What if i love you by brea isomee (books to read to get smarter .TXT) 📖

jumped off the counter and walked up to me " you still don't have shit to say ? When i was giving birth you weren't there , when i found out the sex of the baby you weren't there , WHEN I FUCKIN' NEEDED YOU DAMMIT YOU WEREN'T THERE !"

"i know ," i grabbed her and wrapped my arms around her slim body bear hugging her . She tried to pull away but no matter how hard she tries i'm not going to let her go . She let out a scream and broke down completely . Her legs gave out and next thing i know we're sitting on the floor , her head still in my chest and my arms still holding her tight .

" yo , what the -" Damon said but he stopped in the door way once he saw me holding her , he turned around and walked away smiling . I'm sure he's going to get tell Destiny .

" i'm sorry Chelsey , " i began " i'm sorry . There's no excuse for what i did , babe , none whats so ever . I should have been there and did what i needed to do , but i didn't , but i'm here now , and i want to make it up to you . Will you let me ?"

She shook her head yes trying to keep her voice from cracking she said " D'Shawn , i promise you , you're not getting a-any more chances . His birthday if February 12th . And his name is D'Shawn Omari Davis Jr ."

" you named him after me ?!"

" yes , he's yours . And , he needs you . I need you too . "

I lifted her chin so we were looking eye to eye and before i pressed my lips to hers i said " i'll be here , i promise ."

I think i'll call him , DJay .
- Damon -

Destiny's small frame sat on my lap as i sat on the couch , with Chelsey doing the same thing to D'Shawn . We all sit , silently in the dark watching a movie on our 52 inch flat screen TV . Chelsey put her baby to sleep about 10 minutes ago and it's been peace and quiet ever since . I'm so happy D'shawn finally got over his fears and is getting his shit together with Chelsey and his son , D'shawn Jr . That's what's up , because i would hate it if i had to go through the rest of my life denying a baby that i know is mines , like D'Shawn probably would have done if Chelsey didn't come over tonight . And speaking of kids , i can't wait to hold my own in about another 8 and a half months . Just thinking about my son ( or daughter ) growing inside of Destiny's tiny belly is making me proud . It is no longer bothering me at all that i love Destiny the way i do , love is love , it has no name or race . I'm glad me and Destiny both feel the same .

I wrapped my arms around Destiny's waist and pulled her body closer to mines " baby , " i whispered in her ear " i love you . "

" i love you too , " she turned around , gave me a light peck on the lips making me want more , and turned back around to face the TV .

I slid my hands under the front of shirt , rubbing circles on her stomach and playing with her belly ring . I began to slid my hand down lower , untying the string on my basketball shorts that she has on , and slipped one hand down her pants to play in the sweetness i long to be inside of again .

" Damon , " she moans out as lightly as she can trying not to be too loud " stop it ."

" why ? You know you don't want me to . "

With my free hand i moved hair from her neck and began to kiss up and down it , just want to please her . She let out another moan but this one was way louder . Chelsey looked at us as i quickly snatched my hand from inside the shorts " i swear , ya'll is nasty ."

I laughed and shook my head " i have no idea what you're talking about ."

Chelsey rolled her eyes " you know i know , Damon . Stop playing stupid ."

" who says he's playing ? He might just really be stupid ." D'Shawn chipped in , laughing " but no , for real , you could have just asked us to leave . That's just trifling . You don't see me feeling up on Chelsey like that ."

" boy , even if you wanted to feel up on me you wouldn't be able to ."

" we both know that's a lie ."

" okay , " i started , running my hands up and down Destiny's hips feeling her body heat up under neath my touch " so , can you two go then ? "

" hell naw , can you go to your room ?"

I huffed , taking her all the way up the steps and to my room is way too much to be doing when i have a full hard-on damn near pushing through the slit in the front of my boxers and my pajama pants .

" come on , D'Shawn , i'll owe you man ."

He shook his head and dragged Chelsey from the room and holding his son in his arms .

Destiny turned around to face me straddling my lap " why did you do that ?They could have stayed . We don't need to be doing this any way ."

I pulled her shirt from her body with ease and began to kiss up and down her bare chest as i palmed each one of her butt cheeks in my hands " you know damn well , you want this like i do . Stop playing ."

" maybe ."

" what if i do this , " I leaned forward to kiss her but my phone began to ring ruining the moment completely . Destiny tried to get up but i held her in place " please , Dez , don't move ."

" you might want to get your phone before one of your little girlfriends gets mad at you . "

" stop it , " i pulled my phone out of my pocket and looked at the screen " it's Jamal . " I show her the screen so she can stop freaking out and i answer " yo' !"

" ayy , where you been man ? You been M.I.A for a minute now ."

" man , i've been busy . I'm just tryna take care of my future wife and my seed , that's all ." I pecked Destiny's lips " i can't have no shit going down without me here ."

" future wife ? Seed ? Oh hell naw ! What you do with my friend , the one i been knowing since i was 5 , the one who swore up and down he was never getting married and never having kids . What happened to that Damon Davis because this sure as hell can't be the same one ."

" nigga , things change i guess . But i'm happy with it though . Anyways , was supp Why you calling ? "

" i was just tryna see if you wanted to go over to Jessie house , you know she having that party tonight , and i ain't got shit better to do . "

" um , " i put the phone in between my shoulder and my ear so i can run my hands up the shorts and along her smooth bare thighs " give me about a hour , and i'll come by there and pick you up ."

" cool ."

I hung up and tossed my phone onto the floor , lifting Destiny off of me and laying her on her back i got ready to climb on top of her but she pushed me away " next time you want to do something , think about that before you agree to go to a party ."

She stood up and left the living room , leaving me sitting here looking stupid as fuck , with my body yearning for hers .

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-Destiny-

I stumbled out of my bed , rushing to the bathroom so i can release another load of vomit , making me feel sick but taking away my nausea all at the same time . I'm not sure how much longer i can do this . I took a quick shower and got myself together , then i dressed in a pair of blue jean shorts a fitted pink wife beater , and my pink and yellow plaid Sperry's . I left off the earrings and bracelets , i'm not going for cute just for chilled and laid back .

I peeped inside of Damon's room , not really caring about him though , to see him passed out on the floor leaning up against the side of his bed . I snagged his car keys out of his hand and got my wallet and phone getting ready to leave . I drove a few blocks over to a coffee shop . I need time alone , to get myself together and work through my thoughts . Somewhere in my mind i know i shouldn't be dating my brother , i know i shouldn't be pregnant by him , i know i shouldn't even be attracted to him either . But i am all of those things , i'm just a sick - very sick - person .

" a glazed doughtnut and a Vanilla Frappe , please ."

I took a seat in the corner , where the lights are slightly dim , so i can scan the coffee shop with ease . And then my eyes spotted them . The first one ; He's got to be about 19 , light skin with deep waves in his hair , tattoos littered across his shirtless chest . The second one ; i'd say he's 16 , dark skin , with a fade but no waves and less tattoos on his bare chest than the first one . And the third one : about 19 as well , dark skin like the second one , waves in his head like the first one , and tattoos across his chest and arms like both of them . They're not from around here , i can tell because hell i'm not from around here . My mother didn't move into the suburbs until i was 13 , so i know a thing or two about not being rom around here . And they are definitely from the hood . The hair on the back of my neck stood up and my body instantly begins to tingle .

What the heck .

I can't just see boys and all of a sudden be drawn to them . Oh who am i kidding , yes i can .