Mixed feelings by S. N. Nina Arthur (beach read .txt) 📖

We reached his mansion; the car stopped and Enzo grabbed my hand, pulling me with him. I tried to pull my hand from his grip earning a glare from him. I just followed him behind letting him pull me. While he’s dragging me through the living room, I noticed Judy standing in the living room smiling at me, I smiled back.

He opened the bedroom door and dragged me inside. “Stay,” he said in a dangerous law voice.

I gulped and nodded. He still had that effect on me, god!!

He walked out, leaving me alone in this room. Everything rushed to me. Our memories in this room, our kisses and all. I sat down on the edge of my bed and cried my eyes out.

I heard a knock on the door. I wiped my tears and looked up to see Judy with a sad smile on her face. She walked to me and wrapped her arms around me, kissing my head. “I’m happy to have you back dear,” she said, she looked down at me.

I smiled at her, looking at my face for a second her smile dropped and a frown made its way to her face. “What happened, dear?” With a worried expression, she asked.

“Nothing, nothing happened,” I said, trying to smile, holding my face in her hands she made me look up at her, “Tell me, dear,” she asked, with that, I burst into tears. “I don’t want this, I don’t want to marry him. I love him, I love him so much that it hurts, but the things he does scares me, I tried to forget about it but every time I look at him That scene flashed in front of me reminding me that he’s a killer he kills people without any second thought how could I spent my life with a person like this...I want to help him I want to try my best to change him but how...How should I change him into a good person” I cried, hugging her. “Be strong, Venessa You have to be strong to change him. There is no way other than to marry him, I know Lorenzo he will do anything to get what he wants, you have to do things in his way, dear, let him do things just be patience Don’t lose hope dear” She said wiping my tears, I stopped crying," You’re right I have to do things in his way" I said and stood up from the bed, she took me to dining hall and served me dinner, I had my dinner, and went to my room. Lying on the bed I was staring at the ceiling, thinking about the wedding. I do not understand how to stop the wedding and I want to do something, anything to stop this wedding. I don’t want to marry at this age. Come on I’m just 19 I have ambitions which I have to fulfill.

I heard my doorknob opening, I quickly closed my eyes. I can hear someone walking to my bed, I tried to calm my breath. I can feel them sitting on the edge of my bed, I felt their hand stroking my hair. I quickly recognized his smell and his touch which leave Sparks on my skin, I heard him say “I miss you...Why did you leave me...It’s a bad decision...I thought you will just be angry for a day or two, I thought you will come back to me but you didn’t... Now...I will make you pay for it...I will make you pay for the pain you left me in...I will make you pay for leaving me alone...I will make you pay for everything I suffered being without you for 6months...I promise, I will'' he said kissing my forehead, I was scared, I want to run away from him but I couldn’t. I heard him closing the door, I opened my eyes, his words were running in my head he will make me pay for everything? I was shivering with fear. What am I gonna do?

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Next day I woke up because of constant knocking on my door, I groaned and got up from the bed, walking towards the door I opened it. There stood Judy with 3 other women, I was confused, I moved aside letting them in. “You should get ready dear, they will help you,” Judy said,

“Ready?? For what?” I asked,

“Tonight is your Engagement,” Said Judy,

“What!!!!” I exclaimed,

“Tonight..” She was repeating but I cut her off.

“I know I heard you But you decided that tonight is our engagement,” I asked, I was very angry.

“Lorenzo,” she said,

“This man” I muttered,

“Please leave, I need to fresh up,” I said, Judy, nodded and left my room with them.

I walked into my bathroom and did my morning routine, I did my hair and makeup and dressed up. I walked outside into the living room, There I saw Enzo sitting on the sofa and talking to one woman and 3 men who were standing with her, they were listening to him very carefully, He saw me walking to the dining room and called me, I turned to him.

“Come here,” he said,

I gulped and walked to him, everything he said last night was running in my mind. I was very scared, “yes,” I said, Tuning to them he said “you can do your work now,” they nodded and left us. He turned to me with a very serious expression on his face, “I heard, you a have problem with the engagement” he asked,

“I..I h..have..problem...Its...to..to..soon” I shuttered,

He grabbed my jaw and pulled me until his face was a mere inch from mine, “Our engagement will happen today, whether you like it or not,” he said and pushing me back, I stumbled back, tears were rolling in my eyes, I controlled myself and turned around, began to walk back to the dining table, “Vennessa,” he called, I turned around to face him, “Do not try to act smart you know very well what I’ll do If you do so,” I nodded and walked back to the dining table. Is this Enzo who was in love with, he turned into a completely different person who I don’t recognize. Swallowing my sorrow I had my breakfast after my breakfast, those 3 women with Judy came to me, I sighed, getting up from my bed. We walked outside of the mansion and Paul was waiting for us outside. I smiled at him and hugged him, “How are you paul?” I asked,

He smiled “I’m good, How are you Vannesa?”

“I’m good” I replied,

We climbed inside the car and drove out of the mansion, we reached a shopping mall and stepped out of the car. We walked inside.

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It took 4 hours to complete our shopping, I was exhausted. I walked outside of the 9th mall we walked into,  Judy with them was at the cash counter. Paul opened the door, I climbed inside and drank a bottle of water. I relaxed a bit, “Paul” I called, he turned to me. “Yes,” he said, “How was he...in the past 6 months,” I asked a bit hesitant, He signed “He wasn’t himself, he turned into a completely different person. He was very aggressive and was drank all night, He was broken. He never smiled the way he used to with you, He never came out of his office. He buried himself in alcohol, sometimes I find him passed out on the couch and on the ground. His behavior changed towards everyone He was angry, snappy and screamed at everyone including his parents”