Love Grows In The Dark Eli Lowe (love story novels in english TXT) 📖

“I want you to reject me, mate.”

Episode 29

Summer's P.O.V

Everything around me stopped for the moment. I could not hear any sound from the other end of the call for the time being as Kazan became completely silent after what I had just asked him to do. As if he could not even believe his own ears.

I looked up to see him again from the distant but he seemed standing even farther away from me than ever. My words froze Kazan completely. He just kept standing at his place with his unmoving body, holding the phone against his ears, hoping that he might have misheard.

The evening breeze came to embrace both of us at this moment, but strangely it could not ease away the pain of our heart at all.

My cheeks started to overflow with the same warm streams once again but the hurt did not lessen even for a bit.

“What did you say?” At last, he spoke up but I could clearly see that he was still unable to move as if he got totally trapped in-between time.

“Reject me mate.” I said again using the last bit of strength that I had left. No, I did not let my voice tremble, neither did I let him have any kind of idea about the already crumbled heart of mine which was still taking just one name, of my mate, Kazan...hoping that it might not have to shatter ever so cruelly.

Yes, somewhere deep within my heart I still kept hoping to see my dream life with my mate turn into a reality, even when I knew that I must let him go...I must end his miseries which were caused due to me, unknowingly.

“No.” Suddenly, Kazan's deep voice came from the other end of the call, shocking me completely about the fact that he still wanted me to stay with him even after I did so bad to him. I kept him in the dark... I deprived him of each and every opportunity to be with his mate happily like any other couples... I did not even let him know who was his mate actually. And even after he agreed with each of my conditions in order to love me only, in whatever way he was left with, still, I chose to leave him at the end and that too without even telling him a single reason. I proved myself the cruellest one indeed, but how could he still want me the same way as before?

If I compare, it was me who had hurt him even more than he ever did to me, let alone the fact that he did not even know that I was his mate, while I knew.

I had always seen him as the most ruthless one, but I could not say the same any more. Cause if I look now, I am the most ruthless while Kazan was far and far away from the word cruel.

But why?

Why he was so stubborn and not letting me leave him even after all these?

What else he was looking to get from me?

Could he not see how selfish I am?

“Please. You have to. I can see no other choice. So you must reject me, Kazan.” I was so involved in persuading him that I even forgot one thing..., that I was not supposed to let him realise the very fact that I knew his name...that I knew who he was. And that was my first mistake. But little did I knew that destiny had already started to play games with me right now. And I was yet to do a few more mistakes today for which I was going to regret for the rest of my life.

“You know me? You know my name?” Even before I could realise what truth I had just revealed unconsciously due to the sudden tensed up moment, he did not fail to catch my words without the need to wait for any other second. His voice was still deep as ever, but it appeared a bit of menacing to me right now. As if he was asking me how could I betray him like this? How could I make him stay in the dark, even when I knew who he was the whole time?

“I... I did not know at first, but...” I started to stutter as I could not think what to say to Kazan which would be enough reason for him to understand why I did such a thing.

But the truth was, I had no excuses to tell him.

“Am I that bad, mate? Am I not good to you in whatever way you know me from your actual life, that you even want to make me go away? Forever?” He said in his unshakable voice but I knew how hard he was breaking right at this moment. And so was I.

“No. You are very good, mate. But it is me. I am the worst one. And I really feel that I do not deserve to be with you. Actually, I do not deserve to be with anyone. And that is why you need to reject me, Kazan.” I was trying hard not to let the tears betray me anymore but it seemed that they were meant to betray from the very beginning, cause not for a single once tears stopped to flow down from my eyes, making my vision totally blurry.

“Listen to me, mate. I will never reject you, no matter what. You don't have to come to meet me if you don't want to, but I will never stop hoping that you would come one day. You don't even have to tell me who you are actually, but you just could not force me to reject you as my mate.

I did wait for you before, and I will keep doing the same.

Cause I know that I had found