A New Love by Sweet Candy (nonfiction book recommendations .TXT) 📖

i should disappoint him - be unable to accept him as i so desperately wanted to? Because he didn't even know this was the first time for me.


My sweet love, his face flushed across his cheek bones, Zachary spoke hoarsely, each word articulated with great effort. There were beads of sweat on his upper lip on the wide brow. Don't be frightened, trust me. As if magic every trace of apprehension drained from me. My whole being relaxed as my body rose to meet his approach and they became joined, welded together, forged into the perfect union in the universal fire of love.


No one told me it was like this. Like a bird fluttering against the bars of a cage i was desperate to be free, to find my wings, to soar away from the world just me and Zachary. But when release came mine took it alone, believing in that extended fraction of time that i was facing a kind of death and going willingly to meet it. Somewhere on another plane i could hear my own voice: hear the cadence of half-spoken phrases tumbling from my own mouth.


But could make no sense of them. Weightless and alone, i heard Zachary cry out a deep shuddering groan that brought me back to reality in time to feel the full weight of his body collapse against mine then ease away as his face pressed against my neck and he breathed great sawing gasps. Wrapping my arms around him, my own breathing none too steady, i held him tightly as i might a child and waited for the storm to subside.


Zachary looked at me and said i truly love you, you don't know what you do to me. I love being around you and i feel free, like nothing in the world can touch me and it just you and i. I love the way he is and i cant help but cry. So i rested my head against Zachary's chest and i told him that " i love you too. When i see you my heart skips a beat when you say i love you it beats like wings and when i'm in your arms the world stops four a second and i remember the reasons i love you babe.


I may not be your first kiss,first love or first anything but as long as i am your last kiss, last love and last anything forever that's all that matters." i just keep thinking in my head, when you REALLY love someone it will show because no matter what goes on it'll keep you together stronger than ever. True love stands its ground!! The day I met u, I knew I found the other half of my heart. The moment I saw him, I knew he were the one. I love him. I think its time i tell Zachary about Jake.


I look at Zachary and said i know i don't have to tell you but i want you to know that i had abused ex boyfriend. I talk to him, he talks to me, my heart it swells and begs to be free. Does he know whats because of me? He hits and shoves. I know damn well that it could hurt more, i try not to cry and not show the pain but deep down i know he's winning this "game". To me he was perfect but oh so very vain. I thought i would never come over the pain and to him i was nothing but a punching bag to quench his anger's thirst. I grabed my arm one day and limp to the nurses. She asked what's wrong, i lie to her and I told her i fell. Why do i constantly go through with this hell?


The tears are for him and i hope he knows. These emotions, the pain, why did it have to show? If i hide it away then i know i would be lying to myself. He was so abusive, cruel and my friends being to worry. They're afraid that he'll cause the death of me. I just want to get away from him, couldn't stop the beating and could'nt stop the pain. Almost every night he did it to me, over and over again. I keep telling my self i dont know what i did to deserve this life. Every night i cried alone and wanting some place to call my loving home.


After telling Zachary everything that happen to me, he looked ready to kill some one. Then said to me " trauma of abuse is never fully gone from a person's consciousness. Its filthy stain leaves its residue on the soul forever. However, like all bad experiences, it is possible to turn this experience into good bu developing compassion and empathy for others who have been through this experience. Many people feel that bringing meaning to traumatic experience is a path to healing. When you turn a negative experience into a tool that brings meaning into your life and others, that's how your taking the best kind of revenge on your abuser.


I was so happy and crying at the same time. It was true and i loved that he didnt bet around the bush about it and i feel better telling him.. I am so tired that i fell a sleep with my head on his chest and arm over him and i let sleep cosm me.



Chapter four " i thnk im ready"

Zachary


I just woke up to look at Summers because she looked peace full. Its how she makes me smile with as little as being there, its in the way she touches me and that leting me know she cares Her eyes are so beautiful, her complexiom just the same and the thoght of being with you make me whisper out her name. As i hear myself say it, i get a shiver down my spine for the love this perfect woman and i just wish that she will stay mine.


I love everything about her so much that i cant say, its everything about her and that makes me think of her each day. Thats not enough great words to describe how she makes me fell, so you really look at her and hope soon she knows my love is real. she is starting to wake up now, She was holding me tight as ever, I know i am crazy but i love in those eyes and i love u so much summer. She was shocked and to my surprise she looked at me and with those beautiful eyes and said i love u too. I am on top of the world now.


I just want to take her again and i just might. I started to kiss her with everything i had and just like late night all over again. I cant help it, the way she looks and feels is driving me up the wall right now. She gets in to it and surprised me me by rolling over on top of me and kiss me like no tomorrow. She is amazing , i don't think she knows it ether. The look in her eye tells me how much she wants me and there is no way i'm going to say no. She reach down and grabs my man hood out of no were.


Starts teasing me, she slowly licks my chest working down farther, and farther down until she starts licking, sucking on my man hood then i moan. I cant wait any longer, i think she can read my mind because just as i was about to say some thing, she take of her underwear and gets back on top of me grabs my man hood again and placed it in her. She starts to move getting really in to it, i keep moaning because this was a first don't get me wrong but never in my life did a woman do that. They never wanted for play, just get down to business and go.


I started and here she is on top making it seem like there is nothing to live for but to be with her and that's just how i felt too. I can tell she is about to come, so i fip her over and make my way down there to finish the job. By the time she came i did give her a change to move. i got back up and want back in to her so i can have a little fun. Soon i could'nt wait and started to well go faster and faster until i claps on top of she.


Now were even i had two last nigt and she got on then this morning she got two and i got one. We get up to take a nice shower. then come back to change closes. I think its time to put all my closes in the same room as her or the other way around. Its up to her what room she wants to share or now. In a couple of weeks we will get are own place unless she wants to stay here. Every woman should be told they are beautiful everyday, be given flowers just because and loved as if the world is going to end tomorrow.