Confuzion by Dana Broppy (great books to read TXT) 📖

asked.
“To get in the shower.” I told him.
He sat up and I went to my closet. I didn’t feel like getting dressed in anything other than sweat pants and a hoodie. I grabbed my pink jogging outfit, underwear and I was out the door. I started the shower. I looked in the mirror and almost started crying. I felt a ball in my throat. This was the first time I had seen myself in the mirror since that night. I quickly looked away and got in the shower. The water was refreshing and woke me up. I washed my hair, shaved and got out. I wanted to hurry and get out of the bathroom, there were mirrors all over the bathroom and I didn’t want to see my body. I got dressed and brushed my hair and my teeth. When I went downstairs Micah had eggs, bacon and toast on the table. It all looked really good, but I couldn’t eat. He poured me orange juice and pulled out my chair. I sat down. He started putting eggs on my plate.
“I’m not trying to be mean, and I seriously appreciate this, but I can’t eat. All food makes my stomach turn.” I told Micah. His feelings were hurt and I could tell.
“It’s okay, more for me.” He said trying to force a smile.
“I’m sorry.” I said. I felt so bad.
“It’s okay, but do you want to go somewhere with me?” he asked.
“I don’t know, it might be too hard.” I said
“C’mon, I promise nothing will happen to you.” He smiled.
I finally agreed, but I was still wasn’t changing. I hopped in his car, and he grabbed my hand. I grabbed his hand and held it tight. He made me feel safe, he made me feel alright. I wanted to know where we were going, but he claimed it was a surprise and I needed to get out. I trust Micah, so I didn’t say anything. We pulled up to a beach.
“Follow me.” Micah said.
I followed him to a big rock right on the shore. He laid a blanket down and laid on it. He waved for me to lay down too. I laid down and stared at the sky. I could hear the waves crashing onto shore and It relaxed me. I felt completely relaxed for once.
“Hannah, I just want to say that I am so sorry for what happened to you. And I want you to know that I am here for you no matter what. I want to make you happy again. I want to make you okay. You’re so beautiful and you’re an amazing girl. I would never force you to do anything and I understand you’re depressed right now. I promise you, I will get this Nick guy. And if you ever need to talk about that night, it might make me mad because you’re such an amazing person, but I will still listen to you and I will listen to you until we are old people in an old folk’s home.” Micah told me.
I couldn’t believe he honestly cared that much about me. Nobody has ever cared that much. I didn’t know what to say. Words couldn’t express how grateful I was to have Micah. I looked Micah in the eyes and I smiled a smile that actually reached my eyes. I leaned closer and I knew I was ready for this, but only with Micah. I kissed his lips very softly. I wasn’t ready to go farther and I know Micah understood that. He smiled a smile that reached his eyes too.
“I don’t know if this is too soon and you can tell me if it is, but would you go on a date with me Hannah?” he asked. “ I have liked you for so long now and that’s all I want.”
It would have been way to soon with anyone else. But not Micah, not the guy that was there for me, for the past 10 years of my life over anything.
“It’s not too soon, I would love that.” I grabbed his hand and held it tight again.
“Micah?”
“Yes?” he asked.
“Why do you take the chance of getting your ass kicked by my brother, just to hang out with me?”
He smiled. “It’s not just to hang out with you. When I hang out with you, I always have fun. You always make me happy and I never want to stop hanging out with you.” I smiled too. We put our heads together still holding hands.
“See that cloud? It looks like a heart, perfect for me and you.” Micah said. Making me truly happy for once in the past 3 days.

Chapter 4.


When I walked in the door, Jesse was waiting for me. He had a panicked look on his face.
“Where have you been?” he asked, his eyes wide.
“ummm, I went to the mall.” I told him. Stupidest thing I could have ever said.
“I was there, and I didn’t see you, and you didn’t get anything?” he asked suspiciously.
“I went to a mall a while ago, and I just went to look.” I told him, avoiding eye contact.
He just went with it, even though he knew I was lying. If he knew I was really with Micah, he would be pissed.
“I’m having a couple people over.” My brother told me.
“okay.” I said. Why would I care? I needed to look good though. Being with Micah has helped me heal so much. I’m okay now. I know that what happened is in the past and I need to move on with my life. I went upstairs and straightened my hair, did my makeup and put on some cute clothes. I was ready. I walked down stairs and heard a couple laughs. I saw a bong being passed around. I wanted to smoke. I sat in the circle, grabbed the bong, took a hit, and coughed my brains out. I heard laughter when I started coughing. I took three more hits and passed it. I was really feeling it. My eyes got really red and squinty. I took three more hits and passed out. When I woke up, I was in my bed and I was still baked. And I heard a lot of commotion going on down stairs. I walked down the stairs, and I saw a huge party. My brother’s couple people once again turned into a lot of people. I saw Micah sitting on the couch. He looked high as fuck. I waved him upstairs when no one was looking. He followed me up to my room and sat on my bed.
“Hey, come here.” I said to him and I started kissing him. I started un doing his zipper. I didn’t care, I was high as fuck. And horny as fuck.
“Hey, don’t do this, you’re going to regret it tomorrow.” He said, kind of disappointing me.
“No, I want to do this.” I told him. I got up and turned the lights off. I like it dark. I grabbed him again, and put his hand down my pants.
“You like that?” I asked him.
“You know I do. But I can’t do this; I don’t want you to regret it.” He told me, taking his hand out of my pants.
“C’mon, do it for me, or I will never talk to you again.” I was high and I didn’t know what I was saying. This time I put my hand down his pants. I could feel him getting hard against my hand. I started stroking him, and I heard him whimper.
He then put his hand down my pants and started rubbing my clit. I moaned and started humping his hand. He was rock hard now. I pulled off all of his clothes and pulled off my clothes. I climbed on top of him and I felt it go in. we did it and I fell asleep.
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He was right. I woke up the next morning and I felt guilty. I woke up, naked under my covers with him lying right next to me; naked. I sat up and caught a glimpse of something blue. I saw a box of tampons, and it hit me. I was 5 days late. I panicked. I woke Micah up.
“Micah!”
No response.
“Micah!”
No response.
I started shaking him and screaming his name. he finally woke up.
“What?” he asked in a sleepy voice.
“I’m late.” I told him with fear in my voice.
He sat up.
“Late for what?” he asked confused.
“MY PERIOD!” I screamed.
He got up off the bed really fast, and I knew he understood.
“Alright, let’s go get a test.” He said his voice filled with panic.
We got dressed in 5 minutes and got in his car. We left without my brother noticing. We ran in the store and got 5 tests.
“You want to take them here, or wait?” Micah asked me.
“I want to wait until we get home.” I said
We got home really fast because of Micah’s crazy driving.
I ran to the bathroom and almost peed my pants because I had been holding in my pee for a long time. I peed on all of the sticks and set them on the cabinet. I called Micah in there to wait with me.
“What are you going to do, if you’re late?” he asked with worry in his voice.
“I don’t know. I don’t believe in abortions and I don’t think I could live knowing someone else has my baby, so no adoption for me. I guess, the only other thing Is to raise the baby.”
He nodded. I knew he understood.
“Who’s the father?” he asked, already knowing the answer.
“Nick.” I said as my voice starting cracking. I sobbed. It was him. He was the only person besides Micah. But Micah happened too late to be the father.
The five minutes were up, I looked at the sticks. All positive. What was I going to do?

I’m pregnant.