His Sanity by Mirah Selim (great book club books .txt) 📖

Author Pov
One month Later

"Lucifer, stop I swear I will pull your hair really bad," Catelin said as she tried to remove his hands from her waist.

She had been trying to make breakfast in peace but Lucifer being Lucifer wasn't ready to let her cook in peace. He was attached to her back like a koala as his chin was attached to her shoulder. He was too heavy for her.

Even after her warning, he didn't move away and Catelin knew why. This stubborn bastard.

"Babe please." She said sweetly making him groan as he moved away from her. He leaned against the kitchen counter beside her and stared at her crossing his bulky arms against his chest.

"It was just a hug little one." He said staring at her with his cold yet sulking face. She smiled at him shrugging her shoulders.

"You're too heavy." She said as she started cooking pancakes.

It's been a month since she has started treating his every personality with care. And now she knows how to behave with the kid, the normal or aggressive personality of his. Kid personality wants her to treat him specially, while aggressive one wants her attention only on him.

But normal Lucifer wants her to treat him the way she wants. He doesn't demand much from her but she knows every personality is inside him and what his other personality craves for he does too.

Normal Lucifer in the starting used to come out rarely but slowly he started appearing more which made her happy as she knew he's making a progress.

She even had a little talk with the psychiatrist to know if there is any medical treatment for this disorder but the psychiatrist's response was upsetting.

"No Catelin there is no medical treatment for this disorder. Yes, some pills can control his nerves to not do something extreme and even help him decrease the pain if he felt in his head. But the cure of this disorder is to remove the fear that is stopping him from being normal again."

She sighed remembering his words. She stared at Lucifer who was busy placing the plates and breakfast on the table. His normal self indeed gives her a sense of warmth but she has started feeling what she shouldn't for his other personalities as well.

She has no idea why but she has started getting attached to his other personalities as well which she shouldn't. Those personalities are buried in him. And he needs to accept those personalities instead of letting them control his senses individually.

She likes spending time with normal Lucifer. She likes to take care of the sulking aggressive personality of his. She loves the pouting face of his kid personality. She just loves him. His everything. But that was not enough.

Even if she accept him with his every personality, people wouldn't. He needs to face the problems of his life like a normal 27 years old man instead of being a coward and hiding away from everything.

She needs to know his fear. She needs to know what is it that stops him from accepting that everything is inside him. This Factitious Disorder needs to be cured and the only way is to make him realize that he can control every personality of his. He just needs to try.

Day turned to night and Catelin gave him his pills. He was reluctant but after hearing that they are for his headache he took them. He was fast asleep but sleep was nowhere near Catelin.

Giving up on trying she walked out of the room and came near the pool. She took a seat on the edge of the pool and let her feet feel fresh by moving them in the pool water.

She smiled watching the beautiful moon shining through the glass window. The night was chilly and she was only in her white nightdress. She hugged her arms staring at the starry sky.

Soon she felt a warm sweater on her shoulders making her look up at the person. Lucifer smiled at her and she was relieved it was his normal self.

"You didn't sleep?" She asked making him nod his head as a heavy sigh left his lips.

"I was sleeping just woke up. Didn't see you in the room so I came out." He said making her look at him.

" I wasn't able to sleep." She said as she turned her head to the moon again.

Lucifer followed her gaze and smiled remembering how much she loves counting stars. It was a full moon. He turned his face and stared at her beautiful face which was shinning due to moonlight hitting her face.

No matter which personality of his sees her. His kid, aggressive or normal personality every part of him loves her equally. She's like a miracle for them that has come true. She's a beautiful dream he always wished to see. A beautiful dream in his nightmare-like life.

He kept on staring at her whose eyes were stuck in the sky. Her beautiful green eyes shined brightly. The silence engulfed them making him ponder over his thoughts.

He knew she had been trying to be as much as soft with his every personality she could be. And he's not an idiot to not know that she's doing it for him to reveal his dark past.

But what made him more happy and grateful were two things. First, she never forced him to tell her anything and second, she didn't ask his parents about his past instead she waited for him to open up in front of her.

"My past is really ugly, little one." He said making her snap her head towards him. She was startled at his words but still said nothing.

"I don't know if I will ever be able to let it go." He said staring into her eyes. She suddenly smiled at him shaking her head.

"It's fine. I will never force you for something you don't want to. So don't force yourself." She said making him shake his head.

" No. I want to tell you everything. I want you to know why I become what am I right now." He said making her gulp down. She didn't want him to force himself to tell her anything but he seemed to be determined to tell her everything.