Forever Lonely by Isabelle Johnson + Kaori Rose (books suggested by bill gates .txt) 📖

set of lockers. My vampire strength came on, denting the lockers. The words from the day I became a vampire rang in my ears.
I lost it all. I can't have it. I'm a monster. I can't ever love again. Never. Kill me. Kill me now. Anyone, just put me out of my misery and pain. Please.

I cried out in misery and pain, as I ran outside of the school, and into the woods.

Aureli

For once the dorm was quiet. Without Gage making pervert comments and Henry yelling and fighting with Gage, everything seemed almost peaceful.
I'd said that I wanted to go to sleep, but what I really wanted was just some peace.
I grabbed the first somewhat pajama clothing, took off the clothes that Mrs. Stalin gave me, and slipped it on.
It turned out to be a silk, gray nightgown that was at least two sizes too small. The hem fell only about three-quarters of the way down my thigh, barely covering my crotch or butt. I tried pulling it down to make it more modest, but the hem just popped back up again. The neckline swooped low, revealing more of my chest than my corset shirt did. Again, if I pulled the hem up, it was not only pull the bottom of the nightgown up, but they would swoop back to place. At least it fit around my stomach at all. But still... Great. The last thing I needed was Henry or Gage to walk in with me looking like a seductress.
Speaking of which, where was Henry? Cracking the door open I peeked into the corridor. No footsteps echoed in the halls. Neither was there the sight of Henry walking this way. The only sound was an echoing scream that rang through the halls and led to an open door. Partly out of curiosity and partly out of concern, I padded down the hallway towards the echoing scream. The scream led me outside in the bitter cold. With a shiver, I drew my arms closer to my chest to try to warm myself up. The wind pierced through the nightgown's thin silk making me shake like a leaf. To one side the park benches lay exposed to the elements, to the other side were the towering trees of the woods. The trees looked nearly black in the night and it seemed as if shadows were drifting silently between the trees.
With a shiver, I started towards the woods. Who was screaming? Why? Am I imagining things? I must be going crazy. Yeah, that's it. Insane. I'm an insane angel-devil...thing, that is dressed like a seductress, and it looks like she's seeking one of her whores. I wandered through the woods. Another cry of pain echoed through my ears, leading me to the source. Henry. He sat on a log, sobbing, his head ducked. His hands were making a meager attempt to cover his tears.
"Henry? A-are you okay?" I asked, shivering.
Henry's sobbing stopped. He wiped his eyes, before looking up at me. His eyes widened, taking in the short hem and low neckline of the dress.
"What the eff are you wearing?" Henry asked, as I sat down next to him.
His hands fingered the hem of the dress, sending chills down my spine. His hands were awfully close to my crotch.
"Stop it. It's all I could find." I said, pushing his hand away from my thighs.
"Okay, how much did Gage pay you to dress like that?" Henry asked.
I was taken back.
"I didn't dress like this for anyone. It was all I could find." I snapped.
"S-sorry." Henry stuttered.
"Why were you crying?" I asked.
Henry sniffled.
"I wasn't crying." Henry said, sitting up straight.
"Liar. Quit the macho act. I don't give a crap about how tough you think you are. You. Were. Crying. Will you tell me why?" I said, leaning against Henry and shivering. "Better hurry up, before I die of hypothermia."
Henry pulled me up.
"Come on. Let's go back to the room. I don't need you dying." Henry said.

After back in my room, covered in a blanket, I laid on Henry's lap, staring into his eyes.
"Come on, it's been an hour, tell me!" I insisted.
"I was...I was thinking about the day I was turned into a vampire. And...a few other things." Henry said, playing with my hair.
"Like what?" I asked.
"You. I was thinking about you." Henry said, after a moment of silence.
"What about me?" I asked, sitting up.
"Nothing. Come on, it's late. We better get to bed-" Henry stopped, looking at his ruined bed.
"You can share my bed with me. Just don't get any ideas." I said.
"I'll try not to take pictures of you while you sleep." Henry joked.
I smacked him. I knew he was playing, but still, that sounds creepy.
After climbing up onto the second bunk, Henry came up, in boxers and a tee shirt. I frowned.
"Sorry. I promise, I won't play around. Just sleep." Henry said, realizing I wasn't comfortable with his pajamas.
"Just sleep." I agreed, letting him in. He curled against me, his warmth far better than the blankets. I fell asleep with Henry's arms around me.

"Aureli, wake up. Aureli!" Henry whispered.
I groaned, opening my eyes. Henry was positioned over me, looking into my eyes, trying hard not to put his weight on, let alone touch my body.
"What?" I asked.
"It's Saturday. Perfect day to replace my bed." Henry said, pulling me up.
"Five more minutes. I'm tired." I said, forcing myself back down. "Please, won't you lay down with me? Just for 5 more minutes?"
Henry sighed, exasperated, before laying down with me. I fingered his shirt, playing with the buttons.
"You're so warm." I said, closing my eyes.
There was a knock at the door.
"Henry, Aureli! Come on! I didn't just sneak out of the infirmary to get ignored!" Gage's voice was impatient, ringing from the door.
"Fine! I won't get ANY sleep!" I cried, falling off the bed. I hit the ground, but felt no pain. I wonder if you just get numb from tiredness. Henry jumped down, helping me up. I threw the door open, to see a bedraggled Gage. He saw my 'seductress' nightgown, and his eyes went wide. I got a shivering sensation, and I shuddered, covering my chest.
"I would say get dressed, but I rather like that nightgown." Gage smirked.
"Oh, shut up, it was the only thing Mrs. Stalin left me." I said.
"Just wait a minute so Henry and I can get dressed." I said, shutting the door in Gage's face. I turned to see Henry, jumping into his jeans, quite literally. He had combed his hair, fixed his shirt, and thrown on a cap. I stalked over to my wardrobe, finding it completely empty. Other than a few switches of fabric, thread, and a few other of my seductress nightgowns, there was a sewing machine. I grabbed a white fabric, which had a design of brown lace, and a few swatches of fake purple roses, and lace. I grabbed a hard fabric, much like jeans, with the design of a zebra. I grabbed some extra pieces of fabric a lilac, a white, and a light brown, sewing them into a fabric wrap around belt. I sewed the zebra fabric into a pair of skinny jeans, setting them aside. I sewed the white brown-lace fabric into a off the shoulder boho top, switching it from the nightgown. I fixed the outfit, adding final touches, like a lace and purple rose collar to the boho top.
I threw on sneakers, before opening the door to see an angry Gage.
"Ready?, or are you going to slam the door in my face again?" Gage snapped.
"Henry! Come on!" I shouted over my shoulder.
"Coming!" Henry said, before being behind me.
Gage grabbed my hand, before taking me down a hall, ignoring Henry.
"You know, I can tell you guys are fighting over me." Gage tugged harder on my arm. "Don't rip my arm out, boy." I said.
"Fine." Gage said.
"Where are we going?" Henry asked.
"I'm hungry, we're going to get breakfast." Gage said.
"You sneaked out of the infirmary, yelled at us to wake the freak up, just so you could get breakfast ?" I asked incredulously.
"Yup. Now come on so I can actually get breakfast before the good stuff is gone." he answered.
I rolled my eyes and sighed dramatically.
Gage's mouth quirked up into a half smile.
Then he did something unexpected.
He leaned over and kissed me full on the mouth, right in the middle of the hall.
I saw Henry stiffened, looking like he was about to pounce on Gage and rip his throat out. I pulled away from Gage as quickly as possible to make sure Henry didn't kill him where he stood. This proved hard because Gage was stuck to me like a piece of Velcro. I hate to say it, I kind of didn't want him to let go either.
After I finally got Gage off of me, Henry said in a voice filled with fake cheeriness,
"Are we going to get breakfast or not?"
"I guess." I answered. My cheeks grew hot for some reason and I stared at the floor. Just before I averted my gaze I saw Gage's smile of victory.
We walked in silence until we reached the cafeteria.
"I'll save us seats. I'm not that hungry, I can go last." Henry proclaimed before walking off in the sea of students.
Gage took my hand, leading me towards the food. I barely noticed what I put on my plate. When I looked down I saw that I had a tower off scrambled eggs on my plate, along with seven pancakes, two pieces of toast, and three pieces of bacon. I sighed and looked around the cafeteria to see where Henry was.
Henry sat next to his friends at the back of the cafeteria. He caught my gaze and waved me over.
I grabbed Gage's hand and dragged him after me despite his whining that he didn't get any eggs or bacon.
Plunking down next to Henry, I placed my plate down. Gage swooped down and took half the mountain of eggs and two pieces of bacon. Henry tentatively picked up the top three pancakes in my pile and starts nibbling on them.
"God, you guys are like my dogs. If you start giving me the puppy face I might just kill myself." I exclaimed.
"Puppy face…funny. Killing yourself…not so much." Henry muffled through a mouthful of pancake.
Gage snorted and made a hacking sound. He coughed, swallowed, and then said, “No need to worry I'm still alive. I haven't choked."
"Not yet." Henry muttered.
Not again. Henry was glaring daggers at Gage, who was inches from strangling Henry. You have to admit, it looked kinda funny.
I cleared my throat.
"Okay, girls, stop fighting. You're gonna break your nails." I said.
I cracked up laughing from their horrified expressions.