In Me by Tiffany Anyel (novels to improve english .TXT) 📖

He hadn’t stopped looking at me since Jenn said his name--he knew what I was thinking. He stares at me saying to Jenn, “Sure.”

I couldn’t even hide my anger, I turn to Paul, “Let’s go. I think I could use one more splash—how about you?” I finally said as I got up, and feeling Lee's eyes on me--I reached my hand out for Paul. He smiles up at me, taking my hand, as we walked to the water
The Heart in me

“Paul stop,” I said laughing as he tossed me, again

, into the water.

Coming up for air I look at him, splashing his face with water. “Hey! Do you want to get thrown in again? Because I’ll do it,” Paul said laughing with me as we played in the water.

We had been playing with each other ever since we got in. I needed a distraction--and Paul gave himself wholeheartedly. I had made a point not to look anywhere else.

I had noticed Sam and John getting into the water earlier, they had swam up to us, we even played chicken. Sam won of course making me and Paul fall back, tumbling into the water.

“Do you know where Jenn and Lee went?” Sam asked looking at everyone. “I think they went to change. Oh look here they come now…” John said as he watched them get into the water.

I couldn’t even bring myself to look their way, “Come on Paul let’s go farther out,” I finally said gesturing to the water.

I needed to go--anywhere but here. I knew I couldn’t stand there waiting for them--or play around with them once they reached us. I didn’t wait for Paul as I began swimming. I didn’t stop until I could barely feel the ground underneath me.

Once I came up for air turning around I realized Paul wasn’t with me. I stand up in the water looking for him, barely able to see anyone from this far out. Oh well, I lay my head back gazing at the stars.

I didn’t release my footing, I didn’t want to get swept away. I finally dunk my head in the water--trying to see if I could see anything below. Definitely not--it was pitch black down there.

Needing air I finally raise my head--seeing Lee as he walked up to me. Rolling my eyes, I dunk my head back in. I didn’t know long I could hold my breath, but I was willing to find out. He was the last person I wanted to see right now.

Feeling like I was about to explode, I finally bring my head back up letting out a deep breath. Meeting Lee’s brown eyes--waiting for me.

“Hey,” he finally said after we had been silently staring at each other for a while. I was tempted to dunk my head back in again

. But I found myself looking away--not responding.

I lay my head back, gazing at the stars. “Kate?” “What Lee?” I finally said looking at the stars. I didn’t even have the energy to sound mad or pissed. I guess I had spent it all earlier on Jenn.

Now I was just… I dunno. I needed peace and quiet. Gazing at the stars seemed to help. “I don’t want to be with her… if that’s what you’re thinking,” Lee finally said sounding nervous for the first time.

Rolling my eyes, I shake my head, stifling a silent laugh. “What Kate?” Lee asked looking at me.

“Then why are you still with her Lee?” I asked sounding as calm as I did before, still not meeting his eyes. “I don’t know. We just haven’t had the ‘talk’ yet… I guess,” Lee said as he shrugged his shoulders. “Okay Lee,” I finally said.

“Don’t do that Kate,” “Don’t do what Lee? Tell you how full of ‘it’ I think you are?” I asked sounding for the first time, how I felt--angry.

I don’t wait for him to respond--lifting my head up, meeting his eyes, “You talk all this shit about me--and how scared

I am, when you… you can’t even tell the girl you’re with

--how you really feel. Who’s scared now Lee?” I finally said staring at him.

“I’m not scared Kate,” Lee said meeting my eyes. I stifle a laugh, “Yes you are Lee! Just admit it--you’re a big fat pussy!

” I finally said as I rolled my eyes at him, laying my head back in the water. Let him suck on that.

I feel hands grab me from underneath, pulling me out of the water, I gasp--meeting Lee’s naked chest. Feeling his arms wrapped around me, his body so close to mine… I could feel every inch of him--I let out a breath.

I look up meeting his eyes, looking down at me. God he was so sexy… I couldn’t even pull away. Swallowing I could feel my heart pounding and I could feel her hot tingle below… wanting

to pull him closer.

I find myself bringing my hands up grabbing his wet hair--kissing him hard

on the mouth. He lets out a breath, hugging me tighter.

I was so mad at him--furious even. But feeling him like this… feeling his hot mouth on me as he pulled my hair, wanting more… I could only give it to him.

I bite his lower lip. “Ow, Kate—that kind of hurt,” Lee said smiling at me, pulling away for the first time, licking his bottom lip. “Good,” I whispered pulling his hair, slowly licking his lower lip with my tongue.

“Damn

Kate...you are so fucking

sexy…” Lee whispered through heavy breaths, never leaving my mouth, as he grabbed my ass, lifting me out of the water.

“I am so…mad at you…right now Lee,” I whispered in between breaths, as I sucked on his lip, kissing him on the mouth, “Furious even...”

I bring my legs around his waist pulling him closer; hugging his shoulders, and grabbing his hair, as I moved my ass against him.

He leans his head back, closing his eyes, letting out a quiet moan. Feeling him squeeze my ass--grinding her closer to him.

I stifle a moan--biting my lip, as I trail hot kisses down his neck, pinching his nipple. He lets out breath, lifting his head, meeting my eyes, as he slightly sits down in the water.

Now that I was sitting on top of him, floating in the water, he brings his hands up, running them through my hair. And never leaving my eyes, he grabs my hair, slowly pulling me closer--kissing me hard

on the mouth.

I could only let out a moan kissing him just as faithfully back. God

I could kiss Lee forever…

Hearing laughter for the first time I pull away, turning my head. Realizing it was from the guys playing around far away--I turn back meeting Lee’s eyes.

And before I let how fucking hot I was for him, screw with my judgment again

, I stand up, pulling away.

“Kate--don’t…,” Lee said, trying to hold on to me as I moved his hands stepping back. “No, I can’t Lee…” I said looking in his eyes, as I finally turned around swimming away.

Finally making it back to the guys, Paul turns to me, “Hey, where did you go?” “Oh… I went for a swim. Enjoying it one last time before I have to go,” I finally said managing a smile.

I hated leaving Lee like that--or having to walk away from him period. But I knew if I would have stayed with him… it would have made it that much harder to leave once reality set in--and Jenn was back in the picture.

I knew he told me he didn’t want to be with her… but he still was. And I just… I couldn’t do that to myself or Jenn. I mean she deserves to know the truth. And me and Lee well we deserve to be happy. And until something changes… I would just have to suck it up.

“There you are!” Jenn said as she finally saw Lee swimming back up to them. I couldn’t even meet his eyes, feeling overwhelmed with all of it--all over again.

I notice Paul look at Lee, then me--putting two and two together. Out of the corner of my eye, I see his expression darken.

Well I couldn’t fool him. And to be honest at this point, I really didn’t care what he thought. I was too tired and emotionally drained.

After we all settle down--probably feeling exhaustion setting in. Paul turns me around, facing him as he wrapped his arms around me, pulling me close, “Are you about ready to get out of this water?”

“I know I am!” Sam replied as I heard water splashing as she walked out. “Me too. I’m right behind you Sam,” Jenn said probably following right behind her. I couldn’t see them, but I heard John also, “I’ll second that!”

Before I could finally respond, Paul leans over whispering in my ear, “Do you want to?” He trails his hands down touching my ass.

“Lee! Are you coming?” I heard Jenn yell, before I could push Paul off--she was already at the shore. And realizing that Lee was somewhere behind us--still in the water, probably watching. I could only pause.

I notice Paul glancing behind me--probably watching him as he begins kissing along my neck. “Lee! Come on!” Jenn shouted sounding mad. Startled by Jenn’s shouting I jump, feeling Paul grab my ass.

“Lee! What are you--“ hearing Jenn let out a gasp, and feeling Paul get yanked off me, I turn seeing Lee slam his fist into Paul’s face, knocking him into the water.

“Lee stop!” I yelled trying to pull him away. He throws my hand off, slamming another fist into Paul’s face.

Lee!” I finally get in front of him, trying to meet his eyes--he didn’t look at me, watching Paul as he stumbled standing up. Paul wipes blood from his mouth--spitting into the water. He looks up staring at Lee.

“Oh my god Lee! Why did you do that!?” Jenn said sounding shocked as she finally made it to us. Paul licks his bottom lip smiling, “Yea Lee… why did you do that?” he said never leaving Lee’s eyes.

“Lee! What the hell is going?!” Jenn shouted as she tried to get his attention, grabbing his arm. Lee didn’t budge staring at Paul--waiting.

Paul smiles at him walking closer, stopping a few feet away, “Why don’t you tell her Lee?” he finally said meeting Lee’s