Love with a Jerk by Nikki Plotner (hardest books to read TXT) 📖

seemed like he was afraid of something, or someone.
“What are you so afraid of”? I asked seriously.
For a second there, it seemed like he had sadness in his eyes, then they changed back to raging.
“I am not afraid”. He said.
“Yeah keep telling yourself that and then you won’t be able to move on. It’s all over your face for crying out loud. One of these day’s in order to move on and be happy, you’re going to have to let what your afraid of go. Otherwise you won’t be happy, it will keep pulling you back and you won’t get anywhere”. I walked out of the door, right after I said this. I figured he needed time to think. I went to my bed and went to sleep.
-Neil-
I was so angry that my clothes were banjaxed. I couldn’t believe she would do something like this, because I told the truth. I had to forgive her though, if I want my parents off my back for not having a mate, then I am going to have to forgive her and try to treat her better. I just can’t, I told her I forgave her, but deep down I really didn’t. I knew she could tell something was wrong with me, she wouldn’t have asked me what I was afraid of if she didn’t. I have a difficult time trusting someone. I made a mistake, loving someone in high school and finding them in my best mates’ bed. I made a vow to myself that I won’t love ever again. Olivia gets to me though, and I can’t figure out why. It irritates me when she talks to the other guys in this house. I know I don’t have the right to tell her not to, she hasn’t picked me. Now I have to deal with the fact that I might lose her forever. There is no way she would pick me after the way I treated her today. I couldn’t sleep the entire night, wondering if I was going to lose her or if she would give me another chance. What should I do to make it up to her? I have no idea; maybe I should open up to her and let her know what I am so afraid of.

Chapter Four: Decisions

I woke up around noon; I really did feel bad about how I treated Neil last night. I went down to the dining hall and ate my breakfast with my father. He gave me a look of disappointment. Did he know what happened last night? I could feel like eventually I was going to get a lecture, probably not until after my afternoon with Reece. After I had finished eating, Reece took me out to the same park as Leon. We walked around for a little bit then Reece decided to make conversation.
“Do you know who you’re going to pick yet”? He asked in his Australian accent.
“No”. I said.
“Well you’re going to pick me and when you do, I will take you to Australia and you will live under my house. You will follow my rules and obey my every command. Do you understand me”?
There was no way I was picking this prick. Follow his every command; I don’t even follow my parents over half the time. Yeah, he is going to go.
“Take me home now”! I yelled with aggression in my voice.
“Why”? Did he really just ask why? He is naive or something.
“Take me home. You are not going to tell me what I am and am not going to do. I am the one choosing here and you are supposed to get me to like you. Not push you away. Well, you got another thing coming for you because there is no way in hell I will choose your arrogant ass”! I yelled.
I started walking home, but Reece got into his car and told me to get in. Once we were at my house, I went straight to my dad study. I didn’t even knock before I went in. This is more important than anything he could possibly be doing. I thought.
“Olivia, what’s wrong”? My dad asked with extreme concern in his face.
“Reece is leaving. If he thinks I am going to pick him and tell me that he is going to control me and I must obey everything he says. He has another thing coming. Make him leave now daddy”. I said sternly and pissed off. I was really mad that people think they could control me.
“Okay, I will have him sent home”. He said.
“Thank you daddy”.
“Now, that you are back from your outing I need to talk to you. What you did last night to Mr. Gallagher was uncalled for. It better not happen again”.
“It won’t daddy, I promise”.
“Good, but the other thing I needed to talk to you about is that I moved your day to decide on your choice. You must decide by tomorrow morning at breakfast. If you have not decided, then I will decide for you and that will be the end of it”.
“Okay daddy”. I said and then I was dismissed to leave. I went to my room. I couldn’t believe that my father is making me decide over the next ten hours to decide. I barley even know these guys and everyone in this house is getting ready for bed. I don’t have time to get to know them. I can’t but help myself wonder why my father is making be decide quickly, instead of giving me the original time to decide. I can’t even think about the two guys that I have left to pick from, let alone decide which one I want.
-Neil-
I was so happy when I found out that Reece was no longer in the running. Then I heard that Olivia’s father had told her that she needs to have a decision by the morning or he would choose. I hope she will choose me and not Leon. I would be fine with her father choosing, but I would prefer if he chose me. I guess I am going to have to wait and find out. My nerves system is a wreck and I wish this was all over. Once again, I couldn’t sleep the entire night. I was too worried I would go home empty handed. Wait, why would I even care really? I thought I told myself I didn’t want a mate, but I guess really I do. I can’t stop thinking about this women and hoping she would choose me.
I walked into the kitchen the next morning, seeing my parents, Neil, and Leon sitting there waiting for me. I felt really uncomfortable. I still haven’t decided on a guy to have, but I knew my father told me that I needed to choose at breakfast. Will they be mad at me if I don’t choose between them, and instead let my father do it? If he does it, at least the blame will be on him and not on him. We started eating our pancakes, when my father asked me if I had a decision. I looked at each of the guys again, biting my lower lip. I was a nervous wreck. How was I supposed to choose in a matter of seconds.
“Olivia, do you have a decision”? My father said again, bringing me back to the audience that was looking at me.
“Father, I cannot make a decision. I don’t know either of these guys well enough, so it has put me in a stump and I can’t choose between them”. I said looking down at my plate.
“Okay, if you cannot choose then I will. I will tell you who it is going to be during lunch. Now, if you will excuse me, I have things to get done”. My father said walking out of the dining hall. I went to the living room after I got done eating. I was really a nervous wreck now, wondering who he would choose. When it got closer to lunch time, my father had brought in both of the guys one at a time to talk to. Then he sat in his study for another hour, waiting for lunch to be served. I had the television on, but I couldn’t watch it. I was too busy watching my father’s study door. Scotty called everyone into the dining hall to have lunch. I sat down quickly, before I fell. I was starting to get dizzy an anxious. After everyone was seated, my father came in and sat in his chair at the end of the table. He begin eating, telling everyone else to eat. I didn’t feel like eating, so instead I just moved my fork around my plate. Once, my father was done eating, he cleared his throat. He looked at me once, and then at the two guys that were sitting across from me.
“Leon, you are a great guy. I know you would take good care of my daughter and treat her right. With this being said, I don’t know if you are the right person for my daughter. She has nothing in common with you and she can be a handful at times. She does need kindness and someone who cares for her, but she needs to be put in her place sometimes. I don’t think you can do this, so I am sorry but I choose Neil. I do appreciate you coming down here and putting up with everything. I wish you the best”. My dad said and then told Neil and I to meet him in the study when we were done eating.
I couldn’t believe my dad chose Neil for me. Seriously, Neil can be a complete ass and he is too scared to even be happy in his life. How am I going to be his mate for the rest of my life? Will I even survive? I walked to my dad’s study, still not believing he chose Neil over Leon. Then again, Leon is way too nice and it would irritate me over half the time. I like spice in people’s attitudes. I stepped into my father’s study and took a seat in front of his desk. Neil was already sitting in front of his desk. He glanced over at me, giving me that cocky smile of his.
“Okay, you both might not be happy of this decision, but I think it is the best suit for the both of you”. My father started out saying.
“Olivia, you will be leaving with Neil back to Ireland, in two days. I want you to go back with him and get to know him. Live as a couple would. When both your mother and I, and Neil’s parents think you guys are doing well, then we will make plans to further your relationship. Now, I want you to go and get some rest for the rest of the day. Tomorrow, Ms. Garcia will go and pack all of your belongings that you will be taking with you on the plan. What you don’t have, I’m sure you can get in Ireland. I wish the both of you the best luck”. My father said. We were dismissed