I am not a gentleman by Harshavardhan C (top 100 books of all time checklist TXT) 📖

are only digging grave to you sir. But, I will not remain silent like you; and also unlike you, I don’t have patience to tolerate any amount of disgrace and dishonour by anybody to you sir; and no excuse even if it were your family members, so long as I continue to work as PS to you in GM. Group of Companies sir” She burst out her feelings.

“I am sorry Miss. Jasmine; I believe you and I have treated you as one of my family members. When I said my family, please try to understand the spirit of the meaning of my words, in my opinion family includes all including you. Then you can’t find fault with any of my family members Jasmine” He said with certain amount of pain.

“But there shall be some limit for even to our sacrifice also sir, whether it is for a noble cause or otherwise. I am too small to tell you sir; and I can’t hide my feelings any more. I know that you have not committed the offence. Please come up with truth at least at this stage, and let me try for final justice as I still believe that truth only triumphs and my mentor would be saved and come out with purity and chastity. If I fail in my attempt there is a final option for you sir”

“What is it Jasmine?” Mr. Gentleman asked her rather doubtfully.

“You can file a mercy petition”

“You mean I have to beg for my life”

“Sorry sir what I mean is that you can ask for President’s pardon, as a last resort”

“You said that I have not committed any crime nor do I in my life time; and by praying the President’s pardon with folded hands means accepting one’s own guilt. And now requesting his Excellency the president of India to save me from death sentence or converting it to life sentence, which means the same for me; and I am sorry I will never apply for any mercy nor do I appeal in any court of justice for my personal favour Jasmine; and for your information I never let down myself before anybody even for my life”

“I am sorry sir I could not understand your feelings. I don’t know what for you are sacrificing your precious life? Is it for any noble cause? Nor is it for the nation? Nor is it crucifying you for attaining any bliss?” She expressed her painful feelings.

In reply, Mr. Gentleman simply smiled.

“No one ever escapes death, but only the date and time and finally the manner of their death varies in their life. And in my case the only lucky thing is that though I never know my birth but at least now I could know the date, time and the mode of my death. Yes I do agree with you dear that the only painful thing in my death is that it is not for any noble cause, but it is a death sentence for committing an heinous crime against an innocent minor girl, for which I don’t have words to speak except to lay down in my life.

“But your sacrifices are not acknowledged or known to the world nor to your family members”

“I haven’t told you that it is a sacrifice; but it is purely as a result of the heinous crime and for which I am being penalised and it need not be made known to public Miss. Jasmine.

And after my departure from this world your fiancé Dr. Raj will definitely come for you and my sincere advice to you is do not say no to his proposal dear”

“Sir may I request you to do one personal favour to me?”

“What favour is possible through a dying man dear? As I have understood your principles and integrity and self esteem, I still hope you never ask any favour for yourself from anybody, but anyway as asked I shouldn’t say no, you may please”

“Promise me sir, as it is in your hands and you can”

“Sure, Jasmine if it is within my orbit I will definitely fulfil, but if it is beyond my scope I am helpless and you will have to excuse me”

“It is just a small favour and you can definitely do it sir”

“Then ask me Jasmine, why are you hesitating?”

“Sir I want to conceive through you”

“Shut up, are you mad or what? Don’t behave like a child; and don’t be emotional; and don’t forget that you are an educated”

“I am not mad sir; and I am perfectly alright. I am not emotional sir, but I am asking you with feelings in my heart sir” She expressed herself.

“It is sheer nonsense; and quite absurdity and impossible. If it is known to anybody, not only the latter but everybody will laugh at you Jasmine; and I will be treated as sexually perverted psycho; and please don’t propose yourself to poor man who is in the age of grandpa and don’t try to make me a joker in the society. Please don’t forget that you are a postgraduate in Medicine” He was annoyed and said seriously.

“It is quite possible provided you demand the agency which is going to execute death sentence to you sir. I once again request you to cooperate and request the Home Ministry to fulfil my final wish cum desire. And I am sure that the last desire of the dyeing man will definitely be full filled sir” While suggesting him tears rolled in her eyes. Mr. Gentleman observed her and understood her feelings.

“Why have you taken a nasty decision? It is quite unfortunate to hear from the mouth of a highly intellectual; but certainly an innocent in a civilised society; and why don’t you try to understand the ground realities of human life Miss. Jasmine?”

“I am only trying to keep the truth alive sir”

“I couldn’t catch you Jasmine”

“I want Mr. Gentleman to reborn sir”

“Then I must call you definitely a mad lady; and also a poor doctor, especially an expert surgeon with chicken heart; and also a sentimental fool having belief in superstitions and rebirth than in science.

And there is no rebirth to any living being, except certain noble people will live in our hearts even after their physical death Jasmine”

“Sir I know your heart; and you never say no to anybody, who expect and hope to receive something from you; or at least to get some favour from you; but in my case you are mercilessly refusing; and what great sin I committed sir?” She was unable to continue as she tried to withhold her tears by hiding her face with a hanky.

“What you said is true in normal conditions and for justifiable things Jasmine. But I am sorry that in my life time I never say no to anybody for anything. But for the first time, perhaps in my final stages I am denying your request or proposal or whatsoever it might be, because your request is irrational and that is why I pity you my child; and I hope and expect you not to be childish nor behave like a mad woman Jasmine.

In fact my parents adopted me the name ‘Gentleman’; and I don’t know exactly for what reasons they have chosen it, but I want to die by personifying their dream cum wish in naming me as Mr. Gentleman” He spell out the last words and turned back to go to his cell.

“I have expected it from your noble heart sir. And may I request you finally one more thing sir?” “If it is irrational like what you have asked earlier please drop it Jasmine. If it is really good for you and the society you may please tell me what your request is Jasmine?” He just waited for her final request.

“I know you sir, for that matter those who have acquaintance with you never believe that you have committed the crime; simply ignoring your kind heart and rigid principles is nothing but praising Godsey and condemning Mahatma Gandhi sir”

“Sorry Miss. Jasmine, don’t be over confident and come to jumping conclusions. A man who looks gentle can’t be a gentleman. I am a bloody criminal awarded death sentence; and please don’t try to compare a criminal with the great soul of Mahatmaji”

“I know your modesty sir; and great people never accept their greatness. It is only the time will prove it; and the public who always look for it and remember forever the noble and kind hearted people and the latter remain in their hearts as great icons. And finally what I request you is to complete the last pages in your diary incorporating the mystery behind the crime, before the authorities execute death sentence to you sir” She said and handed over his diary to him. He was taken a back on seeing his diary in her possession. “Have you gone through my diary Jasmine?” She simply nodded her head as a sign of yes. “But, it is not correct you know?” “I know it sir; and it is not manners also to read other’s diary; but you have forgotten it on your office table; and I remind you sir please remember that as your personal secretary it is my duty to take care of your personal things also; and I have taken it and thought that there is no other way to know about a nobleman, except by reading it only” “Okay Miss. Jasmine, I will definitely complete it, but you have to promise me not to reveal it to the world after my demise” He obligated her to oath on him. In fact it was not only a promise, but also a firm command and an honest request she could find in his voice. She promised him by keeping her hand on her head.

“No, you better take an oath on me Jasmine” He asked her firmly. She understood his firmness and she had no chance to escape. She did accordingly.

“Miss. Jasmine will you please fulfil my final request?”

“Please command me sir, I am still your PS sir”

“Thank you Jasmine. All women in my family are baby trapped; and are reaping the consequences as they abused their freedom”

“No sir, I have protected them”

“Then who killed Mr. Siddhartha, the driver of Madam’s vehicle? So also who killed the owner of the beauty parlour along with his three workers?” He felt sorry for what had happened.

“How do you know sir?”

He did not answer her at once.

“I am sorry sir”

“It’s okay, it is not the question of how I got the information, but whether it is true or not is the point you know Miss. Jasmine”

“Yes sir I have understood. And you need not worry about the incidents sir; and none of your family members are involved in any crimes.

In the case Mr. Siddhartha, the driver of Mrs. Bharathidevi, I gave a report in the police station, stating that when he was out raging my modesty, I could protect myself by pouring acid on him and the police closed the case as a right of private defence.

And about the death of the four males of the beauty parlour, I personally handled it and police treated the case as fatal road accident; and I have only arranged the lorry and the driver through a private agency”

“Five murders, my God! I am sorry to know the subsequent developments, and you ought not to have done it Miss. Jasmine, or at least you would have informed me. It pains me as you have indirectly involved me in the crimes” Mr. Gentleman was feeling bad about what had happened.

“I am sorry sir neither you nor any of your family members are responsible for their deaths. Even if the victims are other than your family members, as a woman my reaction would be the same, after all they are perverted and sex psychos and their involvement in the case of your family members is most unbearable, and in fact they committed the most unethical crimes, and none of the social beings will accept them nor is there