mia studying me from across the table and smile at her. My smile is fake but hopefully she believes it.
"Yeah," I shrug, straightening up as I see a group of guys watching us from the corner of the room. We are sitting in a small new cafe thats name is Isaucer. "I'm fine. Sorry I just have a lot on my mind."
She nods. "I'm sure you do." She says, then her eyes narrow as I hear the door open and boys voices laughing.
"Hey everyone! The boys are back!" I hear Ian Monroe say. Uh-oh, I think. If Ian's hear then that means that Tim is-
"Let's go." I whisper to Mia and she nods. We head towards the back door but then I hear someone behind us say,
"Serena? Mia?"
I turn to see Tim standing there, looking at us. He looks so cute with his black hair all ruffled up, in his jeans and t-shirt. Oh god, I think, staring at him and wondering why he could hurt me so badly. No I am not going to stand here and hurt myself more.
"Excuse us," I say as I walk out the door, pulling Mia along with me and ignoring him as he calls after me.


A week later, I am sitting on my bed and turn on the computer. I can handle this, I think as I log into Facebook. I can move on.

Serena Georgia: Hi
Tim Karrono: hi
Serena Georgia: How r ju?
Tim Karrono: Just about to kill myself. Hbu?


Holy shit, I think. What happened? Did his girlfriend leave him?

Serena Georgia: No! Don't do that! Why?
Tim Karrono: Cuz this stupid keyboard wont work
Serena Georgia: Ohhhh

Oh, I think. To be honest, I felt kind-of disappointed. I mean not that I had wanted him to be hurting because his girlfriend had dumped him or anything but because when I thought she had dumped him I had felt a spark of hope in my heart that maybe we could start over, that maybe we could be like we were a few months before. Maybe we truly were meant to be together. But now I see I was wrong. Wow. He's going to kill himself because a stupid keyboard wont work? What a perfect waste of a perfect life

Serena Georgia: Listen, Ik sometimes things can annoy u and u just don't wanna go on. Trust me, I've been there b4 but think bout all the ppl who love and care bout u! Wat would ur gf do if u died? Please promise not to kill urself. If nothing else u have to keep that promise. Please?
Tim Karrono: Ok. I will
Serena Georgia: Ok. good
Serena Georgia: Wait. wat?

He stops replying.
Serena Georgia: Yay! I'm happy. I'm finally gettin over u!
Serena Georgia: Not that I don't still love u or anythin
Serena Georgia: I mean I still love u and all but not as much as b4

I can feel my face turn bright red. I'm glad he can't see me. What he writes next however astonishes me out of my wits.
Tim Karrono: I love you more than I did b4

!!!!!!!!! Did he really just say that? I don't think I saw that right. Did he accidentally send that to me when he meant to send it to someone else?

Serena Georgia: Wat?? Did u really just say u love me more now than u did wen we were datin?
Tim Karrono: Yes
Serena Georgia: But u have a gf!
Serena Georgia: But yeah I think I love u more than I did b4 too
Serena Georgia: Haha it's funny but u never seem to realize how much u love some1 til their gone. Lol
Tim Karrono: But I'm not gone. I'm here lovin u more than ever
Tim Karrono: I'm with u
Tim Karrono: I'm here 4 u

Oh god, I think, close to tears. How can I move on if he tells me this kinds of stuff? Then I realize. If this is true then I don't have to move on. But theres just like a few things I need to sort out.

Serena Georgia: Well ur not here for me. U really r gone. Cuz ur with someone else now


He doesn't reply.

Serena Georgia: So I