Love you so much that I hate you by Mimi (dark books to read .TXT) 📖

took a sip of my drink and waited for his answer. He rolled his eyes and pouted his mouth a bit.

" Because of the obvious - he was checking me out. I also bet that it wasn't a coincidence that he invited me to that photo shoot. " he pointed out.

I laughed at him ; he could not be serious ! Sergio wasn't gay ! No way he was. He may be all suit and tie and hair gel, but that didn't make him gay. He never had a girlfriend, nor a boyfriend but that was because he was too busy with his career.

" You think I'm joking ? " he was stunned by my reaction.

" He wasn't checking you out ! He was just looking at you. " I said like it was something obvious.

" If you don't believe me, then let me give you an example - it's like I'd start staring at your boobs. Would I be just looking at you ? " he raised his eyebrows.

" You don't have boobs ! " I said louder than I meant to and the barman glanced at me. He probably thought I was drunk.

" Yeah, but I have other... areas. " he coughed.

" Are you trying to say that he was checking at your penis ? " I couldn't help but laugh at that. Now that was just silly. Sergio wouldn't do that . Of course not, he's a photographer ; he wouldn't look at someone's personal area even if he was gay. He's too classy for that. I say that Ian's making it all up because he wants more attention.

" Yes ! I could see him drooling over me. "

" Okay, I had enough. I'm getting out of here. " I said and grabbed my bag from the bar and went to the exit door. I was wrong about giving Ian a chance, he's a complete jerk ! He insulted the master of photography and with that insulted me. I don't have anything against gays, but to say something like that, that Sergio was checking out his lower area is too much. He was another jerk who happened to be a good actor, pretending that he actually cared to get me to sleep with him again.

Though, no woman would fall for this - he was being disrespectful and only whores would let him take the prize. And I obviously wasn't a whore. I wasted my time on a jerk. Great. There seemed to be just jerks around me - Rob and now Ian ! And I was actually thinking that he was totally worth my time. I am such an idiot.

I made my way through the crowd and somehow opened the exit door. I found myself on a mini-island with a small bridge that was leading to the parking lot. There were two torches on the each side of the bridge which gave me enough light to see where was I going since it was too dark. I've passed the rocky bridge and made it to the parking lot.

Thankfully I didn't park too far from the road. I unlocked the door and opened it angrily. Ugh, I was so angry I could break something. Why do I always find the wrong guys ? Why can't I get someone who's actually a sweet, normal guy who wouldn't cheat or insult me ? My luck.

When I was about to get in the car, I heard someone shouting : " JENNIFER ! Jennifer, wait ! " I recognized Ian's voice. That made me angrier and I step into the car and started the engine. I wanted to get out of here as fast as I could. Far away from that jerk.

But, nooo, that would be too lucky for me wouldn't it ? Because Ian jumped in front of the car and I stopped the engine right before I was about to run him over. His face was urgent and he looked like he wanted to say something important. Something I didn't want to hear.

I was starting the engine again and was preparing to hit the gas pedal. Ian heard that and took a glance at my frustrated face.

" Hey, what are you doing ? Are you trying to kill me ?! " he said that like I was a psychopath.

" Maybe. " I muttered under my breath but I came to my senses and stopped the engine. I could see Ian relax but then his face was tense again, like he remembered something. He rushed to my window and started knocking on it with his fist until I decided I was sick of the noise and took it down. Ian lowered his neck so he was practically face to face with me.

" Please, let me speak. " his tone was desperate. I slammed my head on the steering wheel and said : " Fine. You have one minute. "

" I am so sorry for what I said earlier, I shouldn't have said that. Look, you're an amazing girl and you don't deserve someone like me. You can do better. I know you can, but... " he was going to continue but I cut him off.

" What the hell's name are you talking about ?! First you act like a jerk, then you apologize and now you say that I'm an amazing girl ! You must be bipolar or something. Or crazy. I mean, even if I am an amazing girl how would you know that ? You don't even know me ! We only had sex three months ago and this is practically our first date and you act like you know me ! " I said that in one breath.

" Either you're really stupid or either you really want to piss me off badly. " I made a conclusion.

He caught the root of his nose with his two fingers and recovered from my shouting. Then, when he lifted his head again he said : " Would you please just let me explain ? "

" Explain what exactly ? " I was tired of his games.

" Everything. Just open the door, will you ? "

I groaned and did so. He thanked me and came in from the other side. He was now in the front seat and was glaring at me. I was waiting for him to say something.

" Look, the thing is... I actually know you. " he said, honesty shining from every word he said. I opened my mouth to protest, but he said : " Let me explain, will you ? " he pleaded with those icy-blue eyes and I couldn't say no to them. It was impossible.

I sighed and gave him an encouraging node to continue. He took a deep breath and started : " A few months ago, when I was still with my ex, we had a fight. In the early morning. We were practically already over, but we didn't officially break up. Anyway, it was really early and I remember storming out of there and never wanting to go back to that hell again. I wanted to clear my head so I drove to the nearest Starbucks. "

" I pulled over the car right across it, but I didn't get out. I sat there for minutes, staring at the entrance, thinking about everything - how would have things be if I wasn't in that awful relationship. How I wanted only to break up with her. Questioning my decisions and wondering did everything had to be so complicated. Then a voice woke me up from my thoughts - I even remember what she said ' Yeah, okay. Talk to you later, John ! '. Her voice was so cheerful, even though it was 8 am when everyone was supposed to be grumpy. "

" Her smile was simple and beautiful and she was parked right in front of me. She drove off and I remember watching her car disappear in the distance. Ever since then I couldn't stop thinking about her. It wasn't really cheating, our relationship was already dead before that. It was only a matter of time before we broke up. "

Then it was like Ian got a little nervous, like his confidence stayed outside the car. His head was down and he was hesitating to say the rest. I tilted my head to see his face in the dark. He looked so cute when he was nervous. I was already ready to forgive him, but I didn't say anything because I wanted to hear the rest of the story.

" After that I wanted to see her, but I didn't get a chance. Fights with my ex became worse and I felt stupid for keeping that thing up. I wanted to escape from this complicated relationship and take a break from everything. I went to the same Starbucks and I was just staring at my coffee. No matter how cheesy it sounded, that girl came in ( I've recognized her voice ), and I wasn't down anymore. I didn't feel happy either. It was like I was a drunk and I was sober for those few minutes as she was there. " He looked like he was going to bite his lip, but he changed his mind.

" Then I started coming to Starbucks every morning just to see her. " he laughed at himself, like he couldn't believe what he's done. But, he continued anyway : " That was for a few months. I know I sound like a stalker, but it isn't like that, I swear. I was attracted to her simpleness and I've learned that she also likes her coffee simple - dark with no sugar. "

" Why didn't you ask her out, then ? " I asked innocently.

" She was with someone. But, it's over now so... I believe that we had our first date tonight until I blew it. " he glared at me in the dark and I was surprised. A lot or a bit, I couldn't say. At least that explains his strange behaviour.

" What, me ? " I teased him. He grinned " Yes, you. Happy ? " I stuck my tongue out of my mouth. He played insulted. " I explain everything and you mock me ? I'm hurt. "

" You didn't explain why did you act like a jerk back there. " I reminded him.

" I was jealous. He may be gay, but I was still jealous. " he confessed, glaring at me. I knew that he was telling the truth.

" Well, I still say that you're a jerk. " he looked so disappointed at my words. Really, where did all that confidence go ? " A sweet jerk. " I added. His look was at me and now he was the one who was grinning.

" A sweet jerk ? " he asked mockingly. I rolled my eyes at him.

" Shut up or I will do that. " I warned him seriously.

He laughed at that : " You can't shut me up. "

" Oh, yeah ? You sure about that ? " I was deadly serious with a bit joke in my eyes.

" Positive. " oh, this was so on. I didn't give him a chance to say anything else ; I pulled him to me and kissed him like my life depended on that. After I was done, I swear that he looked like he was lost and tipsy.

" What a nice way to