When A Bully Falls In Love by Valerie Sax (good books to read for women TXT) 📖

~Aoife~

Truth hurts; indeed, it hurts badly. I was so stupid to let him drove me to that point where I lost my control and submitted myself to him.
How could I allow him to kiss me? My heart ached when Zarrena kissed him in front of me. It pierced my heart all this time; I was just a time pass for him? Didn't he feel anything? Or, I was just another girl on his hit list to fuck? Within a few seconds, my mind was bombarded by negative thoughts. How strange our mind is a few moments back, I was ready to give myself to him, but everything changed in a few minutes.
We can only hate a person if we love them; we cannot hate a stranger, how true this thought is. 
Whatever was there in between him and me, it felt like a mistake.
Yes, it was a mistake. I wanted to accept this, but why my heart was not ready to accept it?
I am not a person who used to react in front of everyone. I am a person who likes to deal with her problem alone.
Watching them like this, I thought getting away was the only option for me.
I came out for a long walk as I couldn't control my tears. I cried a bit, screamed in the woods. I felt hurt, and no one was responsible except me. 
I made myself calm and promised I would not allow him to come near me. With a tough head, I went back, mustered a broad smile in front of everyone.
"Good morning, everyone," I giggled.
They were yawning. I decided to make coffee and breakfast for everyone.
"Hey Aoife," Matt came to help.
"Hey,"
I was feeling vulnerable, and I needed a hug from a genuine man.
I hugged him.
"Is everything ok, little birdie," He speculated.
I tried to stop my tears as my voice was wobbly.
"Nothing just missed you. What happened to that girl of yours?
Your white dress one?" I changed the topic.
"Ahhh... nothing, she was not my type. What about you? Where is Zach?" He winked.
I rolled my eyes at his name.
"Nothing, he was a little annoying to me," I answered with a depressing sound.
He laughed.
"Well, I think we are in the same boat."
"You know Matt. If we don't get anyone, we will start dating each other." I blurted.
He furrowed his brow.
"No, I don't want to date a trouble catcher. I want a decent girl for me, not a boss like you." He folds his hand on his chest.
My expression changed to Aww.
"Trouble catcher? Bosses you?" I raised my spatula to hit him.
He ran to the other side.
"Tell me if I am wrong," he announced.
I lowered my spatula.
"You are right about the trouble caller thing." I rested back.
He looked at me.
"Hey, I was kidding." he caressed my cheeks.
He stood beside me as I rested my head over his shoulder.
"You know what, fuck everyone. We are going to see fall colors," I said.
He slightly pushed me through his arms, and I did the same to him.
We were playing a pushing shoulder game.
"What about your one true love, Zach. He is coming for you," He whispered and I mustered a smile jerking his hand away.
"After breakfast, you are taking me out."
He walked out as he saw Zach heading towards me.
Zach took out his t-shirt as the stench of stale sweat walked in with him.
"Hey, how was your workout?" I asked.
He stood next to me, scanned my poster with clean observing eyes.
"What?"
"Nothing, are you ignoring me?" He remonstrated.
"No, I am not," 
I wanted to answer him, but when I saw Xander and Zareena walked into the living room, I did what I needed to do.
"How about a barbeque evening?" He hoarse.
"I would love to join you," I replied with a smile.
He went upstairs as he informed us to join the trail after some time.
We finished our breakfast as we all were ready to go for fall colors.
Luka, Clara took the other way, as well as Zoey and Raph. We understand couples need their own time.
I thought Xander would leave us, but instead, he joined us for the rest of the trail.
Matt and I were enjoying the troll. Zareena and Xander followed us.
"Look, Aoife," Matt and me clicked so many pictures.
We made funny faces, and we were really enjoying these moments.
We threw dry leaves at each other. 
"Can you take my pictures, Matt," Zareena requested him as she showed her arrogance towards me.
"Sure," Matt smiled.
They got busy taking pictures as I scanned my phone to look for the best picture to post on Instagram.
"Aoife," Xander purred.
"Yes," I answered without looking at him.
"I want to talk about morning," he started.
"I didn't know that Matt would bring her, and..."
I raised my gaze from my phone towards him; with a smile. I answered him.
"Sir, she is your girlfriend, and she deserves to be here with you. And whatever happened in the morning was a complete mistake."
I said tonelessly.
He furrowed his brows at me, and the very next moment, anger covered his face.
"Mistake? Do you really think it was a mistake?" He gruffed.
"Yes, it was from my side. I should not allow myself to come near you. It might be ok for you to get along with other girls being with her, but I am not like you," My voice got choked with emotions flooded inside me.
I could see his hand changed into a fist as he glared towards me.
"Like me? That means I am a playboy who sleeps with every woman he spends time with?" He huffed.
"I didn't say you are a playboy."
"All I am saying, I am not like you. I can't share the most important relationship. I can't; it hurts," Water covered my eyes as Matt and Zareena walked towards us.
"It would be good if we stay away from each other." I finished my talk with him.
"Thanks, Matt," She said.
I mustered a smile tried to slap my tears.
"Why don't you guys take a picture together," I smiled as I requested Zareena.
She changed her expression from arrogance to a soft smile towards me.
"Yeah, good idea. Come On baby," She grabbed Xander's hand as Matt took a few pictures.
Xander's eyes were red with anger towards me.
Strange, he was angry, and I was hurt.