His Sanity by Mirah Selim (great book club books .txt) 📖

Author Pov

Lucifer jerked her waist forward making her tighten her grip around his neck as their noses brushed against each other. The distance was incredibly less. Catelin gulped seeing the obvious anger and possessiveness in his eyes.

"It's not like that." She tried to explain as she was slightly shivering as well because of the cold. Both of them were completely wet but the way he had pulled her completely in his embrace had warmed her a little.

"Then what the fuck is like huh!" He growled making her flinch in his arms. He grabbed the back of her neck and jerked her face closer to him making her gulp as her lips were now brushing against his cold ones.

"You wanted to know about his past so you could cure him. But doll you forgot that you can't get rid of me ever. I wouldn't let this happen. He made me because he's a coward. A poorly weak man. He can't live without me. He can't protect you without me." He seethed on her face making her shiver at how dark his tone was.

The moment Lucifer started telling her about the past aggressive side of his wanted to overpower his senses and stop him but there was something in him that didn't give up. Determination.

He was determined to tell her everything and for the first time from the time they came to this city he controlled that aggressive mind of his but couldn't do so for long as the aggressive side of his lost its every limit.

Catelin felt anger entering in her veins she was angry hearing his words. How can he call himself a coward when he knows he's just traumatized and scared? He's insecure and she needs to remove this insecurity of his. Which she knows is extremely hard.

She can't just comfort him and tell him to remove his insecurity through words. She needs to prove to him that he can be cured and that only he can do so. But this bitchy psycho side of his had too much power over his senses.

The way he called himself coward she knew he wanted to add to his fear of being weak and kept on relying on this psycho side of his. For a minute she wanted to yell at his face but no she will not do this stupidity again.

Care and obedience. These two are the only actions that can control this side of him.

She slowly pulled her one arm away from his neck making him grit his teeth as he thought she wanted to push him away. His grip on her waist tightened in warning that he wouldn't leave her and Catelin understood.

She sighed placing her palm on his wet cheek making him stare at her with his psychotic gaze. Bangs were falling on his bloodshot eyes. The lining of his eyes was gleaming red in anger and desperation.

He didn't want to let her go. Not now, not ever. He will never let her go. He can't let her heal him otherwise how will he see her beautiful face again. This thought for the first time in the past 12 years scared him. He didn't want to disappear. He wants to live here forever.

His insanity was obsessed with her and the power of that obsession was way stronger than the love his sanity holds for her. He wants nothing more than to possess her in every way possible. And he will never let her get rid of him never.

Everything was indeed just in his mind. It was his mind, his obsession, his love. Everything was inside his head but he was too weak and manipulated to control it.

"Listen to me Lucifer." She said softly and her soft voice again did something to his mind. The way her eyes stared at him switched something inside him on.

"Like I said I don't want to get rid of any of your parts. For me your aggressive, kid, and normal sides everything that's part of you is you. And I have accepted you too. Then why will I try to get rid of you?" She said softly and calmly and there was indeed no lie.

Every personality was inside him. He was a mixture of these personalities but his sanity has just split those personalities and gave them new and separate shaping. And she knew she will never get rid of any of his personality every part of his will remain in him but she just needs to bring his sanity on track.

His eyes soften a little but again turned hard in a split moment as something had snapped in him. Catelin gulped before again whispering.

"I don't want you to go anywhere. You are part of this body and you are important to me." She said caressing his cheek making him finally loosen his grip on her waist a little.

"Prove it." He said making her frown.

"Prove it. Kiss me. Kiss me like you mean it. Kiss me like you kiss him." He mumbled and there was a desperation and desire in his gaze as he said those words while staring right into her eyes.

Then she realized she had never kissed aggressive Lucifer. He indeed had kissed her a few times but she never kissed him back. Gulping down she glances at his lips. Lucifer was stone stood in the pool while tightly holding her in his arms.

He waited patiently for her and his patience indeed paid off when she leaned forward and pecked the tip of his nose. Before kissing his wet cheeks. Her arms again got tangled around his neck as she leaned down closing her eyes.

Finally, her lips met his cold ice ones. Their lips made friction sending warmth in their bodies when she completely decreased the distance between them.

Lucifer's eyes automatically got shut off as he placed his other hand on her wet cheek kissing her back. His kiss was surprisingly soft and slow. And the way he kissed her she felt a glimpse of normal Lucifer in it.

She slowly moved her lips against his as they both kissed lovingly but soon his eyes snapped up. His eyelids turned dark and his eyes narrowed. He stopped kissing her for a second. Catelin didn't notice as she was busy moving her lips.

His fingers went to her wet hairs as he gently gripped them and slowly his eyes got shut off before he increased his pace. He started kissing her aggressively.