Lovely Desire by Breanna Davis (self help books to read TXT) 📖

picked up one of her doughnuts and threw it at her head, smacking her in her face. I laughed and took a sip of my water. Stalker

I WAS a bit disappointed with myself. I had wanted to talk to Jamie about Trent, but instead I became a stalker. I can't believe I actually allowed Jamie to talk me into this crap.
I shoved my hands into my jacket and hid around the corner to stay out of sight. I peeked to see if anyone was around as I followed Kaitlyn down the hallway.
Her red hair swayed from side to side as she walked down the hallway. She slipped around a corner and I quickly followed her from a distance. I saw her slip into the teacher's lounge and I froze. What the hell would she be doing in there? I was about to peek into the window to see what she was doing when I heard footsteps. I looked around and saw the storage closet. I slipped into the closet as quickly as I could. I didn't close it all the way. I left a little crack big enough for me to see through.
I was taken aback when I saw Trent walk down the hallway. He looked over his shoulder before walking into the teacher lounge.
My eyes widened a bit as I stepped out the storage closet and stared at the closed door. What the hell was he and Kaitlyn doing together in the teacher's lounge? Did he seriously just move on from me in a day? My anger turn to hurt in a split second. There was a little pinch to my heart as I felt tears sting my eyes. I wasn't going to cry. It'll just be wasted tears. But I did have to stalk Kaitlyn, right? So I was going to get the job done, broken heart or not.
I was really feeling like an actual stalker as I tip toed towards the teacher lounge door. I pressed my back up against the cool wooden door, about to peek through the window when someone spoke.
"Faith?"
My heart nearly jumped out my chest as I turned my head only to see Kyle. I sighed my relief and forced a crooked smile.
"Hey ...,"
He cocked a brow at me and gave me a dumbfounded look. "Uh, what are you doing?" he asked.
I bit my bottom lip and pondered a answer in my head. Coming up empty, I just shrugged and walked towards Kyle, and wrapped my arms around his torso. He hesitantly wrapped his arms around me before resting his chin on my head.
"I think you're weird, Faith." he said softly.
I laughed and leaned more into him. "Thanks, I guess." He chuckled and kissed my forehead.
"You wanna go somewhere later on?" he asked.
"Sure," I say quickly. "How about we hang out at your place?"
He seemed shocked, but nodded. "I was thinking more of the park or something, but my house is cool. Meet me by my car after school's out."
I nodded at him and let him go. "Well, I have to get back to class."
"Yeah me too," he said before kissing my forehead and walking away.
With Kyle gone, I looked back at the teacher lounge door and shook my head. Whatever was going on there I was certain I didn't want to see. I grimaced at the possibilities. Instead of looking in the window, I headed to class quickly, trying not to think of anything.
After school, I met Kyle by his car. He flashed a white smile at me as he came around to my side of the car and opened the door for me. I forced a smile. "Thanks," I said and quickly hopped in the car. Kyle got in and we were off to his house. The whole drive, I was staring out the window, my mind on what was going on in the teacher's lounge. Was Trent finally over me? He probably thought I was so stupid to believe that dream was real. I inhaled sharply between my clenched teeth and scowled at a tree.
"You alright, Faith?" Kyle asked suddenly.
He rested his hand on my thigh and I looked down in linked my hand in his. "Yeah, just a bit tired." I mumbled. Tired of Trent's mind games. I mentally added. He squeezed my hand before releasing it. I stared back out the window, watching the passing trees morph into a blur of green.
I tried to think of anything but Trent and Kaitlyn, but it was harder than I thought it would be. Every time I thought of Trent and her hooking up my heart squeezed and a wave of nausea washed over me. When I thought of Trent getting over me, I felt like dying. I really do love him, huh? I never even loved Kyle as much as I love him. And it hurts to think that it'll all just end because he hooked up with Kaitlyn. I really hoped he didn't. Please, he better not have. I need Trent, yearn for him, I don't want him out of my life - ever.
"We're here," Kyle said pulling into his driveway. I forced a smile at him and hopped out the car. I shoved my hands in my pocket and waited for Kyle. When he reached by my side, we walked into his house and went to the living room. I sat down on the burgundy couch and relaxed.
"Can I get you anything?" he asked. I shook my head and smiled at him. "I'm alright." He nodded and sat down on the couch next to me. I rested my head on his shoulder and sighed. "So, what do you want to do?" I asked.
Honestly, I could just sit here and just relax. I didn't want to really do anything, but find out whether or not Trent hooked up with Kaitlyn. Nothing else really mattered at this point. Well, I did have to break up with Kyle. But I didn't want to hurt him. I did love him, just not the way he thinks I do. I can't deny that Kyle is freaking hot, but it's more to it, though. I just react differently to Trent than I do to Kyle. With Trent, my heart skips a million beats, butterflies fly around my belly, and I can't keep my hands off of him. With Kyle, I feel as if I can talk with him like a friend. I feel comfortable talking and sharing secrets with Kyle. With Trent, I feel as if I can share so much more.
I was pulled out of my thoughts when I felt Kyle kiss my cheek. I turned to stop him, but he captured my lips. It felt really good to kiss him so I didn't push him away. Instead, I pulled him in closer and wrapped my arms around his neck. He pulled me on his lap and never broke the kiss. He started reaching for the ends of my shirt, but I still didn't stop him. I was too into the kiss that I allowed him to pull the shirt over my head.

His warm masculine hands traveling all over my body set me over the edge. My breathing accelerated and my lips moved faster with his. My desire for him spilled out of my core and into my actions. I couldn't help myself. My fingers knotted in his silky hair as he wrapped his arms around me. I pulled his shirt over his head swiftly and pulled back to look his body. He pulled me back in and pulled me in closer.
When Kyle unlatched my bra, I knew how deep I was getting into the situation. But in my mind, I was thinking about Trent and Kaitlyn together in that teacher's lounge. The feeling of ecstasy coursed through me, erasing any ration thoughts. I was living in the now and not the later. I knew I would regret this, but I didn't care. It felt so good. It felt wrong, but good.
I smiled as I helped Kyle pull off his pants.

***

The next day at school, I felt really bad. I felt dirty, and stupid. I shouldn't have had went to Kyle's house yesterday. I regretted it just like I thought I would. I slumped down in my seat and did a little groan.
I heard the chair next to me move and saw Leo slide in the chair next to me. I forced a smile at him and sighed, looking at the clock above the teacher's desk for the thirteenth time. I still had fifty five more minutes before the bell rung for next period.
"What's up with you? It's the third period and you already look ready to leave." Leo commented as he took a seat. I scowled at him and placed my head on the cool desk.
Honestly, I didn't even want to deal with Leo at this moment. I had too much on my mind. I still had to stalk Kaitlyn, I had to figure out what happened in the teacher lounge, and end everything with Kyle. I know making out with him last night and almost having sex with him may make him feel like I still love him. But, I just didn't love him that way. Thank god his mom had an early shift that day, and I had to rush home.
In the middle of class when the teacher stepped out, Leo punched me on my shoulder. I winced and glared at him as I rubbed my shoulder.
"What the hell, Leo?"
He glared back at me and crossed his arms. "What the hell is wrong with you?"
I scowled at him. "Shouldn't I be asking you that?" I growled.
He shrugged and punched me again on the same shoulder, but softer. "What's wrong with you? You can't just come in here all grumpy and not expect me to say anything." he inclined.
I sighed and ran my fingers through my hair. "I just didn't get much sleep last night." I said sheepishly.
Leo cocked his brow. "Why? Kyle told me his mom came before you guys could do anything." He said, and I could tell he was holding back laughter.
My face heated up and I tried to hide my blush beneath my bangs. "He told you?!" I exclaimed and punched him in the arm. Unlike his hits, it didn't hurt. He just shook it off and cracked a smile.
"He tells me everything, idiot," He let out a laugh. "We are friends,"
I rolled my eyes and shook my head at him. "I didn't get much sleep because Jamie is making me stalk Kaitlyn." I said nonchalantly.
His eyes widened. "What? And you guys didn't tell me!? You know how stealthy I am!"
I turned my back on him, knowing he was going to complain about this on and on. I sighed and covered my ears and waited for the bell to ring.
The next period, Jamie was just as annoying as her boyfriend when I