When A Bully Falls In Love by Valerie Sax (good books to read for women TXT) 📖

Chapter 31: New Bonding

~Aoife~

Matt went out, and I thought about checking on Xander’s condition.

“How are you feeling?” I questioned with a smile.

He scanned me, peeling his eyes from his phone screen.

“I am sure you heard him.” He sighed.

“Well, he was right. He cared for you.”

“We only get angry with the person we love, right?” He agreed with me, extending his smile.

“Come sit here.” he patted the space on the bed. I settled in front of him.

“You were angry with me. Does that mean...”

I bit my lower lip, shaking my head in no.

“It was different. You bullied me, and I was upset with you.”

“Technically, I didn’t bully you. It was a misunderstanding, and I am sure it’s clear now?”

“Can I ask you something?” I mused.

“Why did you leave?”

“Aoife, I am not feeling good to say this, but I am a person who leaves the situation if I don’t know how to handle it.”

“I felt the same, Zareena’s demands, and you, I didn’t know how to handle all these together,” He confessed.

“Me? But she was not wrong at her place. She is your girlfriend; she deserves to know what happened between you and me. Besides, I would act the same way if my boyfriend acted like this.”

“She is not my official girlfriend,” he admitted. Now that was a new piece of news.

“What? What do you mean by official?”

“Let’s just say she is a friend with benefits. We were never in love; it’s all about needs and comfort.”

I felt disgusted.

“Our family knew each other very well, and getting along with her was easy.”

“Friends with benefits? What does that mean?” It’s better to clear things before I cook something bad in my head.

“We fulfill each other’s needs. She never stopped me for anything, and I kinda like it as I am a free soul.” He confessed.

Their strange relationship shocked me. “What exactly are we talking about?” I thought about emotional support, but asking before I said something stupid was okay.

“Sex,” he whispered. My eyes widened.

“So, she is your sex friend? Okay,” I gulped it.

“She was my sex friend, but not now,” he concluded.

“She never stopped me from having a physical relationship with any other girl, and keeping her by my side, I didn’t need to deal with this emotional love drama from other girls.” he justified.

“Love Drama?” I repeat in a low voice.

I was feeling disgusted listening to their stupid relationship story. And honestly, he was far from being the man I wanted to fall in love with. He was quiet, waiting for my answer.

“I... I don’t know what to say?”

“I am sorry to say, but this is beyond my understanding.”

“From what I understand, you don’t want to fall in love just because you think it will bind you. Am I right?”

He nodded, suppressing his lips.

“If she was fine with every other girl, why did she hate me so much?” I questioned him.

“Because you differ from others.” He answered.

“What? How am I different?”

“And what if she is in love with you?”

“I don’t think so.”

“She sensed I am getting emotionally involved with you,” He replied immediately.

Emotionally involved? And how come it became her problem if you were involved with some other girl or not?

“Oh! God, my head is going to burst. She is not your girlfriend, but she behaved like a possessive one, and you kept her by your side just not to get involved in some emotional attachment.”

Annoyed, I stood to make myself busy with some other stuff.

“Aoife, it’s complicated, I know, but I never loved her; she is just a friend,” he whispered.

“Not a friend, a SEX friend, who might be in love with you.” I showed inverted commas with my fingers.

“You know what? She is right at her point, protecting you from getting emotionally involved with anyone; that is why you allowed her to stay by your side; she is doing her duty.” I shrugged my shoulders.

Is it him I tried to convince, or is it me?

Xander mentioned he doesn’t want to get involved in such emotional drama, but all these things affect me. His peer could inform me I was not making any sense to him.

“I think I am not a person with a mindset to understand any of this. I don’t know what will happen when any of you fall in love. Or fall in love with each other?”

“Do you think I am capable of love?” He asked with serious eyes.

“Maybe it’s complicated to say. After listening to your thoughts on getting emotionally involved, it would be like putting you in a cage. Why do you want to bind yourself when you want to be a free-spirited person?” I hope this is exactly what he meant to hear.

“Please don’t judge me like this. It was a stupid thing with Zareena,” he husked.

“What? Have sex with her or hire her for your emotional drama protection.”

“And here I thought you were an emotional man. I am not good at judging people.” I laughed. I didn’t want to involve myself in another trouble. He kept a serious look towards me as I tried to avoid looking at him.

“How strange, we are two different people trying to figure out life in their unique way.,”

“What is your definition of a relationship?” He asked.

“Me? I am a simple girl with simple dreams. Not like yours. I want a passionate love.” I rolled my eyes. He smiled at my reaction.

“I wanted to love him with all my heart and soul. And I wish the same thing back for me. I believe in one true love,” I answered with a simple smile. I remember the exact conversation I had with Matt. We both had the same view.

He was gazing at me strangely as I got excited at the thought of falling in love. “I want to get consumed by him... And I am sure you dislike it, whatever, I am talking about right now, because this is all bore things we are discussing.” I sang my words. He laughed, watching me.

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