Love Grows In The Dark Eli Lowe (love story novels in english TXT) 📖

naked human form right after, without losing his grip on me even for a little bit.

Yes, Kazan was indeed strong in both his human and wolf form. He was even stronger than me, cause I was really struggling to make myself free. Even when he had already shifted back.

“Shift.” His deep yet loud voice made me tremble, anticipating the worst. But the only thing I knew at this moment was that, no matter what, I just can not shift back. Not now.

But seeing me with no sign to listen to him at all, he shouted again,

“Shift back. Dammit. Or else we will stay here like this forever, but don't you dare to think ever again that I am going to let you leave like before.

You broke your promise.

So what if I break it too?”

Episode 30

Kazan's P.O.V

I was sitting in the canteen area of our school with others but as if I was not at all there with them. My mind kept running here and there with no intention to rest, no matter how hard I try, as I just could not figure out the reasons for all those things that had been happening to me recently.

I just could not get what wrong did I do to my mate that she does not even want to be with me, neither she intends to reject me herself?

Why did she keep asking me to reject her instead?

It is not that I would let her go even if she takes the initiative to reject me but still, what was she thinking? And why?

In this life, I want no one but her only.

And she must understand that. She must understand my heart. But how could I make her understand all those feelings that I feel for her, when she always does nothing but runs away from me, giving me not a single chance to make her believe how much I love her.

I do not even care who she is actually, but how could I make her rely on me just for a little bit?

And the main thing was, she knew me all the time when I was totally unaware who she was. And I am, even now.

Who could my mate be?

I just wanted to find her out, so that she could never leave me just like the last time and even before the last time.

I was really struggling inside, thinking about what should I do? It seemed like nothing works out when it comes to her. No matter what, it seemed that I just could not convince my mate even for a little bit.

Why is she so stubborn?

I kept thinking while not a single word came to my ears whatever others were talking about.

“What is bothering you, Kazan?” Markus interrupted my thoughts in between, causing me to turn my eyes to him. It seemed that he was concerned about me as well, but even if he was, I just could not tell him what I was thinking.

“Nothing.” I replied as I had nothing to say to him.

Even if I wanted to tell, then what should I say? That my mate doesn't want me? That I had found my mate at last but lost her again? That I was so naive to promise her to stay unknown to each other just because she asked me to? Just because I wanted to love her only in whatever way she wanted me to? What was even there to tell him? That I had never seen my mate whom I met a few times already? That I do not even know her name?

So, I had decided to keep it inside me, as always, cause it was the only thing I am best at.

Yes, keeping everything inside me.

“Are you sure?” Even when I answered him already, still he wanted to ensure.

“Yes.” I just nodded.

But the truth was that I was not at all okay. My heart kept shattering ever so slowly and quietly, letting me feel the pain bit by bit ever so menacingly, so that I could suffer for long.

Fate is indeed cruel to me.

And I was completely sure of that, at least now, when I had already experienced what happened to me a few days back.

Yes, it's been a few days now since I last held my mate in-between my arms. But still, I could not get to see her face that day, still, I do not know who she is.

****Flashback****

The shining rays of the morning sun fell on my skin while the bright daylight kept disturbing me in my sleep, ever so playfully.

I tossed and turned but nothing could save me from the sudden annoyance. And at last, the sun rays had succeeded indeed, in their own act of awakening me in no time, forcing my eyes to open unwillingly.

Last night, it was the best sleep ever in my life till now, as I had always gone through the innumerable sleepless nights before, no matter how much I tried not to.

But last night was different.

The hard, dirty and cold ground of the wood could not even bother me enough as my mate's warm body helped me enough to doze off to sleep even though I did not want to. Last night, as far as I remember, her soft wolf body covered with the fluffy fur was all I kept holding in between my arms all night, while I was lying naked against her, under the cold night sky.

I felt a lot of sparks all over my body which kept enhancing all the desire inside me to have her all at once as mine.

Yes, she did not shift back no matter how many times I had asked her to, last night. She struggled for long, to get herself out of my hold but I made sure