My Personal Hell on Earth by true.vampire.witch NJS (best motivational books of all time .TXT) 📖

things" I said sounding less tiered then I really felt

"what kinda things?" he asked again

"UGH! Can I please have some alone time!?" I yelled

"sorry sorry calm down" he said not sounding at all sorry but still wanting to know what the things were

The truth is, is that I... I just wasn't sure I could do this anymore I had to leave I had to get away from him I felt safe in his arms but not around him he made me feel so vulnerable and I didn't like it! I had to leave I had to get away from him but I didn't think I could. GOD why did he have to have such a hold on me! WHY? As if the water running down my face wasn't enough tears started to wet my face as well.
Why am I such an IDIOT!! "I feel like a ho" I mummbled to myself.

Again he came to the door and banged on it "Jean is something wrong?" He asked clearly worried

"Go away!" I said through clenched teeth

"Jean what's wrong?" he asked getting close to hystarics

"GO AWAY!" I screeched and I heard him fly and hit the wall and sink to the ground. I hadn't ment to do that but it felt so good.

I heard a voice whisper 'good girl come back to me Elizabeth'

"NO!" I screamed and fell to the floor in the shower as pain ripped throughh my body

And kept repeating "no" as another knock on the door sounded but I couldn't hear it very well it was faint and so was I I heard my name once twice thrice then I heard the door smash to the floor.

I was laying in the shower curled up like a a frightened snake I saw feet and hands that tryed to grab me but I shoved them off of me and kept repeating "No go away not good for you" and I slowly rocked back and forth, back and forth.

"No" he said trying to comfort me but only makeing matters worse couldn't he see he was the cause of this? He made me feel I didn't wanna feel I couldn't aford to feel

I'm worth nothing I never have been worth anything to anyone no ones cared much about me ever no one has ever really loved me Ben didn't even love me it was just I wasthenonly girl there that he could aford to get close to without worrying about her being killed he didn't care I was just convinient. He never did care and never will.

With that thought on my mind I slid withing myself and hid from him, from what I was supposed to do, from everything and everyone I was in my own world gone of evil and hurt just me how I liked it how I've always really liked it if people had left me alone at school no friends no jerks I would be fine I wish people would just leave me alone and I wish they always did.

No one cares about stupid fugly Jean and no one ever will.

He shut the water off and put a towel over me then picked me up and layed me in bed. He layed next to me telling me it's ganna be okay over and over again.

I started to warm up as soon as he touched me I couldn't help it he was amazeing I looked up at him and just stared I got lost deep in his eyes, I just wanted to dive into them and never leave again I snuggled close to him relaxeing calming as he ran his fingers up and down my back and through my wet hair I fell asleep again feeling safe and vulnerable at the same time.

I woke up calm and collected I stood up quickly snatching up my towel and got dressed he was stil sleeping I went to the couch and layed ther for a while thinking, dreaming, hopeing, wishing all the things I should really stop doing I turned myself so I was on my side and went back to sleep wearing a T-shirt and boxers I sighed deeeply as I went back into what I hoped would be quiet bliss.

I was wrong.

I was in a beautiful clearing in the woods smileing at the sounds and smells of nature then almost as soon as my shoulders relaxed I heard a noise exactly behind me I thought it would be a normal one of my dreams where one of the "OMG! HE'S SO SEXY!" guys that I normaly snaped at and was rude to.

I smiled in antisipation but I could sence it before I could smell it, the hairs on the back of my neck stood up and evey inch of my body was screaming at me to run until my lungs gave out but I was rooted to the spot. I was not in control of my body, then I smelled it the awful stench of death, lost souls and stollen ones I could here their screams and plead for freedom which I new would never come to them.

"Hello my little Elizabeth How are we tonight?" he spoke as if it came from many voices in many directions.

So the coward did not come alone, scared of me I'm sure.

He chuckled as the stench of him wrapped itself aroud my body makeing me feel dirty almost at once.

"Now Elizabeth you do not believe that i am frightened of you do you?" he asked already knowing the answer

I most deffinately did not believe that he was in the slightest bit scared of me but I was only trying to calm myself down from the scream that was building in the very core of my being.

He now laughed damn him to Hell.

"Been there done that" he spoke now with a smokey suductive tone.

Did I just think HIS voice was suductive? BARF!

"Now, now Elisabeth no need to be rude" he said with uterly fake sadness

"Stop reading my mind and I won't be rude to someTHING such as yourself!" I said with a sweet sarcastic smile painted on my face.

He just shook his head I couldn't see it because I was still faceing away from THE DEVIL HIMSELF but I could sure as Hell exists feel the evil swis from side to side as he moved it.

"Now you see that is what I mean." I was lifted off the ground and turned to face him he looked even worse then he smelled his voice SO did not match his smell or looks but then again he's probably stealing the voice of one of the mortal souls he claimed inside him.

As I examined him I could see the souls moving in agony in his stomach see them stretch his skin trying to escape his face was not human it looked like a skull with skin strtched over it that didn't belong while bugs crawled in and out his eyes sunken into his head tongue like a snake horns like a mountin goat twisting and turning skin so black it wasnt even a color that existed in the normal wold.

I floated above ground for a little while then was dropped to my knees as he told me what to do.

"Call me master!" he commanded in a voice never riseing.

"No" I said simply and indifferent

He slapped me hard leaving my skin burning where he had hit it. "Do as I say" he said sounding more animal than his human smoky voice

"NO! you are not my master never were and never shall be!" I said biting through the pain of my face

He bent down and whipered in my ear "The more you strugggle the more it will pain you my love"

"UGH! my love, again i say BARF!" I said laughing

He slapped me again but this time he liggered leaving a heated but not burning spot on my cheek.

I tasted blood I spit it out at him he laughed and dipped his fingersin it and then tasted it. THE SON OF A BITCH TASTED MY BLOOD!

"mmm" he said savoring it "you taste very good better then normal perhapes it's the age i have never been able to find you so quickly."

"I probably taste like a pissed bitch who's ganna figure out how to kill you!" I spoke through clenched teeth and blood

"Oh Jean you make me laugh! You cannot kill me it will break the balance of good and evil; the world would go spiraling into chaos. And on the contrary you taste sweet such as butterscotch or peaches or perhaps the boy toy of yours is correct you do taste a bit like cotton candy"

I was still shocked that he called me why real name finaly but when he said boy toy I screamed bloody murder and sat straight up on bed still screaming at the very though of Ben being a "boy toy" made me sick boy toys were nothingbut men who didn't care what happened to them and slept with women for fun as far as I knew he hadn't slept with anyone ESPECIALLY not me i think i would have remembered that one. Even if he had slept with someone I didn't care.

Ben was up so fast and had me in his arms before I could take my first breath to continue screaming.

He held me tight never letting up till I calmed down at the very least enough for him to ask what was wrong. "What happened what's wrong?" he said kind of freaking out.

God I didn't wanna talk about it I wanted distraction I wanted him to figure out a way to distract me "KISS ME!" I said to him wanting to melt into him to feel the heat pulse from his body to distract me.

He ignored me and continued to ask me what was wrong and what happened and rocking back and forth with me in his arms.

I couldn't take it I knew i promised myself not to do this but I had to break the promise. I used my mind control power to make him do whatever I wanted but I havn't been practicing and I hadn't gotten any better at it but a split second was all I needed and it's what I got.

He bent and kissed me so easily so natural he felt to me my mind went blank just as I hoped it would.

He pulled back as soon as my milisecond do what I want was up, damn. He touched my cheeck gentaly ad traced the handprint that must have gone to my body not just my dream body. When I realized what he was doing it was to late to pull away I felt control slip from me and go to him.

"now" he spoke as if he wasn't forceing me to tell him "what happened that made you scream your head off?"

I told him everything from what he looked like what he did and what he said to me Ben was shakeing he was so pissed.

"How long has that son of a bitch been watching us?" he was struggling to control his rage

"I don't know now will you help me forget please just humer me. Kiss me please!" I was desperate to forget and it was noticable in my voice and face and eyes.

He looked at me