Unvanishing pain(INCOMPLETE) by S.J. J. (pdf ebook reader txt) 📖

Damian's black Honda and spotted it near the car loop.I ran as fast as i could before he left me and sat in the passenger seat.
Damian: hey little Anna
His long dreads stopped pass his back and his deep hazel eyes roamed my body as he ran his fingers up my thigh.I squirmed away and flinched a little.
Me: um can you not touch me
I was still shaken up back then and everything from a slammed door to a pen dropping scared the living shit out of me.his smile faded a but he took his hand of of me.He began driving and each time he hit a bump in the road I jumped.he made a right which confused since you had to make a left to get to my house well, my temporary house.he parked next to a bando which is slang an abandoned house.
Me: day-Damian? wh-where are we?
Damian: Ima make you feel good little Anna
he then got on top of me and began kissing my neck and rubbing my clitt.I squirmed under his weight and struggled underneath him.
Me: Please.... stop...let me go(whimpering)
Damian: stop struggling and stay still
His voice was hard and cold and he gripped my wrist so hard that i knew it would bruise.he pressed his lips against my neck but this time he was rough.He shifted a little bit and i could feel his large 'package' grinding against my hips. I whimpered cowardly and begged for him to stop but he just ignored me, unlike my father who'd beat me anytime i made a sound.I began kicking and fidgeting and my leg kicked the stick shift putting the car in drive. Damian's foot was still all the gas peddle causing the car to go full speed. Damian finally got off me and tried to get the car in control.But the car continued to swerve,and spin like crazy. i gripped the door handle and tried to get it open but i was panicking and forgot how to do so. A big green truck was coming right for us and all I saw was a big bright light before blacking out.
*****Flashback ended****

I opened my eyes which i realized were closed before running back into my room to find my blade again. The project

Jose

First period which was chemistry was really boring.I already know all this shit.I surveyed the room from my position in back and noticed Anastasia wasn't here yet.I'm not gonna lie i was looking for her.something about her intrigues me but she obviously can't stand the mere sight of me.or maybe she just hates everybody?My thoughts were interrupted when the door opened and the principle Mr.Welsh walked in with Anastasia right behind him.And boy
did she look like shit.she wore tight blue skinny jeans that showed of her ass (not that i was looking)and a big gray hoody.her hair was pulled into a loose messy ponytail and there were black sags underneath her eyes which indicated she didn't sleep last night.her eyes met mine for a brief moment before she looked away with a hint of disgust in her eyes.Whatever.Johnny(me and the principle are on first name bases.)whispered something in the teacher's ear before giving the class a stern look(well mostly me) and exited the classroom.Anastasia dragged her self to her seat an and putting her head down.I didn't know this girl very well but i could tell something was very wrong.
Teacher:Mr.Romero?
Me: Yes peter?
Teacher: It's Mr. McLean to you and please pay attention we have a very important assignment today.
Me:Whatever makes you happy petety
the teacher then sighed and began proceeding telling the class about how we will have lab partners this year and all the girls will choose a name from the hat and it would be our lab partner. Then we had to figure out 20 things about our partner for homework tonight.I guess he was trying to be cruel by putting only boys names in the hat(as if sitting boy girl was a punishment anymore).First he gave the hat to Melody Brooke.who choose Bryan Welsh(the principles son), then to Chyna who chose Anthony,Then to Paytton who got Da'zaun then Anastasia who got...well i don't know who she got.When she had a paper she simply glared at it before thrusting on the floor and putting her head back down.Man she had issues.I don't even know why she acts that way.Her aunt is Karen Howard.She owns one of the top law firms in Atlanta.Anastasia can buy anything she wanted!she was simply a little rich girl with problems i concluded in my head.Just then the bell rung releasing us to lunch.Anastasia practically ran outa there while i however took my damn time.But before leaving I walked over to where she was sitting and picked up the crumpled piece of paper.I opened it and mumbled shit as i read the name JOSE ROMERO

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Anastasia

Karen caught me.With my blade i mean.I was in the middle of a really intense cutting when she busted through the door asking if i wanted dinner.When i she saw the blood and blade she got hysterical and insisted that i see a therapist.WHAT THE FUCK!how crazy does she think i am! if she thinks i'm going to see a shrink then she is seriously deluded.She even drove me to school today!And told the principle to keep an eye on me.To make matters worst i got paired with druggie!!!I mean seriously, god must hate my guts.I was trying to make my way to third period when he

called me
Jay: Anastasia, hold up!
Me:What.Do.You.Want.?
he rolled his eyes at me
Jay:In case you didn't know we got an assignment to be done, but instead asking questions just make up whatever you want about me and vise versa.
Whoa.he wanted us to make things up?wrong!I don't want him making up retarded shit about me!
Me:No!just..meet up with me after school
Jay: Negative.I got stuff to do.
Me:What?Like sell drugs?
He glared at me before walking away.I could of walked away too.but i kinda needed an A in this class plus i don't wanna go home to Karen.
Me:Wait! okay!sorry that was uncalled for.please just meet me here after school.
Jay: I seriously have things to do but since your desperate, meet me here at 2:00 and we'll go to a park or something
Me: Isn't that skipping?school ends at 3:00.
Jay:What you never skip before rich girl?(Mocking tone)
Me: Aight 2:00 o clock then druggie.
with that i left, leaving him in the hallway by himself.
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It is 1:57 and I'm a wreck.I have never been to school as a child so i never really skipped before.I went up to my pregnant teachers desk and asked her to used the restroom.She took a look at my finished test then told me to go and hurry.Too bad she didn't know I wasn't coming back.I rushed to the girls restroom and looked at the pit stains on my hoody.Wow i'm a wreck.I pulled off the jacket and wrapped it around my waist.I was wearing my favorite low cut red tank top that said 'I'm smiling. This should scare you.' I tried to fix my ponytail but the hair tie popped so i just let my hair down.I looked at my watch to see it was 1:59.I walked out the restroom and stood in the hallway waiting for druggie.I waited for 10 minutes and he still wasn't here.I was about to leave till i saw his tall 6'4 figure coming down the hall.When he saw me he rose his eyebrows and smirked.
Jay: oh Anna you didn't have to get all prettied up for me, I would never find you attractive.
I rolled my eyes and proceeded to walk out of the building.He followed me. and lead me out to a truck.I ignored him but could feel his eyes on me.He started to drive and we stopped at a school.It was smaller than ours and little kids were piling out of the building.I gave Jose a questionable look but he didn't answer me instead he got out to help a little girl in the car.She looked about 6 or 7.She was gorgeous and had Jay's same curly hair and big brown eyes.
Little girl: Jay can we get ice cream today puhlease?I got a 100 on my spelling test and my card was on green today.please?
Jay: sorry belles i'm busy today but tomorrow OK?
Little girl: Does if have to do with the random girl in the front seat?
I didn't even think she noticed me. Jay nodded.
Little girl:Hi i'm Isabelle who are you?
Me:Hi Isabelle i'm Anna
Isabelle:My dolly's name is Anna!Maybe we could play dollies together and you can meet her.
Me: Yea sure anytime you want Isabelle.
Jay: Belles leave her alone and shut up till we get home
we drove for a few minutes in a horrible neighborhood.There were prostitutes lined up against walls.Men gambling,fighting and drinking in the middle of the streets.Teenage girls braiding hair in the front of their lawns.It all astonished me.Jose noticed my wide eyes and then said: Bienvenido a mi capucha chica rica

(A/N:He said Welcome to my hood rich girl)

Jay

The look on her face as we drove through muerte was priceless.And when we stopped at the front of my house her look went from shocked and surprise to comfortable and happy.I gave her a questionable look.
Anna:I use to live in a place like this when i was younger...before my mom died.
Me: OH. my mom's kinda dead too.
Anna: How can your mom be kinda dead?
I was about to answer her when the door flew open.again.She screeched and so did belles.
Grandpa drew: boy!didn't i tell you to bring that lil girl home at 2:15?!It is 2:35!I thought y'all was up in a ditch somewhere!
Me:sorry pops had some business to handle
Pops then looked at Anna and sized her up.Thank god she fixed her self up or pops would have said something slick.She actually looked decent,no scratch that she looked pretty.
Pops:And who is this little lady?
Me:pops this my friend Anna, Anna this my pops
Anna:Hi
Pops just grunted and let her through.I brought her into my room and couldn't help but feel slightly embarrassed my the mess in here.She kicked off her shoes and sat on my bed
Anna:So you gonna answer the question?
Me: What question
Anna:How is your mom kinda of dead?
Me:Well she out there somewhere doing crack and not here so when people ask me where my moms is i say she dead cuz she dead to me.
She thought about it for a moment before saying: i guess your right.
Anna:But...do you really think your mom wants to be there rather than here?
Me:she's not here isn't she?
Anna:but if she had complete control over the situation do you think she'd be here?
Me:I guess so
Anna:then don't say she's dead because eventually you'll get what your asking for.
I gave her a sideways glance but she didn't pay me any mind though.She was to busy organizing my room.What?why was she touching my stuff
Me:what.are.you.doing.?
Anna:your room is so dirty