Mixed feelings by S. N. Nina Arthur (beach read .txt) 📖

She sighed, I glanced at her, “There is a reason behind everything Vennessa.....Behind his behavior, there is also a reason....... I’m always here to tell you about him, just call if you want to know the reason behind his behavior” she said, smiling at me she left me alone with a question running in my mind.

What made him like this?

Later, A maid came to my room asking me to come downstairs. I walked downstairs and noticed Andera, Edoardo, Enzo and Antia were standing at the entrance with our luggage,  bodyguards were taking our luggage to the car. I walked towards them and stood in front of Andera. She hugged me “Don’t hesitate to contact me if you need any help, please stay in touch even if you’re not with Enzo” I nodded, Edoardo squeezed my shoulder smiling at me"Take care child," he said, Antia hugged me, “Take care of yourself” she said, with sad smile on her face I nodded and turned to Enzo who was quietly watching me, He turned around and moved out of the mansion.

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We were quite in our entire journey to Los Angeles, No one spoke a word to each other.
It made easy for me to stay away from him. It hurts...It fucking hurts not talking to him. I hate myself for doing this but I can’t stay with him.

He dropped me at my house, I asked him to send my luggage to my house. The next day they brought my luggage to my house. I resigned from my job and started working in a small cafe near my house as a waitress.

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Six months later,

I was changing my clothes in the change room in the cafe where I work, my shift completed. I left the cafe and reached my car I climbed inside and drove to my house.

In Past months so much has happened, I graduated from school, I got admission in the University of California, I’m 19 now, Beth, Zach, and Aron become very close to me day by day. Remond and Seth went to London after graduation. We celebrated my birthday party at my house, it was memorable to me and that I cried my eyes out remembering him. I miss him terribly, I wasn’t myself in these 6 months I was awful, They tried to bring my happy side many times but failed miserably. I never smiled, I never tried to talk to anyone, I cried and cried and cried, Every single day, every single night. There wasn’t a day went well without thinking about him.

The door was open to my house and I walked inside to see Beth, Zach, and Aron waiting for me. I signed and walked to them,  
“I’m not going to any party,” I said looking at them, They looked at each other, and beth stood up from the couch “Why not? We’ll have fun” she said with an enthusiastic expression on her face, “I’m sorry, I have work to do please don’t force me,” I said dismissing her, she signed and sat down.

“You didn’t forget him did you?” asked Zach with a calculated expression on his face, Aron looked at me and I can see saddens in them.

After that incident, there were days where I cried all night, I never smiled and I distanced myself from everyone. Aron was there for me the whole time, he tried his best to bring me out this state. 
No matter what people say or do around me the last person who has a say in this is me, I’m liable for my own mistakes, I’m accountable to my own feelings.
I’m responsible for why I’m hurting right now.

“Do you still love him?” Asked beth,

Despite everything do I still love him?

There was no answer to these questions with me.
Aron stood up and hugged me, I hugged him back. He kissed my forehead and turned towards them.
“I think she needs rest guys we should leave,” he said, they stood up. Beth came to me and hugged me “You should listen to your heart Vennessa do what it says don’t hurt yourself, it hurts us to see you like this,” she said, Zach touched my cheek and smiled.

They left my house, I cooked something to have dinner. After dinner, I started cleaning my kitchen. Then I heard a knock on my main door, I walked to the main door and opened it. I was numb, every part of my body stopped working looking at that person who was standing in a black suit, hair neatly combed back. Enzo....with his bodyguards.
After what felt like an eternity, He spoke “Let me in” in his usual serious tone he said.
I moved aside letting him in, he walked inside and sat on my couch, I walked to my couch and stood in front of him, He motioned one his man to come forward, he came and gave a file to Enzo. Enzo gave it to me, I took it and looked at him."Read it" he said pointing at the file.

My eyes bulged out reading the file, The contract Marriage was written in block letters. The file said that I have to marry him and be his wife for 3 years. He offers 2.5 million with a mansion in Beverly Hills for being his wife.
“What is this?” I yelled at him, he didn’t even flinch at the outburst.

“Contract,” he said,
“I know that, I’m not doing this,” I said  confidently, He stood up, took a step towards me very slowly, “If you don’t sign the contract I will buy this house and your grandma’s, businesses and her house in Florida you will be the reason behind her loss and she will be homeless only because of you if you want that don’t sign” he stopping in front me with his hands in his pockets,
I was shocked, tears were rolling in my eyes. How did I love someone like this, How did I love someone who’s this heartless?

Tears were streaming down my eyes, No I will not show him that I’m weak, I will not show him my tears and my broken heart. I wiped my tears, and slowly walked to my table and placed the file on it and took a pen in my hand, signed it. I give it to Enzo, He took it from my hand and turned around, began to walk to my door. Before stepping out of the door he turned back and looked at me, there was something in his eyes that I failed to understand.

After he left my house, I took a deep breath and tried to relax my nerves, Be strong v. I said to myself. I have to do something before its too late, then one idea came to mind. I rushed to get my phone from my bag and dialed the number, it rang for some time then she answered.
“Hello,” she said
“Hello, I want you to tell me everything about Enzo...I need to know”