His Sanity by Mirah Selim (great book club books .txt) 📖

It was hurting him. She was purposely ignoring him. And now he realized how hurt she must have felt after he ignored her all these months but again his mind questions him.

Does she love him the way he does? If she doesn't love him the way he crazily does then obviously he is hurting and suffering way too much than what she has suffered. At least before he used to catch a single glance of hers.

But now she drove him away from that right too. He sighed entering her room for the millionth time. He also has started sleeping in her room now.

His parents were worried for him. But they also didn't disturb Catelin much. She was extremely busy with her new job and hardly gets any time to talk to her aunt and uncle. They knew she was punishing him for jumping to conclusions without communicating with her. But in doing so they could see it was hurting both of them.

Lucifer opened her cupboard for the first time in the past two weeks. He frowned seeing a box in the corner. It was like she has hidden it. He knew he shouldn't invade her privacy but well.

He pulled the box out brushing the dirt away. He opened the box and found a beautiful diary in it. It seems extremely old. Sitting on the edge of the bed he opened it.

Instantly a small smile appeared on his lips. It was Catelin's diary she has started writing it when she turned 11. He kept on reading it with a small smile but soon it faded away when his eyes fell on the particular sentences.

I know I shouldn't be feeling this way. But I can't stop it. Even though I am just trying to help him but these feelings aren't leaving me. I know it maybe is just a childish crush I know.

She wrote this at the age of 15 and there were a lot of the same sentences where she was giving her feelings a name of childish crush till he reached the page when she turned 19.

No, today I finally accepted it's not a childish crush. I love him. I love Lucifer King.

His hands started trembling as he kept on reading the diary. She shared every moment she spent with him and with each moment she confessed her feelings.

I felt horrible for gaining these feelings but it's not in my hands. I love him so much.

Tomorrow uncle is inviting someone for his marriage. It hurts to even imagine him with someone else.

Wish I could tell him, my love. Wish I could for once be selfish and tell him that it does not just his cure that's my concern it's him. Just him.

The dairy ended when she went with him to the other city for his treatment. She must have forgotten the diary here. His trembling hands held the closed diary tightly.

Tears blurred his vision realizing how much he has taken her for granted. She loved him, kept herself hurt, endured every pain for what. For him. For his happiness. For his sanity.

She did so much for him and till this day he thinks he loves her more than she does when the truth is. There was no comparison of her love against his love.

The sacrifices she has done just to see him happy and to satisfy his parents were something no one would ever have the heart to do so.

He closed his eyes letting the tears dilute his cheeks. Now he accepted. He deserves the punishment she was giving him. He deserves the pain she was giving him. He had hurt her so much. She loved him for years and kept it hidden in her heart for him. And what he did?

Because of a mere misunderstanding, he hurt her so much. He deserves this. And he doesn't deserve such an angel in his life. But he also knew he will never let her go. Even if he has to wait an eternity for her punishment to end he will gladly do.

"Lucifer what happened, darling?" His mother said entering the room. Her eyes slightly widened watching tears streaming down his eyes.

She palmed his cheeks making him look at her. He shook his head burying his face in her stomach hugging her waist. Lilian hugged him back caressing his back.

"I hurt her so much mom." He whispered making her sigh heavily.

"Yes, you did. She even cried so much because of you." He squeezed his eyes in regret. He really doesn't deserve her.

"I love her so much mom. And here I hurt my love. I do deserve this punishment." He said in his cracked voice making her sigh sadly.

She couldn't see her son like this anymore. She also knew he deserves this after hurting that poor soul so much but she also knew Catelin was hurting too.

Now it was the time to talk to Catelin.

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Only epilogue is left. The story was actually shorter than this. I thought it will end soon but it still went above than what I imagined.

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