Girl In A Boy's School by Jade Blue (best book club books for discussion txt) 📖

'And I didn't want my baby to get hurt.'
'I can't believe this! I am already hurt! He left me since I was 10, I don't even remember him much. Why the hell does he want me now?'
'Because hes ready. When he left me, he promised me that he will come back. And he has.'
'Actually, he hasn't. I have to come back to him because I'm the one moving to Scotland.'
'Sweetheart, hes changed. Hes like the other dads. He is a headmaster in a boarding school. Who ever thought of that? A druggie could be such a success.'
I nearly laughed. 'Your seriously thinking of taking me to Scotland.'
'Yes. You told me you would love to travel.' She said nudging me.
'Traveling isn't staying in one place for a long time.'
'Well its a start. Then you could get money and go all over the world. You should go France. I heard its great there.'
'Yeah, France is great. Them beguettes sounds awesome. OMG! Why have we changed the subject?'
'She shrugged. 'Please darling, it will be great there. You never know, you might have fun.'
'Mum-'
'Please, for me.' She said. 'Just a few months. Just have a little bit of bonding time with your dad.'
I sighed. 'Fine.' There was no point arguing. No option for me left. And maybe Mum is right, there is no other school otherwise she wouldn't have chosen this annoying option.
She happily hugged me. 'It means a lot to me, CeCe.'
'So when?' I said.
'Any day you want. But sooner the better.'
'Okay.' I said. We went quiet for a second. And then I said something that shocked the both of us. 'What about tomorrow?'
Her eyes opened with amazement. But she didn't seem happy. 'CeCe, when I said sooner the better, I didn't mean-'
'I know I know. I just want to get over and done with this.' I said. But that wasn't really the reason. The real reason was because a part of me was excited. Excited to meet my dad. Yes, Ive never heard from him from a long time but I had a feeling that it was going to be great.'
'Okay then. Tomorrow I'll get you ticket and everything.'
'No, I mean get ticket today, and I will get there tomorrow.' I said. She bit her lip. Okay, I guess it was really freaky that I wanted to go so early. But I just did.
'CeCe, are you doing this because your mad at me?' She said.
I screamed. 'I HATE YOU SO MUCH! I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU!! FINE, I WILL GO. JUST TO GET ME OUT OF YOUR FREAKING WAY!' She looked startled. I smiled.
'Thats what I would have said if I was mad.'
She laughed. 'Wow, you really scared me.' She said. I laughed too.
'I guess, I'm known as a good actor.' I said babbling about myself. We both burst into laughter. And then, we both stopped staring at eachother, both thinking the same thing. Wow, Its been ages since we laughed together. It felt really good. We were always far apart and the closest we got was when grandma died. But this, it was real. I was actually laughing with my mum. The same mum who didn't understand me, the same mum who taught i misbehaved for attention and the same mum who was sending me to Scotland.
Was I ready for a world of confusing accents and green clothes. Okay, thats not what Scotland is about but for some reason, its the only things I knew. But Scotland, its so...... different. And the school seems okay. If no one knows me there, I could make my own personality. Or just be by freaking self.
So this dad who my mum says has 'changed.' Has he really? The last time I remember him was when he had a talk with me about how much he loves me. And that could only mean that he was just saying all that to me because he was leaving me. He didn't come once. He phoned but never talked to me. I was hurt. And why did I want to go here? To make my mum happy and to solve this thing with my dad. And even thought he hurt me so much, I still wanted to talk to him, hug him and tell him things. I just wanted to be with him.
CHAPTER 4: A Hard Goodbye
'You got everything?' My mum said for the 6th time. I would have complained about her worrying but how could I when I'm worried myself. What if I made a bad decision? What if something bad happens? Just.. What If?
We were at the airport and this was my first time travelling alone. But that was the least of my worries. Will Mum be okay? My mum looked inside her bag and kept on looking at the time. We came half an hour early because Mum thought something might have happened in the way.
'Mum.' I said looking at her. She looked better now with her makeup and her blond hair tyed back. Since my dad left, I didn't understand why she didn't date. I mean, she was beautiful and even my maths teacher had a crush on her. And hes married. So I didn't understand. Its not like I couldn't tell her because I didn't know if I was ready for a new step or even just a guy living with us for a while. It just didn't seem right. Maybe thats how Mum felt.
'Yes CeCe.' She looked at me and then stopped fidgeting. She must have noticed the gloominess on my face because she came and sat next to me. 'Look, I know its a big thing. But look at it as a big to do list. Number 1, go on a plane on your own. Number 2, meet your dad. Number 3, fit into the school that you would do great at and Number 4, get your grades up. And you can leave the rest on me. Okay?'
I smiled. It was hard to keep a straight face when this was the best heads up my mum could give me. But it did help. A to do list. Yeah, I'll do it. But that wasn't the think I was worrying about.
'Mum, forget about me. Will you be able to do okay on your own at home?' I said looking at her. She looked distanced for a while but she then smiled.
'How can I be alone? I have lots of friends and they could come and have a sleepover at my house any time they want. No one is old enough for sleepovers.' She said to cheer me up. But it wasn't working. Me and my Mum never worked out but her just being there was a great comfort. But when I'm going to go to Scotland, how will I know?. 'But don't worry about me. Just don't pressure yourself. Have a bit of fun at times.'
I nodded.
'Can the people who will be travelling to Scotland, please come to their gates. Thank you.' I heard the speaker blare out. We both looked at eachother. Well this is it. The first ever time I'm going on a plane. The first time I'm ever going to leave Mum. This is it.
'You'll do great, honey. Just remember to be nice to your dad. You may be a bit angry at him but not too much that you will make him end up in hospital.' Mum said half joking and half serious. I sighed.
Don't forget to lock your door and make sure you don't let your friends in my room.' I said. I had to say something. Rules are something too. 'I may be gone for a while but I'll be back. And come visit sometimes and don't eat too much junk food or you will end up on The Biggest Loser.' She laughed and then I saw a tear fall down her cheek. Is she crying? I can't believe this. So much firsts in one day. She hugged me tight. Another first. I hugged her back, taking in a mummy smell that I could never work what it is.
'Please can the people boarding to Scotland as soon as they can. Thank you.' I heard it again.
'Bye Mum.' I said when she stopped hugging me. 'Take care.'
'Bye Cece. Be careful.' She said and then that was it. I went to the gate. I could see her in the distance waving at me. I waved my back and smiled. Who would ever know? I miss my mum.
Chapter 5: The Ugly Truth

'Do you want me to help you?' The stewardess said for the 100th time. Man! When someone says no, its a no. I was trying to put my lugguage on the cuboard on top of my seat. It was hard but I finally did it. I gave a fake smile to the stewardess and then sat at my seat. I grinned when I noticed her giving me the looks. What do you expect when you annoy someone like me? I guess they only asked when they found out that I am travelling alone. Has a 16 year old never travelled alone before me? They make me laugh. I looked out the window. I could see the wing of the aeroplane and cars wondering about. It was great in a way. But I wonder how it feels in the sky. I bet its awesome.
I looked the screen in front of me. Oh, so theres a tv. I put it on to see that they had the worsest movies ever. Marley and Me? Really? Its cute but not my type. What else.. I looked everywhere for a movie that wasn't sickable. Nope, they all were. What am I going to do now? I groaned angrily.
'Let me guess, you hate the movies?' I looked around to see a guy who looked around 17. He was handsome, eventhough he had glasses on. He wore a black t-shirt and a white trousers. It looked great on him. He smiled. 'This is seat 4b right?'
I was confused. Oh right seats! I looked at my seat. Mine was 4a. So 4b must be the one next to me. '4b is next to me.' I said before turning back and looking out the windows. I can't wait to see the sky. The best bit of going somewhere is getting there. And I'm going to enjoy this.
'So, its your first time on an aeroplane?' It was the guy again. He had a Scotland accent that I'm going to be hearing all the time. It was okay.
'Yeah, how do you know?' I said. Did I look like someone who never travelled in a aeroplane?
'Well, when someone looks through the window like its the most amazing thing, it becomes kind of obvious.' He said with the Scotland accent.
'It is amazing.' I said truthfully.
He laughed. 'You think the ground is amazing, wait till you see the clouds.'
'Hello people, We will be going in 15 minutes so fasten your seat belts, switch off your phone and put on a movie.' The speaker said trying to be funny. But no one heard. Everyone was shouting and asking people to switch seats so they could sit with their familys. And these seats