Love you so much that I hate you by Mimi (dark books to read .TXT) 📖

" Jennifer King . A suspect for blowing up Ian Smith's car . You will have to answer a few questions. " a shark looking lawyer said . He was a good-looking one . But , I couldn't care less ; rage was running through my veins .

I was beginning to sweat in my chair . Yet , it wasn't because I felt guilt .

" What do you have to say in your defence? We have a witness , who claims that he saw you doing that. A waitress , which was on pause . " he said , pointing out at a blond woman who was sitting in the front row . The whole court-room was silenced .

The hell with it ! I'm going to end up this circus .

" I am guilty . I blew up that damn car . I admit it . " I said .

Ian looked at me , studying my face . I was just glaring at him . His stupid car got what it deserved.Iangot what he deserved . Damn the day I met him . I hate so much those blue eyes I used to love . That raven-black hair . And his stupid smirk . I hate Ian , the whole him . The Ian I use to love is gone. He is not the same person I fell in love with .

" We have the evidence , we have the witness , we have the confession ... Guilty . Ms. King will get five years to jail for blowing up Mr. Smith's car on purpose . With bail of 1.5 million dollars . Case closed." the judge pronounced and slammed with his hammer .

The guards came to me and I knew that there was nothing I could do to change my faith . And why would I even try ? It's not like anything else mattered . Everything that mattered to me was gone . I felt heaviness in my heart , not because of the thought of the next five years , but because at the thought what I lost . I lost everything that mattered in my life .

The guards put on cuffs on my hands . I turned my head around to look at Ian one more time . He wasn't having the look I expected him to have - the you-got-what-you-deserved-bitch look . No , his look was gentle , soft . Like he was saying sorry with his eyes .

And my face ? It was unreadable , but I bet that he knew what was I thinking . He knew me too well.

I let the guards lead me to my cell , my new home for the next five years . Damn those blue eyes. Damn him . And that day I met him , I remember it like it was yesterday . It's just one of those days that change your life in a click , one of those things you never forget . I clearly remember that summer when I saw Ian Smith for the first time .

Jennifer's P.O.V.

It wasn't a quite good day for me . I broke up with my boyfriend with who I was in a relationship since...second year of collage . And now , I was 22 . Yep . I was three years with that douche , until he cheated on me . With my cousin . And that was worse because it wasn't some random girl , but it was Erica . I thought that she and I were close friends , but I was wrong .

And Rob... My Rob? How could have he done such thing to me ?! He claimed that he loved me more than anyone , but it took him just a couple days , when I was visiting my sick sister in California , to piss on his words . It was a good thing that we weren't engaged , because if we were , it would have been much more worse than it is now .

For three years it was just him and me ... Rob and Jen .Us . And he gave up on us , just for a lustful moment . He said that he doesn't have any feelings for her , that it was just a fling . That it didn't mean anything . That it just happened . Huh . They all say that stuff .

I remember exactly what he said . How could I forget ? It was all that happened today .

" Jen , I need to tell you something ."I smiled at him like a fool , but he didn't return the smile. I could see that there was something wrong with him . I sat down .

" Jen , I ... did something awful ... and I hope that with time you could forgive me... I don't want to give up on us ... I want to try and fix things before it's too late . " What the hell was he talking about?But I could see that he was serious . Oh , god . He really did something awful .

" Just tell me . I can handle it . " I think . I tried to believe at my words . He took a deep breath before he said that awful sentence .

" While you were visiting Melissa , I ... I cheated on you . " he spilled out . My heart skipped a beat.

" Jen , please don't look at me like that . It was an emergency . It just happened . "

I stud up , my eyes started to fill with tears . " It just happened . " I said , pretending to be calm . He gave me a soft smile . " Yes , and I never meant for it to happen it just did . "

He didn't know that he caused rage boiling through my veins .

" It just happened ?! How the fuck could you that to me ?! We are together for three years ! Three goddamn years ! How could you just throw it all in the toilet for just a one night stand ?! " I let it all out. I wasn't afraid to speak my mind .

" And it was Erica ... " he said , without any hope in his voice .

" Erica , as my cousin Erica ?! " I was horrified . He didn't answer me . He was just glancing at me apologetically.I took that as a yes .

" You are unbelievable ! You little bastard ! " I shoved him . He looked at me angrily .

" Hey , that hurts ! " his words got me angrier .

" You think that that hurts ? Think like this- you just came home from visiting your sick sister , and your girlfriend surprises you with an unexpected gift . She tells you that she cheated you with your cousin ! Think twice . " I was screaming.

" You said that you loved me ! You said that there would never be another girl for you ! You said that for you it would be only ME !!! " I was crying and I wanted to kick him so badly . Rage was radiating through my every single word . He was just standing there , now knowing that there wasn't any hope for me to forgive him .

" We . Are . Done . There is no 'us' anymore . There stopped being 'us' when you decided to cheat on me ! You have time to pack your stuff until the evening ! And don't leave anything behind ! Everything your filthy little hands touched sickens me ! " and then I did something , I thought I would never do- I spat in front of his feet .

" You make me sick . I don't want to see you ever again ! " I said and grabbed my purse , letting him stand there .

And that's how I end up here . At some random party in some random club . Holding tight to my tequila. I was just sitting there at the bar , drowning my sorrow with alcohol. And I was just watching people partying . Which was creepy a bit . But , I didn't mind . Today was officially the worst day of my life . I just wanted to stay here the rest of the night and get drunk .

" What's a beautiful woman like you doing alone in a club ? " A man's voice asked me from behind . I turned around to tell him to go to hell or something like that , grateful that I have someone to take out my anger on . But I didn't . I was speechless . The man had icy-blue eyes and a breathtaking smile.He was wearing a white T-shirt with V shaped neck and black jeans . The shirt was tight and was revealing his strong muscles . And he had long raven black hair . He was probably the most beautiful man I've ever seen . I didn't want to be rude to him . He looked like a nice guy .

" I just dumped my boyfriend and I'm trying to get myself drunk . Should I be doing all that with a friend ? " I asked . His smile disappeared . Great . I said two lines and I already scared him off.

" Well , I see that we are in a same position . I just broke up with my girlfriend . " he said and sat on a bar stool , next to me .

" Oh . I didn't know that . So sorry for that . " I said .

" I'm not - she was a bitch who didn't trust me enough and she was always jealous . I don't know why did I suffer that craziness . I had enough of her . " he said and ordered a martini .

" So , why did you dump him? I'm sure that you had a pretty good reason for that ." he said and took a sip of his drink.

" He cheated on my . With my cousin . And he told me that today . And I kicked him out of the apartment . " I said , tears threatening to fall out from my eyes .Not here ! , I hissed at myself in my mind . Not in front