Girl In A Boy's School by Jade Blue (best book club books for discussion txt) 📖

hitting him or trying to get off him, I just stared into his eyes.

I didn’t know what he was thinking but all I knew was that he was staring at my lips.

We were so close that our noses touched for a second.

‘Matt, what are you-‘

‘Kiss.’ He said.

My eyes widened.

He looked into my eyes again. ‘Er, I mean, we forgot to talk about the kiss we had.’

‘Yeah, that was weird.’ I whispered. He was still holding me so tightly.

‘Yeah but well, it was…something…right?’ He said, reading my face.

‘Well,’ I whispered. ‘It was something…’

He looked at me a little smile spreading on his face.

But I wasn’t finished. ‘I think its better if we both forget about it.’

His smile vanished.

I looked down. I didn’t want to see him hurt.  I didn’t want to feel pain. I just didn’t want to see him sad.

I quickly let go of his warm embrace and walked away. I wanted to look back. I wanted to do something but I know if I did, it would be obvious. It would be obvious that I really liked him.

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CHAPTER 23: ATLEAST HES HERE

It was awkward after last night. The few weeks after was just me avoiding Matt and Matt trying to talk to me. Whenever he did try to talk to me, I would just run to Finn which would make Matt not willing to talk. Avoiding Matt made me spend more time with Finn which was perfect.

 

It was never awkward or weird or crazy. It was just us being… us

 

.It was Friday night and we were in the games room playing snooker. ‘Hahaha, I told you I was awesome at this.’ Finn said. I stuck my tongue out to him.

‘Hey, I’m actually okay for a beginner.’I sat down on a chair.

It was only us two in the room.

It was 7pm and everyone was either doing their work or chores. We had homework and chores to do but Finn wanted to show me how to play snooker.

‘Okay, your turn.’ Finn said.I bit my lip as I looked at how I was going to put the ball In the hole.

I got the stick and positioned myself so the stick was near the ball, ready to be hit. ‘CeCe, you’re doing it wrong.’ Finn said. I frowned. Finn put his hand on my hand as he guided me to where the cue stick should be.

 

I felt a bit uncomfortable when he touched me but I didn’t want to say anything. I’ve already freaked one guy from this school. I didn’t want to freak another.

CHAPTER 25: MATT'S P.O.V

‘Hey, have you seen Finn?’ I asked Jack.

 

He shook his head and told me to try the Games room.

I sighed.

I needed help on my homework and I was trying to find where Finn was.

 

Where the hell is that guy? Okay, maybe I wasn’t finding Finn.

Maybe I’m finding CeCe because I want to talk to her.

And obviously, CeCe will be where Finn is.

They both have been together ever since CeCe and I had the incident a few weeks ago.I was walking down the hall, looking in every room to find them.

I didn’t mean to hurt CeCe and grab her by her wrist. I knew she didn’t like it but her body was telling me something else. Her body was telling me to never let go. And when she bit her lip, the feeling I had. Argh, the feeling was killing me. I didn’t know what it was but it felt amazing.

And every time I see her or see that beautiful smile of her, I forget that I have problems, I forget that I hate myself, I forget everything and just look at her.

 

I was near the Games room now. I heard some talking. I thought about what I was going to say to CeCe when I got rid of Finn. I walked in and I saw CeCe playing snooker. She was focusing on her pool ball. Finn was there too. Looking at what she was doing. She was holding the cue stick a bit weirdly.

 

‘CeCe, you’re doing it wrong.’ Finn said. I was about to say something when Finn put his hand on CeCe’s hand. I couldn’t say anything. I was angry. CeCe seemed to get a bit uncomfortable but she didn't say anything. She didn’t act like this when I touched her. Why did she let him touch her?

 

I was mad. So mad, I swear.

I wanted to break Finn’s hand. I’ve never felt like this. All I knew was that I was confused and sad and hurt and just the unhappiest I’ve been ever been.There was a vase near me. I got the vase and through it on the floor angrily.They both looked up and saw me. I just wanted to go there and punch Finn. How dare he? She's mine, only mine.But i stood there, with a blank face.

I was good at hiding my emotions, i've been doing it for years.

CHAPTER 26: WAIT, WHAT

"Hey, Matt, whats up?" Finn said.Matt was staring at me.

I couldn't figure out what he was thinking but i sensed anger.

But why?And then i saw Finn's hand on mine and quickly moved and took a step back. Oh.'I just needed help on my homework.' Matt said. He sounded so... dead. 'Oh, okay. Hope you don't mind me going, CeCe?' Finn said.I gave a small smile and shook my head.

'No its fine.'He gave me a big smile.

'Come on.' He said to Matt.

Matt looked at him for a second and then looked at me again.

'One sec, I just need to get something.'

Matt nodded and went out the room.It was only us too. I looked at my hands.

 

I didn't want to look at his face and see the hurt look.Why was he hurt anyways? He didn't like me. I'm nothing to him. I looked down as i walked to the door.

I wanted to get out. I have to.As i walked passed him, he grabbed my wrist and pulled me towards him. The same thing he did before but this time, it hurt. I was close to his face.

 

I tried pulling me off him but he was too strong.

'Stop it! Let go of me!' I cried. But he just stared at me.

He then smiled harshly. 'Oh, CeCe. Its not fair.'

He laughed. 'Finn can touch you, but i can't?'I couldn't look at him.

I looked down, too scared. I was scared. Me? How?

'Please.' I said, tears flowing down my cheek.I looked at him.

 

 

He then looked into my eyes, and suddenly, his harsh expression changed. He looked terrified.He quickly let go of me. I was relieved as i touched my bruised wrist.

How dare he? He looked down and he went back slowly. 'What have i done?' He whispered.

He looked terrified and almost crazy.I didn't know what to do. I wanted to run away from him but at the same time, i wanted to hug him and tell him its okay. Whats wrong with me? Why do i feel sorry for him? He hurt me and I'm just acting like i'm the wrong here.

Before i could say anything or do anything, Matt ran out. I was too confused. I didn't understand but i wanted to.

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CHAPTER 27: CONFUZZLED

I looked out the window where some boys were playing football.

I didn't understand what was going on but my eyes were fixed on one boy.

Matt.

He was playing too with a straight face. Not even cheering when their team scored.

 

There was something about him that made me want to know more about him. Maybe because he's always been mysterious. Ever since i've met him, he's never talked about himself.

I remember he told me that my 'craziness' was relatable. That means, he must have gone through some shit that made him crazy too. And then it was so clear. I jumped with excitement.

 

I know what's wrong. He's missing his dad. That's why he got angry when i was close to Finn. He wanted to Finn to be by his side. I need to do something. Something that will help him feel better.

 

But first i had to talk to Matt's friends to find out more about his problem. I went down to where they were playing. I sat on the bench and watched the game. Who were Matt's friends? I have seen them but i can't remember which ones are the closest to him. Matt kicked the ball into the net which scored their team another goal.

 

A guy with ginger hair gave Matt a fist bump while smiling. Oh yeah, it was him. I think his name was Terry. I guess i should talk to him.

 

Finn was playing too. I waved when he saw me. Finn smiled brightly when he saw me and just walked toward me. No i don't think you understand, he just walked out of a game.

 

Matt watched him go and then saw me. I didn't look at him for