Damaged Beyond Repair by Kashmira Kamat (KittyKash) (ebook reader below 3000 .txt) 📖

This better not be a fucking dream.

"What's the matter?" Rowan whispered into her ear. "Did I say something to upset you?"

"I can't pretend like this, like we don't even know each other." She whispered back.

I pulled back to look into her eyes. I cupped her face and ran the pad of my thumb across her cheek to wipe her tears. Alana closed her eyes, as my fingers brushed her cheek. The three words were at the tip of my tongue, I knew it would roll off easily, but something held me back. I didn't want to say that I loved her and screw up again. Her lips looked tempting and I wanted to kiss her so damn badly, but I knew it had to wait too.

"We can start fresh, like the bad things from the past never happened." I suggested.

"What do you mean?" She appeared puzzled.

"That means we take it slow. Spend time with each other and talk it out. We don't need to jump into a relationship. You can take your time, think about it."

She gave out a dry laugh. "You were the one who broke up with me, remember?"

"Well, yeah. I'm a fucking idiot. And I guess you know that by now." I quickly added. "I won't do the same mistake of asking you for another chance. All I want you to do is think about me, analyze me and if you really think we could work it out, then...you could consider us again, maybe?"

Alana seemed nervous all of a sudden, she was fidgeting, like she was hiding something. "There's something you need to know, Rowan." She bit her bottom lip, averting her eyes away from mine.

God forbid if she said she had someone else in her life? Or, that she liked someone better. What was I supposed to do? I tried to keep my mind off the dark side, because even thinking about those possibilities made me sick in the stomach.

"Do you...." I swallowed, unable to get the words out of my mouth. "Do you have someone else in your life?"

Alana shook her head. She still wasn't looking at me. "I need you to trust me, okay? We are going to talk about it, but not now."

I gave a nod of approval. Whatever she had to say would have to wait. I didn't think I had it inside me to spoil my mood. I decided to keep my head clear. I wasn't here for two years, I'd broken up with her and told her to move on, so what if she had a little fling with a guy?

I ran my fingers through her hair. "Whenever you are ready. Know that, whatever it is, Alana, I'll listen to you. I'm not that old bat-shit crazy guy anymore, maybe that guy is still there somewhere, but I won't ever do anything that may hurt you. If you tell me that you don't want to talk to me, I won't."

She refused to give me an answer and that made me more anxious.

"Say something, baby." I said. "Would you consider me?"

"Yes." She said, this time meeting my gaze.

A smile crossed my lips. "Thank you." I took her hand in mine and kissed her fingers, one at a time, we stared at each other mesmerized. Neither of us wanting to let go.

"Nina must be waiting near my apartment building." Alana informed me. "So, I need to head home."

"Okay." I said. "Can I offer you a ride? Minnie and I are going home too."

"No. That's fine." She said. "I recently bought a used car."

"Wonderful." I hated this part where we had to head back home. "Can I text you?"

Alana laughed for the first time since we had met. Her laughter, that smile is what I wanted to wake up every day to, although I knew if my thoughts were transparent, she would be running for the hills. "You can text me, Rowan."

"Okay, see you then."

"Looks like Minnie has got herself a boyfriend." Alana joked, indicating towards the café.

"Well, don't know about her, but I sure as hell need a girlfriend soon. A man has his needs too, you know."

Alana's face fell. She never really got around to appreciating my humor. I quickly added. "I'm kidding." I wasn't.

Alana waved one last time, turned on her heel and walked towards the parking lot. I blew out a breath and retreated towards the café. She thought that meeting me here was a co-incidence, I'd called her friend Nina first who had seemed excited when I told her that I wanted to surprise Alana and she willingly told me about Alana's plan for the day. Piece of cake.

It's been four days in Carmel and I had yet to meet my family. I'd only met my father's chauffeur, Oliver who had dropped Minnie off in the new condo complex where I lived now. I'd sold off the old apartment where I used to live before and bought a new condo in the heart of Carmel. This space was bigger and better.

I walked back to the café and found Minnie seated with her friend, Blake and his mother. His mother talked to me for some time. The woman seemed shy and sweet. A few minutes later, Minnie and I were driving back to my family home. I couldn't wait to hear to what Dwight had to say, it was probably the same thing that Alana was talking about.

I mentally prepared for the blow, knowing full well that I wouldn't like what was coming to me.

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