My Secret by Breanna Davis (elon musk reading list txt) 📖

flushed red.
"What! Amelia!" My dad face turned pale and at that moment I heard a car's horn.
I exhaled and ran out the door as fast as I could.
Why the hell did Blaze say that? He's acting like he is a virgin himself! He lost his virginity at thirteen! I didn't say anything! Now he's going to rat me out like that. I had to get him back. Somehow.
I rushed into Jake's car and slammed the door as fast I could. I strapped on my seatbelt and tucked my cell phone in my pocket.
Jake chuckled.
"Are the police after you?" he teased.
"Something like that," I muttered.
I sighed as Jake drove from my house and towards the school.
"So, what happened?" Jake mused.
"Blaze told my parents about our sex lives."
Jake's laughter boomed through the car and it calmed me down a bit.
"Did he get the details about how many orgasms I made you have?"
I narrowed my eyes at him.
"I only had one!"
"Six! Will you give in already?"
Jake was having fits of laughter and I smiled, but tried to hide it. His smile and laughter was so contagious.
I relaxed into my seat and listened to Jake's laughter, committing it to memory for a rainy day.
"So, are you ready for Friday?" Jake said as he recovered from his hysteria.
I nodded.
"You better beat their asses."
I smirked.
"I'll try my best, Jake."
"Remember what I said last year." he said and my heart skipped the beat. He had no idea about how much those words meant to me. It didn't just make me win the race, it also made me fall deeper in love with him.
"I will." I said and smiled.
Jake coughed and I looked at him. Then, another cough came after another. I saw panic on his face. I was instantly alarmed.
"You ok, Jake?"
He smiled, but coughed again.
"Yeah, just a little cold."
"You sure?"
He nodded.
Jake pulled into the parking lot and he stopped coughing. I sighed, relieved. I was glad he wasn't suffering from Tuberculosis.
He pulled into a parking space and put the car in park. I looked at him and I was worried. He looked like he was about to die.
"Jake, are you sure your ok?" I asked.
He smiled, but I can tell it was forced.
"I'm sure I'm fine. Stop worrying."
He stepped out of the car so did I. He grabbed my hand as we walked into the school.
"You two! Stop! You guys are always trying to leave me!"
I smirked and me and Jake stopped.
Pamela, one of my friends caught up with us and she got in between us resting a arm on both of us.
"Hey, Jake. Hey, Amelia."
I smiled at her.
"I was about to go fuck my boyfriend in the bathroom when you came interrupted us." I teased
All three of us laughed.
"Can I join?" Pamela asked.
"Nope, my dick belongs to Amelia, only." Jake said, smiling.
"Too bad. I guess I'm just going to have to ride the next cute boy that walks down the hall."
I laughed as Pamela left us and went after Bryan, a boy I recognize from the basketball team.
I watched as she whispered in Bryan's ear. He smiled and grabbed her waist and they went into the nearest bathroom.
"Wow, she gets around like magic." Jake said from next to me.
I giggled.
"That's our Pamela. They grow up so fast." I say.
Jake looks down at me and grins. He wrapped his arms around me and pulls me closer. I smiled, everything was perfect.

The day passed by in a blur, and I was heading to lunch, holding hands with Jake with Pamela yapping in our ear about how big Bryan's package was.
"I mean like, Amelia, his dick was huge! Probably bigger than Jake's."
I giggle.
"Not possible," I say and Jake smiles.
Pamela giggles. "Young love," she sighs and walks ahead of us.
"I hope she knows the size of a penis has nothing to do with love. All about the genes." Jake says and laughs.
I laugh and agree.
Then, Jake coughs, again.
I look at him, he looks like he in the pain. I notice that it sounded harsher than it did in the car.
I rub his back, but I don't say anything. I'm silently praying that he's ok.
I squeeze his hand and he squeeze's my hand back.
I didn't grab any lunch, I wasn't hungry anymore. Jake's coughing made my appetite vanish. I hoped he wasn't sick. A cold didn't appear out of thin air like that. It didn't make sense. What was happening to him?
I waited as Jake paid for his lunch before we walked to the table we shared with my brother and my sister, along with their friends and mines.
I sat down next to my brother, and Jake sat next to me.
"No food?" My brother asked me.
I shook my head and then I narrowed my eyes at him.
"What was that about this morning, you asshole?"
The whole table laughs accept my sister, and Blaze blushes.
"Well, you were fucking your boyfriend."
"Well, stop jacking off to the sound of our sex." I spat at him.
Once again the whole table laughed again and my brother flushed red.
Jake chuckled and held me tighter to his side.
"Can you guys stop fighting? Save all of that mess for home. Damn, twins." Iris said.
"It's alright. If I had a twin I would argue with them all the time." Casey said, one of the cheerleaders.
Iris rolled her eyes and snuggled into Chris, her boyfriend, side.
I looked at my brother who had his arm wrapped around Liz his current girlfriend, which I know he would probably dump by next week.
Jake coughed again and the whole table looked at him. He clutched his side as he coughed.
"Jake," I said alarmed.
He looked at me and I saw tears in his eyes.
"Jake!" I said more scared now.
He stood up and ran from the cafeteria, coughing. I felt tears well up in my eyes.
I looked back at the spot where he was sitting and gasped. There was blood. All over.
Gone

Chris' stupid car wouldn't drive fast enough. Jake needed me at that damn hospital now. And even though I kept yelling at Chris to speed up he kept telling me bullshit about staying on the speed limit.
"You fucking asshole! I don't give a shit about a damn speed limit, hurry up!"
I heard Iris sighed and I saw Blaze shift uncomfortably in his seat.
"Look, I know Jake is all sick, but that doesn't give you the right to yell at me! Besides, you're getting the luxury of riding in my car, free!"
Anger pulsed through me and I wanted to kill Chris. He's talking about money when my Jake is sick in the fucking hospital!
I was about to hit him when Blaze grabbed my hands and pinned them to my sides.
I threw a dirty look towards my brother.
"Let me go, now!" I said through gritted teeth.
Blaze shook his head, his lips in a tight line.
"No, you need to calm down."
I had about enough of people telling me to calm down. They needed to shut up! They didn't know how it felt to know that the person you loved your whole life is dying helplessly in the hospital, and you're not there to even say goodbye.
"Look, you guys have no clue about how I'm feeling right now, just. . . drive faster," I whispered the last part. I felt hopeless now. I was never going to see Jake again. He was going to die and I was never going to say goodbye.
I felt silent tears slip from my eyes and I wiped them away.
Blaze held me tighter and I tried to pull away, but he was much stronger than me.
"Chris, drive faster." Iris said. I looked at Chris and he immediately obeyed. I sighed and relaxed a little. Maybe I could actually say goodbye.


"What do you mean he's on the no visitor's list?"
The lady at the desk examined the computer again.
"It says it right here, no visitors aloud."
I pouted, and got an idea.
"Can I speak to Dr. Clark?" I asked.
Jake's dad worked at the hospital as a Trauma Surgeon, he could probably let me be able to see Jake.
The lady smiled.
"Sure, he's on his lunch break. Let me see if he can come see you."
The lady turned to the phone and dialed the extension number.
"Dr. Clark, to the front a visitor awaits you."
She hung up and looked at me.
"He should be here in a few. Have a seat," she said and gestured to the chairs behind us.
I sat in the chair, my brother still clutching my hand. I leaned on his shoulder for support. I was tired and I knew I would tumble over if he let my hand go.
Dr. Clark's shining green eyes zoomed in on me and he smiled, showing off his deep dimples, the same dimples Jake had.
"Amelia, nice to see you again," he said and pulled me into a hug.
I got straight to the point.
"They won't let me see Jake," I said and pouted.
Hurt flashed across Dr. Clark's face.
"I'm very sorry about that, Jake didn't want to see anyone but me, his mother, and his sister."
I gasped.
"H-he didn't want to see me?" I asked, fighting back tears.
Dr. Clark shook his head.
"I'm very sorry, Amelia." he said, sincerely.
Rejection washed over and I back away, clutching my chest. This was worst than him dying. Jake didn't want to see me. I couldn't see him. He didn't want me.
"Amelia," Dr. Clark started, but stopped.
I shook my head and grabbed back on the Blaze's hand, realizing I let go.
"Tell him I said Forget about me. Tell him to never think about me when he's on his deathbed. Tell him I said I hope he goes to hell." I spat the words at Dr. Clark.
Dr. Clark's face turned pale and he nodded.
"It'll hurt him, but I'll make sure the message is delivered.
He turned and walked swiftly away.
I felt guilty and looked down.
"Come on," Blaze murmured in my ear and started tugging me away.
"I want to see Jake . . .," I whispered.
Blaze looked into my eyes.
"You can't."
Tears slid down my face as I realized he was right. Even if I did have a chance at seeing Jake, it's probably ruined now after what I told Dr.Clark. I should have kept my mouth shut. Now, Jake was going to die without my goodbye.

Blaze was rubbing my back and combing his finger through my hair.