Standing Close To The Edge(Finished) by Danielle Palmer (best summer reads txt) 📖

the office so I could tell them I was moving out. They didn't make me pay my rent this month cause I was moving. It ended up being a good thing I was only a couple apartments away from the office. We had to run from the office to my apartment while the 3 security guard guys tried to hold the girls back. We ran up the stairs and straight into my apartment.
“That was scary.” I said through breaths. She nodded and looked out the window. They were all down below holding up their signs and chanting. She took out her phone and started videoing it. “This is not ok.” She said mainly to herself as she sent it took Liam. I sighed and sat on the couch. “Do you think I should even go anymore?” I asked as she sat next me to. “Don't let them get you down. It happened when I started dating Liam but after he told everyone he was happy they left me alone. Just give it time. People will love you like we do soon.” Right when she was finished her phone went off and she looked at it.
“Do you have a twitter?” She asked after a second. I nodded and told her it was 'Adrian_Johnston'. She grabbed my laptop of the coffee table and told me to get on twitter. I didn't understand why but didn't argue. When I was signed in I had a new follower. “I am now a Adrian Johnston follower.” Danielle said as she took my computer. I smiled and shook my head. After a couple minutes of whatever she was doing she handed me it back. “And so are Liam, Harry, Niall, Louis and Zayn. Look at this.” She pointed to my followers and they started to go up.
“Listen to what Zayn posted. 'I thought you guys wanted me to be happy? So if she is what makes me happy why are all of you hating on her? She doesn't deserve it.' ” My eyes widened. Why would he tell his fans off for me? “He isn't going to lose fans is he?” I asked worried. She instantly shook her head and pointed to the comments. 'We support you Zayn.' and other things like 'If you're happy. We're happy.' were posted on his post. There was over 1000 comments already.
“Well let's get you packed. It's already 2 in the morning.” My eyes widened and right on cue we both yawned. She helped me off the couch and we walked into my room. I grabbed my huge suitcase from the top of the closet and laid it on the bed. Then my small duffel bag for my shoes. “All my clothes will fight in this and my shoes in the duffel bag.” She nodded and went to closet while I went to my small dresser in the corner. When I was done with folding them and putting them in the suitcase she was still doing the closet. “My aunt get's up for work at this time. Ima go call her.” She nodded and I went into the hallway.
She finally answered after the 4th ring. “Aunty will you and John do me a huge favor?” I asked as I crossed my fingers. She was my only hope. “Sure. What is it love?” Oh thank god. “Can you guys come tomorrow and get my stuff from my apartment and put it in your spare bedroom?” It sounded like she was talking to someone in the background before she answered. “Sure baby girl. I'll have your cousin and all his friends do it. Why do you need us to?” She sounded concerned and I understood why. She knew my situation and has given me money many times. “I'm just going with a friend to follow a boy band.” She sighed which caused me to laugh. I thanked her and hung up.
“Danielle she said yes!” I yelled as I walked into my room. She got up and hugged me before laying back down on the bed. She had managed to pack all my clothes and my shoes. Thank god I didn't have to do it. I always sucked at packing. She helped my moving the bags into the living and then I let her shower. When she was done showering I got in. After I got out she was already asleep on my bed so I went and laid in the living room. Right when my head hit the pillow I fell asleep without a thought of cutting.

We had slept in until 1 in the afternoon on accident. Around 3 my cousin came with is friends and cleared out my apartment. It only took them an hour and right after they left we got our stuff and left to. Instead of renting a car me and Danielle road with the security guys. It was kinda awkward at first but we just kept to ourselves. We stopped at a gas station on the way out of town for tea. 5 hours later we were pulling up to the stadium they were currently singing in. We decided to just wait on the bus because they only had one song left to sing. The driver took both my bags and put them in the luggage department on the side of the bus.
“Finally.” I muttered as we climbed on the bus and sat at the little round table. “That was a very awkward road trip.” Danielle said as she drank what was left of her tea. I agreed and leaned back with my head on the window. “Can we tweet a picture?” She asked a few minutes later. I laughed and nodded. She pulled out her phone and we both fixed our hair. My long black hair was in a high pony tail and her's was curly. We took a few pictures and choose our favorite one. We both were blowing kiss with our eyes closed. She posted it on tweet and wrote 'We made it! #OfficallyOnTour' for the caption. A lot of people started commenting and re-tweeting it.
We heard talking and looked out the window just as the guys were coming out of the building. You could hear the screaming of the fans as they walked toward them. Harry was the first one to run on the bus. “Hey ladies.” He yelled as he sat next to me. “Still hyped up I see.” I said as he started tapping his fingers on the table. “Harry come sign a few autographs before we go.” Niall yelled from outside the bus. I wondered why the rest of the guys weren't on the bus yet. Harry grabbed my wrist and I kept from wincing when he put pressure on the newer cuts. He pulled me with him off the bus as I pulled Danielle. When we got out Harry went running towards the gate while me and Danielle stayed by the bus door.
“Dang do none of these girls have bed time?” Danielle said as she laughed. I shurgged and laughed with her. We watched as the guys went down the row taking pictures, doing autographs, and even hugging people. A few minutes later Paul told them we had to leave so they started towards the bus. Me and Danielle climbed on and sat back down at the table. Zayn sat next to me and Liam sat next to Danielle while the other three sat on the couch. “Paul can we stop and get food before we leave?” Niall yelled up to the front. I laughed and shook my head at him.
“We're stopping at a gas station right outside the city.” Paul yelled back. Niall smiled and yelled a quick thank you back to him. I glanced at Zayn and noticed he was looking at me. He smiled at me and I smiled back. “Is anyone else hot?” Liam said as he pulled off his long sleeve plaid shirt off and revealed his plain white shirt. Everyone else started taking off there long sleeved shirts but Louis cause he was already wearing one. Danielle looked at me when she started to take off her jacket but realized I couldn't so she kept it on. I sighed in relief and silently thanked her.
We goofed around and talked until we got to the gas station. While everyone else went into get something I stayed outside and decided I should call my mom back. She had called me about 20 minutes ago but I didn't want to answer. Not even one ring went by before she answered. She sounded drunk and like she had been crying for hours. “Mom.... Hello? …. Mom?” I thought she had hung up on me at first but she had just dropped the phone. “I- I need money. Todd left me and took all my money.” She stuttered into the phone. I swear I could spell the alcohol through the phone. “What do you want me to do about it?” I asked. She had no right to ask me for money.
“Give me money. You're my daughter!” She yelled into the phone. “I'm not your daughter remember? Never was. Never will be.” I whispered as the tears slide down my face. She continued to screaming things into the phone as I hung up. Never have I ever wanted to cut so bad in my life. When I noticed they were coming out the store I whipped my face with my sleeve and put my phone in my purse. “I'm going to the bathroom then we can go.” They all nodded except for Danielle and I could tell she was on to me. “I'll go with you.” She said as she handed her drink to Louis and asked him to take it to the bus for her. I gritted my teeth, turned, and walked into the store.
Once we were in the bathroom I turned back towards her. “I don't need a babysitter.” I said harshly. I really didn't mean to but I could have come by myself. “What's wrong?” She asked as I rummaged through my purse. I looked at but looked back down before I answered. “Everything.” I whispered as fresh tears slide down my cheeks. “I just need to forget.” I finished as I pulled out my savior. Before I could even move Danielle was by my side yanking it out of my hands and shoving it in her pocket. That was the only one I had. The others were in my suitcase. “You can forget some other ways. You have to stop.” She walked in to a stall, through my razor into the toilet and flushed it.
“I'm trying to help you. If you don't try to this will never work.” With that, she walked out the bathroom. I ran to the stall but it was already gone. “Fuck!” I grabbed my purse off the floor and walked out the bathroom. When I climbed on the bus there was music playing and everyone was singing. Maybe this was how I could forget. I sat on the couch next to Niall and joined in with the singing. Danielle smiled at me and I could tell she knew this was me forgetting. That's what I'll have to do from now. Sing whenever I feel like I'm going to break.
When the song was over Paul came back and told us to go to bed. The beds were little cubbyholes in the wall of the sides of the bus. They were stacked with three on top of each other on both sides. Me and Danielle got the bottom cubbyhole. Zayn got the one above me and Liam got the one above Danielle. Harry above Zayn and Niall above Liam. Louis slept in the back room on the round couch where the tv was. We joked around for a little bit but slowly everyone started falling