Color Us Crazy by brea isomee (the chimp paradox .txt) 📖

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I was laying in Rodney's arms on the living room floor , wrapped in covers , naked .

I felt myself heat up . Yes , we had sex but that doesn't mean i wanted him to see me naked ! God .

I remember i used to say no sex till marriage , where did that go ? Shit , sex felt too good to not keep doing it . I was hoping that it wouldn't always hurt so bad the morning after .

Rodney wrapped his arms tighter around me and pulled my body closer to him in his sleep . I looked up at his face . Gawd !

He is so cute when he's sleeping . He looks so angelic , something i bet that will never change . He's got a baby face , i think . His features sit just right on his face . Perfect .

" what the hell is this ?" I heard my mother say .

Wait , my mother . . . .

I didn't even know she was home , nor did i hear the front door open .

I tried to sit still hoping maybe she'd think i was sleep and just go away . I didn't want to have to explain anything to her . She's my mother and i tell her a lot about me and all but , she'd lose it if i told her i'd just had sex . But i guess with what she was seeing it was obvious what i had done .

" i'll ask again , " i heard a big thump and my mother screamed " what the HELL is this ?!"

Rodney jumped pulling away from me . He rubbed sleep from his eyes and looked at me " what's with all the yelling , babe . Go back to sleep ."

" um , " i mumbled ." that wasn't me ."

He looked at me sideways and then sat up to see my mother " M , it's not what it looks like ."

" It's not what it looks like ?! Well let me tell you what it looks like : it looks like you been fucking my daughter in my house , it looks like you both are butt ass naked , it fucking looks like you're about to lie to me . I don't like being lied to , Rodney . I don't . Now , speak ."

I sat up next to him , making sure to cover my body with the sheet that Rodney was covering himself with as well .

" mom , "

" no , i want to hear this lil boy right here talk . He came into my house , seduced my daughter when i wasn't even here and now he has the nerve to fucking be quiet . Now , Rodney , speak ."

Rodney sighed and ran the palm of his hand down his face " i was , we were just . . . . aight , we had sex . I mean , she's my girlfriend , i mean , i love her and , i don't know . What happened , happened ."

" is that all you have to say for yourself ?"

" yeah . I love your daughter , and there's nothing wrong with sex ."

" You know what ?" my mother looked around the room and threw all of Rodney clothes in his face " get the fuck out of my house ! When i come back i want you gone ."

My mother exited the room and a few seconds later i heard the front door slammed shut .

I looked at Rodney " if you go , i go ."

" nah , " he stood up and began dressing and i followed his lead " you staying . That's your mother . And she's just pissed off right now . I don't blame her . You're her daughter babe , you stay , i go ."

" i'm going , and there is nothing you can do about it ."

I ran to my room and put on a pair of jeans , by the time i made it back to the front door Rodney was slipping on his jacket . I did the same .

" Trinity , just listen to me for once , listen to me . . . go back to your room , babe . I'll see you at school tomorrow , don't go today . Just take the time to chill and figure shit out , okay ? I love you , whether you feel the same or not . . . . i love you ."

The door closed in my face .

I love you too , i thought . But i couldn't say the words aloud .

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-Rodney-

Days passed .

More than one .

More than two .

More than three .

It was about a week . I didn't go to school , didn't answer any calls that came through on my cellphone .

The apartment was always empty for some reason . I don't know why . My mother , nor father , Marcus , nor Raven either , were ever there . I didn't care though . I needed that time to myself to think and reflect on shit . Trinity was it for me , really it for me , and though i kissed Alexis that night at the hospital , that wasn't anything . The sex with Trinity was beyod amazing too , i guess it was because i really loved her .

I wasn't tripping , though i did feel bad for not speaking to Trinity at all , i knew that when i popped up that she'd be there for me and we'd carry on like nothing ever happened .

Hopefully .

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-Trinity-

" Happy birthday !" Tammy screamed as i walked through the school doors once again .

It was my 19th birthday and i should have been happy but , everything was so dull .

I mean , it felt like Rodney was ignoring me like i was a leech that would just attach on to him and suck all the blood from him . Now that hurt . And not only that but i had to go to school everyday and be face to face with Devon who sometimes gave me a sad look but other times he'd just tauntingly smirk at me . He was confused , i still hadn't forgotten what he'd done .

It was annoying though .

And then Ivory still hadn't spoken to me . If you ask me , i though the girl was tripping ! She was supposed to be my best friend and all but she was acting like i was her worst fucking enemy for no reason . I did nothing wrong to her . I couldn't figure it out .

My mother was acting weird too , giving me looks like i was a hoe or something .

Despite all that though , i had set my mind on having a good birthday , no matter what .-Trinity-

I stood in front of the class with my essay in front of my face . I was , nervous , i felt like everyone was looking at me , well , they were !

I sighed in frustration , i'm the worst public speaker , ever !

" what am i , or better yet , who am i . " i began to read " my name is Trinity . I'm just a simple girl but so more complex . Only a few know me , but i know for a fact that everyone judges me . I'm not conceited , nor am i a copy of any one . I'm - i'm , " my words were caught in my throat . The classroom door opened slowly and Rodney walked in looking like he hadn't slept in days , like he could barely stand up on his own tow feet , but some how , he managed a smile " i'm in love . . . . " i said .

I sped through the rest of the essay .

It was supposed to be heartfelt and it was , that's why i didn't want to read it in front of the class ! I felt like i would cry if i really took the time to even read it .

I was just , eager . And i don't know why . I'd wanted to see Rodney so bad but i felt a sudden flash of anger as i sat down in my chair that was in front of him .

He hadn't called me or came to see me in over a week and he just shows up on my birthday looking like shit .

" happy birthday baby girl , " he whispered in my ear and kissed the side of my neck .

I felt tingles run throughout my body but i tried to ignore it . My anger was slowly melting away though and i couldn't help it .

-Rodney-

I was still asking myself over and over why i went to school .

My brain was thumping beyond belief , my body was starved and shit , i was just worried . But i had to see Trinity no matter what . Escpecially on her birthday . I felt wrong not seeing or talking to her in a week . It felt like my head would explode at any minute .

" baby , " i kissed her neck again " we need to talk ."

" about what Rodney ?!" She snapped " what could we possibly have to talk about ."

" us . I love you . I know we haven't talked and , i'm sorry about that . I just needed time to myself to think . And i thought about- "

" thought about what ?! How you don't want to be with me ?"
" no , i thought about - "

" how i'm not worth the trouble ?"
I slammed my fist on the desk " no , Trinity ! Listen to me ! I thought about . . . about you moving in with me . OKAY ? I know it's stupid and i know you don't love me but i thought that . . . . i don't know . I just figured . . . it was a dumb idea . Forget i said anything ." I stood up " i've got to go . I'll see you when i see you ."

-Rodney-

I felt Trinity grab ahold of my hand as i brushed past her desk . I stopped in my tracks . I know that i shouldn't have asked her to move in but , shit was pretty lonely . I wasn't trying to force anything on her , i just . . . . should have kept my mouth shut .

" Rodney , " she whispered " don't go , please ."

It took everything i had to snatch my hand from her's . I think it hurt me more that it might've hurt her . But , i was just