His Sanity by Mirah Selim (great book club books .txt) 📖

Catelin Pov

I sighed heavily leaning my back against the bed's headboard. My eyes fell on his sleeping face before again another sigh left from my lips.

God. Why is he so confusing. Why his mental illness is so hard to point out that what is it. I can't do anything except make efforts to bring him to the doctor.

I know that the aggressive side of his is extremely cunning. While the kid side of his is weirdly manipulative. Then what was the personality I just witnessed last night when he confessed his love for me?

The eyes. The emotions. The softness I witnessed in his hazel orbs wasn't of aggressive or naive Lucifer. It was someone else. He looks normal. So familiar yet so confusing.

My mind went to the last night when I almost gave up wanting to feel his lips on mine. I don't want to give up so easily but it's just so hard to hold myself and not give up.

His love. His words. His actions last night everything seemed so genuine. Like he was the normal guy desperately asking for one chance. I don't know how was I able to hold myself back when all my heart wanted was to give up.

I wanted to let him rule over me. But again the promises I made to my aunt and uncle. I can't break them. I just can't.

My thoughts got interrupted hearing my phone ring tone. It wasn't in Lucifer's room but mine and as our rooms were extremely close I was able to hear my phone's ring tone.

I carefully stood up from the bed and went to my room. My eyes never forgot to have a glance at my portrait on the wall. And something in my heart every time flutters at how much love this action of his shows for me.

Shaking my head I went to my room and grabbed my phone from the side table. Dr Steward.

"Hello, good morning doctor." He greeted me back and asked me about what I was expecting him to.

"Did you convince Lucifer? When are you bringing him here." I sighed heavily in disappointment and hesitantly started explaining to him what happened yesterday.

"My manipulation backfired badly. I told you, doctor, he will never hurt me but in anger, he always harms himself and I can't risk more. I can't see him injuring himself more." I heard him sigh heavily.

"God damn it. That's just messed up. How will I be able to understand what's wrong with him without meeting him." We both went silent as I signed for the hundredth time.

"I have an idea." My ears perked up in anticipation as I waited for him to continue.

"I can come to your house." My eyes widened at his words. Has he lost his mind? I just told him that a mare mention of his name made Lucifer destroy his hand and if he visited us Lucifer might end up doing worst.

"Doctor with all due respect you have lost your mind. I just told you what he did yesterday and you're asking for a murder. His aggressive side wouldn't take long before killing you."

I said calmly only to hear him chuckle in response. The man indeed has lost his mind. He's not taking anything seriously.

"I know Catelin. I know very well but we have no other option. I promised Mr. King that I will do anything to help Lucifer and now I can't back out. So yes I am coming tonight for dinner. I know he might end up doing bad but I have no other option. That cunning side of his wouldn't let him visit me. And to examine him I need to see him personally."

I debated on what he said for a second and finally agreed with him. He wasn't wrong. Without examining Lucifer no doctor can detect his illness and Dr. Steward wasn't wrong. But again the thought of that aggressive Lucifer coming out scares me.

Hanging up the call I did my morning routine and took a warm shower before changing my clothes into a warm sweater and a skirt.

I went to the kitchen and started making breakfast. From the day we came here only that creepy driver works here. No maids. No workers. No one. This penthouse sometimes scares me at how silent it is.

The surroundings are full of forest and greenery. The main road comes after almost 50 km. Sighing once again I decided to make a toast and coffee.

I was busy with the coffee machine when a small gasp left from my lips feeling two arms around my waist. At first, I stiffened in fear but then.

"Cate what are you doing." I sighed in relief hearing kid Lucifer's naive and sweet voice. My heart softens at how innocent he sounded.

"I am making toast. What you want for breakfast." He hummed tightening his grip on me and keeping his chin on my shoulder. It wasn't something new. He used to do these types of actions. But now it feels weird.

"Cookies and chocolate milk." I chuckled nodding my head. After some time I and Lucifer finished the breakfast. Finally watching the kid Lucifer I kind of felt relaxed that meeting with Dr. Steward wouldn't be that bad. Right?

Just like that whole day went away only for Dr. Steward to arrive. He smiled at Lucifer who frowned at the man. My smile wavered at how emotions in his eyes started changing.

"Lucifer this is Dr. Steward My mentor. Remember I told you about him. And doctor he's Lucifer." Dr. Steward nodded still keeping his weird stare at Lucifer who didn't back away as well.

I frowned when the doctor walked towards Lucifer not breaking the stare. Unconsciously I gulped down at how scary their glares were looking.

"Lucifer finally I got a chance to meet you." He said extending his hand but Lucifer didn't say anything. His gaze changed a bit making me gulp down in anticipation. But then.

"Hello, doctor I am Lucifer Cate's Lucifer." He exclaimed loudly grabbing the doctor's hand and shaking it childishly. I almost sighed in relief that kid Lucifer was still there.

But then frowned when Dr. Steward looked weirdly suspicious of Lucifer.

"Uhm the dinner is ready. Why don't we take our conversation to dine room? Doctor, please sit there I will arrange the table." He smiled at me pulling his hand away from Lucifer.