Confuzion by Dana Broppy (great books to read TXT) 📖

Chapter 5.


I fell to the ground crying. I didn’t know what else to do. Micah put his arms around me and tried to get me to calm down.
“How am I going to tell my brother?” I asked
“I don’t know, we’ll figure it out. Everything will be okay!” he said.
“Who am I going to say is the dad?” I asked.
“me.” He whispered.
“What?” I couldn’t believe I just heard that?
“Me.” He repeated.
“You can’t do that, my brother will kill you and I just can’t let you do that, Micah.” I said.
“I want to be the dad.” He said.
I wished Micah was the dad instead of Nick, but I couldn’t let him do that. I couldn’t let his life get ruined along with mine. But if Micah wanted to be the dad, then I wanted him to be the dad, too.
“Okay, I want to raise this baby with you. I love you.” I told him.
He smiled. “I love you too.”

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Telling Jesse was going to be the hardest part. I knew he was going to catch on eventually because of morning sickness and all the other pregnancy symptoms.
I was nervous, but it was something that had to be told. Jesse had to know. My stomach turned and it felt like a thousand butterflies were flying around in my stomach. I started biting my nails as we walked down the stairs. My knees were shaking. I knew he was going to flip out. I wonder how Micah felt. He didn’t show emotion at all. My knees felt like they were going to buckle all the way to the last step of the stairs. We reached the hallway and I was shaking like no other. Micah felt me shaking and grabbed my hand.
“It’s okay.” He said, his voice calming me.
We walked down the hallway and found my brother sitting on the couch. I let go of Micah’s hand and sat down next to Jesse.
“I have to tell you something.” I said my voice shaky.
“Sure, go ahead.” I felt like I was going to puke.
“Ummm, I’m pregnant,” I spit out.
“That better be a fucking joke!” he screamed.
I knew this was going to happen, I knew he would flip out.
“Jesse, calm down. We’ll work through this.” I said trying to calm him down.
“Who is the father, I swear I will kill them.” He screamed, his face bright red.
I didn’t want Jesse to kill Micah. I didn’t want to break up a friendship. I would just lie and say I didn’t know, but Micah spoke up before I could say anything.
“It’s me.” Micah said calmly.
“WHAT?” Jesse said. I think this is the maddest I have ever seen him.
“I said it’s me.” Micah stated again.
Jesse jumped up from the couch and pushed Micah. They couldn’t fight because of me. Jesse tackled Micah to the floor.
“HOW DARE YOU? MY LITTLE SISTER?” he screamed. He jumped off of him and started screaming again.
“YOU’RE LUCKY YOU’RE MY BEST FRIEND. THAT’S THE ONLY THING HOLDING ME BACK RIGHT NOW.” He was so mad. I just sat back chewing my nails, not knowing what to say.
“Jesse, listen to me. You’re not the only one who loves Hannah. I love her with all my heart. I have loved her since the day I laid eyes on her. And I promise you, I will take good care of her. Hannah completes me. She makes me feel special. And if you can’t understand that and understand that your best friend and sister are in love, then you have no heart.” Micah told Jesse.
I knew I really loved Micah at that moment. He stuck by my side, he didn’t bail. He loved me for me. And that was all that mattered.
“You guys can just leave. Just leave. GO!” Jesse screamed.
I looked at Micah and he nodded. I stood up and grabbed his hand, we walked up the stairs, and I lost it. I started crying really hard. I couldn’t do this. I loved Jesse and Micah both too much. I opened the door to my room and I grabbed a bag.
“So, I’m staying with you” I asked Micah through the tears. The room was blurry because of the tears. He nodded. I grabbed clothes and we headed down the stairs. I poked my head in the living room one last time before we left and I saw Jesse sitting with his head in his hands. I had never seen him this sad or mad. And I felt so bad about all of it. We walked out the door hand in hand. I was scared to stay with Micah and not see Jesse. I put my seat belt on and fell asleep. I didn’t wake up until we got to Micah’s house.


CHAPTER 6.

Staying at Micah’s house was weird. The first night, I woke up crying, I had a bad dream. I was sweating. My dream was weird. I had a dream me and Micah were riding bikes, in a bright bright park. And I hit a bump. I remember Micah looking at me with a happy look on his face. That’s when I started bleeding all over the bicycle seat. He started panicking and screaming, but nothing was coming out of his lips. He just looked like he was screaming and crying. Everything was mute. That’s when I started to panic too, and my heart started beating really fast. I sobbed, and I could hear my crying, but only my crying. That’s when Micah started laughing, and I could hear his laughter. His laughter and my cries. That’s when I woke up crying, with blood all over me.

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I cried until my eyes were dry. My body was shaking, I wasn’t even crying anymore. I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t know if I was supposed to get up and go to the hospital, or just get in the shower. What did my dream mean? Why am I bleeding? Did I start my period? And the pregnancy test was wrong? I finally decided to shake Micah. He didn’t budge. I just kept shaking him. He finally woke up and looked at me. He saw the blood and jumped up. I knew by looking at him he was panicked. Was he going to panic, and then laugh? Like he did in my dream? He picked me up without saying a word. I had my head leaning on his chest. The only time I ever imagined him carrying me like this was when we got married or when we were happy. Not when we were panicking. I closed my eyes very tight as he walked down the steps. I could feel his struggle going down the stairs. I bounced up and down on every step. I felt like he was going to drop me. He set me in the car and did my seatbelt. I leaned my head against the window. What was happening? It wasn’t a dream this time. I fell asleep until we got to the hospital. We got there and waited for a long time. Finally a doctor was ready to see us. Micah squeezed my hand when we followed the doctor. The doctor explained that this most likely meant I had a miscarriage. I was so sad. I didn’t know what to do with myself. I lay down on the bed and the doctor was doing an ultrasound. He started laughing. He was laughing. What could possibly be funny right now? I looked at the screen, and I saw it. Two peanuts. And I heard their heartbeats. I started crying. It was the most amazing thing I have ever heard. I looked at Micah and he had a grin ear to ear. That was my laughter in my dream. That was the happy ending of my nightmare. But, it wasn’t a nightmare. It was a dream. I couldn’t wait to be a mom. I was going to do a good damn job.


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I think it was time to call Jesse. I think it was time to talk to him. I missed my brother, and I missed my bed after 6 months. 6 months is a long time. And my parents were going to be home soon. I was 8 months pregnant now. There was no hiding it. Micah has been so good, he has helped do everything. He even helped me shave my legs. And tie my shoes. He made me food and gave me back massages. He was the best. I loved him with all my heart. I finally knew what it was like to have someone stick by your side no matter what. My parents never did that. They have always been gone. Micah has been amazing. The only other person I love more is my brother. Me and my brother always relied on each other and supported each other because we didn’t have parents. That’s why I knew it was time. I needed