His Sanity by Mirah Selim (great book club books .txt) 📖

Author Pov

Catelin got busy making breakfast after taking a shower and getting dressed. She felt fresh and happy after what happened in the morning. She smiled at the memory remembering how normally Lucifer behaved.

She was cutting fruits when she felt two arms around her waist making her froze for a few seconds before she relaxed in his arms sniffing his scent. He placed his chin on her shoulder making her chuckle as his wet hair brushed against her warm skin.

"You seem really happy with him." This snatched her smile. Her breath hitched at the dark tone of his. It wasn't the Lucifer she had met in the morning. It was short temper psycho Lucifer.

She gulped taking a sharp breath when he let out a dark chuckle before snuggling his head in her crook and sighing in content.

"See how tensed your body becomes when you realized it's me, not your coward bastard." He whispered in her ear sending a shiver down her spine.

But then something hit her. Coward bastard. A small frown appeared on her forehead as she thought about his words. Why did he call the normal Lucifer a coward? What's forcing Lucifer to hide again and again behind this facade. What?

She flinched tensing up when he wrapped his large hand on her tiny one that was holding a knife. She tried leaving the knife but instead, he tighten his grip on her folded hand not letting her drop the knife.

She gasped out when he abruptly turned her around making her snap her head up and look straightly into his hazel eyes. He smirked leaning his head down to her face level.

Her eyes widened when he pulled the knife up and placed it right on his neck. She tried desperately pulling her hand back to detach the knife from his neck but instead, he applied more force digging the knife in his flesh. He didn't put enough pressure to cut his skin but still, it alerted Catelin as she instantly stopped struggling.

"Lucifer please what are you do--" He shut her up with his scary calm voice.

" Shh. Not a word. Listen to me." She shut her mouth and glanced at the knife and then looked in his eyes who were shooting nothing but anger at her.

"I love you the way he does. We all are your slaves doll. But then why am I an exception? Why do you only behave this different, this much distant from me why? " He said darkening his eyes as a hint of jealousy started appearing in his gaze.

He placed his other hand on the kitchen's counter and leaned to her face making her press herself against the slab.

"Fucking Speak up!" He lowly sneered on her face making her flinch.

"Y-You are wrong." She said gulping down. Her eyes again glanced at the knife and then in his eyes.

"When I said I care about you what I meant was I cared about your every personality. I don't care anymore if you can be normal again or not I just can't keep on running away and behaving like I don't want this and kept on pushing you for something you don't want." She said trying her best to be as much gentle as she could be.

Lucifer said nothing only staring at her he tilted his head to the side a little as he stared into her eyes like a psycho lover. He was consciously trying to find any trace of lie or suspicion in her eyes but nothing. Her eyes were only screaming sincerity at him.

Catelin saw how his grip on her hand started loosening and a wave of happiness swept away in her heart realizing it was working. Whatever she said or was going to say nothing was a lie. Everything was the words her heart uttered.

She slowly held her free hand up and placed it on his cheek but unlike the normal Lucifer, he didn't close his eyes or behave like her touch has made his body shiver in happiness. He stared into her eyes without blinking and reacting.

"I care about you a lot. You are important to me as much as the other personalities. Please don't hurt yourself I wouldn't be able to handle it. Seeing you in pain hurt me." Then it happened. His eye color suddenly lighten up as they weren't as much dark as before.

They weren't the same as normal Lucifer but there was indeed a bit of a difference as the anger, insecurity, and jealousy faded away from his gaze. He looked at her with an emotionless gaze.

Catelin opened her mouth to say something but her words got swallowed by his rough lips. She gasped out in horror as the knife was still on his neck and to kiss her he let the knife apply pressure on his neck.

She tried to look at his neck but instead, he kissed her more roughly. The pace of his kiss was beyond her control. Her eyes on their own got shut down as she wasn't able to keep them open because of his roughness.

He leaned forward even more deepening the kiss the back of the knife touched her neck as well. But she wasn't able to focus on anything her mind was messed up at how harsh his kiss was. He bit the side of her lip making her hiss.

His tongue devoured her at his fullest as he took a good time in making her place her free hand on his shoulder. Her face went upwards because of his inhumane pace. He was literally eating her lips.

And the difference between the normal Lucifer and the aggressive one was clear. Normal one asked her permission and sees her comfort before having any intimacy with her while this aggressive psycho never considered her consent important. Even the way he kissed her he fulfilled his hunger at his fullest without caring about her comfort.

And she knew he can't control it. This side of his is more powerful than his normal self. He depends on this personality of his more than needed and it's kind of understandable why this aggressive side of his appears anytime he wants.

She wasn't able to kiss him back after all the kiss was beyond her control. The way he ate her lips she knew there was no way for her to reciprocate the harsh kiss.

She tapped his shoulder as she was out of breath. But even after her signal, he took good seconds to pull away before biting her lower lip and giving it a hard tug making her hiss slightly.