His Sanity by Mirah Selim (great book club books .txt) 📖

Author Pov

Catelin glared at the man above her before giving a hard tug to his chest which felt like a light tap. He couldn't help but chuckle at her angry expressions.

"I am done with your nonsense Lucifer. One second you are all ok and the next second you all change. I can't keep on behaving like your continuous changing doesn't affect me." She said raising her voice a little.

Lucifer sighed heavily trying to control his anger. He knew what he was doing to her, she doesn't deserve it but he had no other idea but to hide deep. He can't come out. He just can't.

"Just accept us Catelin. Stop fighting yourself. Your feelings. Just stop it! And accept the way we are." He repeated the words the normal Lucifer said a while ago and Catelin couldn't help but stare at him with shock.

Indeed it wasn't DID anymore. It can't be. He shouldn't remember the things other personalities said. But he does remember everything which means he doesn't have DID.

Dr Steward was right. There is something else that they couldn't point out what it is. She knew one thing she needed to talk to Dr Steward as soon as possible.

Lucifer sighed watching her looking at him with shocked eyes. He placed his rough palm on her soft cheek caressing it using his thumb.

"We love you, darling. Everyone buried inside me adores you." He said leaning down and this time her breath got caught in her throat as he stared in her green orbs while decreasing the distance between them.

"We all love you. We are addicted to you. You are a part of our soul darling. Just accept us." He whispered letting his nose brush against her crook making her breathe out unevenly.

He was trying to manipulate her and it was obvious. Her body shivered feeling his lips against her flesh. He kept on whispering to accept the way he is. But soon her senses came back making her gasp out when he took her flesh between his teeth giving it a hard bite.

"NO!" She exclaimed loudly pushing him harder this time. Lucifer tried balancing himself but ended up on the floor with a loud thud.

Catelin stood up taking few steps back. Her face was full of anger while Lucifer clenched his jaw in anger as well. He was too much in rage because of her continuous pushing him away.

But what anger him more was her being so weak in front of normal and child Lucifer while him. Whenever he appears all he gets is her curses or hatred. Why? Why can't she behave softly with him?

He stood up from the floor and glared at her only to earn the same intensive glare from her as well. Her heart was thumping against her chest. She had no idea why but this side of Lucifer always scares her.

The side she met a few minutes ago makes her weak. She always gives up whenever that side appears. Child Lucifer melts her away. But this side. It just scares her to her core.

"Don't you dare to touch me again!" She seethed making him let out a dark chuckle.

"Just a few minutes ago you let that coward kiss you but I can't touch you. We both have the same face. The same body then what the fuck is your problem?" He growled loudly taking steps closer to her.

She almost flinched in fear hearing his growl but maintained herself. Even though she was scared out of her wits but she refused to show it to him.

"You! You and your disgusting behaviour is my problem. I let him kiss me because I know that was the Lucifer I knew. I want him back! I don't want you or that child Lucifer. I want only my Lucifer back."

This burnt his insecurity higher as he bit his lip while clenching his fists. Catelin blinked multiple times taking a step back in fear. His body started trembling in anger.

His eyelids darken and she could see that her words added fuel to fire. She mentally cursed herself for not being able to shut up. This is not the way you talk with a mentally sick person.

"L-Lucifer lis---"

"You don't want me!" He seethed out through his gritting teeth making her gulp in fear. Still glaring at her without blinking he started taking slow yet dangerous steps towards her making her step back.

"You want him! That coward bastard! He made us! He ran away! And you want him! HE CAN'T EVEN PROTECT YOU THAT'S WHY HE MADE ME. AND YOU WANT HIM! HIM!" She gasped out taking multiple steps back in fear.

His growling dropping her heart to her stomach. She couldn't help but think about his words. He made him? Because he couldn't protect her? Coward?

"You can't get rid of me. That coward will never be able to live without me." She flinched when her back came in contact with the edge of the dining table.

She yelped out in fear when he slammed his both palms beside her on the table trapping her completely. She snapped her head up and instantly felt like crawling under the table just to hide away from the angry beast in front of her.

"I dare you to say that again." She knew what he was asking her to say. They both stared into the eyes of each other. For a second she thought he might cool down but no. There was no chance of him cooling down. He was kept on glaring at her.

"SAY IT!" She flinched closing her eyes when he roared right on her face.

"What am I even asking from you Catelin? Just for you to accept the way I am. Is it so hard for you to forget that coward and accept us? To accept the way he had become." Hearing his words she opened her eyes only to find him staring at her intensely.

She could see he was trying his best to not lash out at her. To hurt her. Taking a deep breath he again placed his palm on her cheek caressing it softly.

"I don't want to do something I might regret afterwards. Just remember Catelin. You can't get rid of us. Just accept us." He calmly said trying to control his anger.

Catelin glared at him and pushed his hand away. Which didn't fail to anger him once again.